It's always a new change every one notice when the first time you read about reproduction in books you actually get to know about your own body not only this but you also notice others with a strange view this time as so most of his classmates were facing but this soul wasn't distracted by this obsession with the bodies.He knew no love no feelings untill he visited his grandparents for summer vacations.
Its greatly surprising how some people get to know what you are without even a word uttered and so had he found his soulmate.First love is always fascinating as so was in mine case.
We often listen stories of falling for someone so beautiful but we go for someone so pure;spirit of happiness,the magical lamp that illuminated his life was finally lit.
I met this girl (khushi) one morning sitting beside me while I waking up.She was sitting with her mother talking to mine which I hardly noticed because if in the morning you find someone to be so pretty and beautiful even more than the morning sunrise it's very rare occasion and it's interest peeking into my eyes.I have known her for long as we grew together then I was shifted with my father so it was not out familiarity for her to peek but this time her cheeks grew pink.
"Never saw me sleeping or can't take your eyes off me" I asked
"With that much pain in heart if someone can smile it's an art"she said cunningly
I still can't forget that movement when she said those words her hand on my forehead, her white skin body was shining yellowish-red and her pink lips they just waving in air I haven't heard what she said her eyes where gazing into mine.I honestly have never ever saw eyes so tempting and literally I sank in them.
"Let him sleep he might be tired", ordered her mom
"wake him up,what is he gonna do all day"stated my mom
I got up washed up my face and brushing my teeth and think about that one movement, wondering how beautiful is she.
I was frustrated, hesitated and frightened about this weird thing and it was acceptable as it was first time you have experienced obsession for someone.All I could ever think of was her,this attraction wasn't sexual,it was more than just two individuals find each other attractive in sexual ways it was more of understanding type.
It may sound mythical but we were actually able to understand and predict what other one is thinking so accurately that we didn't almost talk to each other and yet we knew everything.I followed her in streets,terrace,her home and it wasn't offending one, which she cleared as once she came and said "lets walk to shop its bit far and I don't wanna go alone as there are street dogs"
I hesitated Coz dogs my phobia,nightmare everything getting alive once again but she was gonna be with me this time so I was convencing myself out of all the odds that I can.We went there that street in front of shop had 3-4 dogs,i was blank for a bit my head was blank I had no idea how to react or what to react but somehow my legs moved themselves.I don't know how but it all just happend and we came home back.
Next day while I was doing my holiday homework she came and sat nearby Infront of me took one of my notebook and started doing my work.Yes,without saying she was helping it's her nature her more adorable quality that if she feel she can help she don't need you to say her anything she will get it done but this was annoying in ways too but I was getting addicted to her.So it didn't mattered to me.
"you are scared of dogs,Ain't you??"she asked
I was shocked for a movement didn't knew what to say but I tried to face truth and said "yes I'm but how do you know?who told you"
"we both know the answer so don't try to act innocent and no one knows you are sacred of dogs"she said"its alright i don't have any issues and won't tell anyone"
"And you aren't scared of anything but cats"I asked"so why did you asked me to come with you"
"I just wanna see how far you can go for what you like"she quoted"I know all you can think of is me and don't freak out its normal"
"and what was the result"
"above and beyond the death"
Somewhere deep in my heart I knew what she meant but I ignored the fact then we sat silently and got back to work.It was first time i didn't realise that i just sat and did my work for straight 3 hours.For the first time my holiday homework was complete in years,first time i actually enjoyed doing all this work.She might just be sitting there and doing my some of work but it sparked my interest in studying.
I just wanted to talk to her more and more.At first I hesitated,i tried a lot to talk to her but this feeling of anxiety always held me back whenever I went to talk to her my heart started pounding out of chest and I could literally hear my own heartbeats.
I have never thought that it would be so hard to talk to someone who wakes you up in the morning.I was dying of the guilt of not being able to talk to her even when you are so close and understand and predict her mood so well.
The last day of summer stay and grandparents and I still have no idea what to say about how I'm feeling and most importantly how to say.I didn't want to open my eyes up to begin my day Coz I don't wanna go away without saying it all but I forgetting most important aspect of my life currently that my angel,yes,angel of the morning prettier than the sunrise herself used to wake me up and how could she miss it today and so it did happens came placed her hand on my forehead my mom was about to wake me up but she saw khushi and she left.Khushi took my forehead and placed it on her lap and ran her fingers through my hairs it was for the first time she ever did this.
She came close to my ears and said"open your eyes I will always wait for you"
I just got up opened my eyes I thrilled I looked at her she was all blushing, she was just sitting there bathing in sunrays and shining like never before she was like this magical princess. I got up from my bed went for refreshing myself even though I was shocked already.We ate aalo ke Parathe at my home as our last breakfast this su.mer together and went out.
We were both just walking the dead silence none of us said anything road was almost empty as it was Sunday morning and Summer breaks were about to be over the walk was just chilling untill she break the silence saying"I know you won't still say a thing,how hard is it to say,dont you trust me at all?"
"say what and i do trust"
"how many times should I tell you that don't act innocent like you don't know anything infront of me","I know that you are having these feeling that you won't say you are afraid of confronting them,why "
"so you don't have any problem with it, you are fine with it"
"I dont stupid,why do you think a girl will daily wake you up and I know that all can think of is me nowadays"
"I LIKE YOU" I somehow managed to say and figure out what was going on.
"I like you too and don't be sad when you go back to your home "
"you think i can help myself not being sad without you when for a month the first thing a saw was your pretty face,do you have any idea"
"ever thought of me genius mera kya hoga,when all i wanted is to see you opening your eyes in the morning,my desire to be the first person you see in the morning"
I have never felt so wanted in my life uptill then I hold her hand and we walked.
"I won't be meeting you tomorrow when you will leave" she added
"and what is the holy reason behind this"i asked
"I don't ever want to say byee to you jaan"she said and smiled
Next day we left for my home I was just sitting near window seat seeing out that was very out of character for me everyone in my family was shocked but they haven't interrupted after all I was alive now since birth.
I had tears in my eyes for sure but no of sorrow this time it hope.My life was just starting I finally knew what it was like to live and feel alive.
The Story doesn't end coz "abhi toh sala humara jawan hona baki tha"
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