I came home with a heavy heart; my mom asked me what's wrong. I said nothing went into my room, closed the doors.
I have two options left with my life whether to forget the incident and move on.
And the other one was to stick on to my sadness going nowhere, remaining unhappy for the rest of my life.
Two options before me were life and death problem since I was that much emotionally attached to that girl who left me. It's impossible to forget the person who gave you a lot of memories to cherish for this life. I would've gone for the second option of going into depression. My mom, who suffered for nine months to give me birth and my father, who is working hard to feed and satisfy our needs. However, I said before; I am unable to choose between the two options.
spent the whole night even I am scared to close my eyes.it's going to be the toughest decision I'm going to take.
Its morning 6 am mom cam with coffee in her hand, asking me to open the door.
I, with reddish eyes, hesitated to open the door, with due respect and love, opened the door. My mom asked China what happened; I said nothing. Nothing??? A questing face. Seriously man, just little headache.
A day passed.
I am still depressed.
And I decided to tell my parents that I am mentally depressed, please do not keep hopes on my future.
I can't go to college. Please leave me alone. I went with a brave heart to say these words.
When I was about to knock the door. I heard my fathers voice from the room,
My father is saying to my mom that "he asked for Rs.50,000 loan from his boss to buy me a bike, which I asked earlier.
And he added that. He can't compensate what he did to me when I expressed my dream about becoming a cricketer.
He said to her that his intention was not to hurt me. But there is no guarantee of having a successful carrier in cricket, so I have to be rude and said no for his dream.
After listening to that conversation, I rushed to my room. Tears are rolling from my eyes, which is very rare.
One thing that struck in my mind was
"YOU CAN HURT ANYONE YOU LOVE, BUT YOU JUST CAN'T HURT SOMEONE WHO SACRIFICED THEIR LIFE FOR YOUR WELL BEING."
And my decision was clear, i.e., not to think much about what I have lost. BECAUSE LIFE IS A JOURNEY, WE ALL TRAVEL TOGETHER IN THE SAME VEHICLE, BUT OUR DESTINATIONS MAY NOT BE SAME".
And her destination has arrived, and she went off. Only things I can do is to live with her memories and fulfill my parent's dream.
Yes, There would be satisfaction in fulfilling my dream."BUT THERE IS A LOVE WHEN YOU FULFIL THE DREAMS OF PEOPLE WHO SACRIFICED THEIR LIFE FOR YOU".
For the first time in my life, I took a decision and went to my parent's room said dad; I don't want any bike(since I know how hard it is to ride a bike on the same road where my love died)
at last, I convinced my parents and gave them a word that "I am going to be something else, not the old me anymore."
-praneeth.
To be continued.