*This is a warning this chapter is kind of depressing so if you don't want to feel sad are you don't like depressing shit then dont read this but honestly its not that depressing well to me it isn't but maybe to other readers it could be depressing so this is just a warning for you people who don't like depressing topics.*
[ Eric POV ]
"Sorry, Phillip, but I think we shouldn't see each other for a while."
"I'M SORRY PLEASE DON"T LEAVE ME ERIC!!!"
*When Eric left and closed the door he sled down and curled into a ball, putting his hands on his face and started crying*
Why do I feel so guilty, why do I have these feelings towards Phillip? why do I have to feel this way? I can't fall in love with Phillip and James at the same time!!
*Eric felt so bad, he didn't know what to do he just wanted to be happy, but now he is stressed, because he doesn't know what to do anymore*
I got up and started walking on the sidewalk, I called for a taxi to take me home. When I arrived at my apartment, I went to take a shower.
I looked in the mirror after taking my shirt off. Phillip made a lot of marks on me, there's too many I won't be able to cover them all.
* Eric went in the shower. The warm water pouring onto his body, making Eric feel sad, then Eric started crying again. He punched the wall and hunched over, he asked himself "Why me"? "Why did this had to happen to me"?*
I went to bed after taking a shower my body feels refreshed but not my mind I still can't stop these questions over flowing my head I just want everything to go back the way it was but we all know thats impossible to turn back time, well thats what I think.
[ Phillip POV ]
When Eric left, I felt so angry at myself I started punching the walls, "Why did I do that"!? "I should of controlled myself"!! Now Eric hates me, I don't know what to do anymore I want to cry and I want this to all be a dream!!
I feel like swallowing pills, I don't feel okay right now I don't want to feel this sadness. I can't live without Eric not being by my side. I'm scared I need to be with him I want see his beautiful face again.
"AAAAAHHHH" "WHY DID THIS HAVE TO HAPPEN"!? I won't be able to forgive myself for this!!
*Phillip went to the restroom where he had all of his medicine in a small cabinet, he took a random one and swallowed a quarter filled bottle of pills which were about 10 pills.*
*Phillip went to the bed feeling light head and fell on the bed and fainted.*
I Won't Forgive You