I woke up in someone's strange bed without wearing anything. My clothes scattered on the floor. Alexander is sleeping beside me without his t-shirt. I saw few bloods on the bedsheet. I felt something pain below my stomach as I slowly move.
Lost. Pain. Shame. Undesirable. All of those are enough to be horrific.
Yes! I was definitely horrified that ables me to screamed louder than I expected.
As soon as I went out from the condo, I run faster afraid that someone is coming with me. Run without thinking until I lost my direction. Run nonstop until my feet become numb. Run until I run out of breath. Run until no one can stop me from running.
I am too afraid to go home. Too afraid to hear a sermon. Too afraid to face my friends. Too afraid that I can't accept myself. Too afraid to act myself as an innocent girl. Too afraid too think how dirty I am.
I am in pain. Afraid. Fierce. Horrified.
As soon as I reached the bridge, I stop from running. My tears continuously dropping in my chicks.
How could Alexander do that to me? How could he touch me without me responding? How could he act like nothing is his fault? How could he see me through my eyes? How could he go inside of me? All of those makes me want to scream as much as I can but no voice come out from my throat.
Hours had passed when I decided to go home. Afraid of my mother, I silently peek on the small hole to see if mom is inside in our house. Luckily, she's not there. As fast as I could, I went to my room. I get the towel and went to the bathroom. A cold water is splashing to my body. The feeling of having been touch is still there and fresh. The way how boys do bad things to the girls like raping them splash in my mind. I am now imagining the way how Alexander go inside me forcefully.
When I had finished my bath, I hurriedly wear my uniform. I tied my hair at the back without combing it properly. I have to make my move fast before my mother will arrive.
As soon as I've got to the school, I went directly to the 4th floor near the library instead of going to our room laboratory. I don't have the got to attend classes. I don't want to be interfere by anyone even Maria and Rose. I don't want to listen any of those class discussion. But I want to be alone.
I stayed there almost 7 hours. Sitting on the last step of the stairway. I didn't even take my lunch since I don't have my appetite.
It was almost 7 pm when I decided to go down. My last period supposed to be until 4:30 only. But I didn't noticed the time. When I am supposed to turn right, I bump into someone's chest.
The guy has an attractive personality, good sense of clothing, tall, sharp featured, well built and good -looking.
"I'm so sorry miss." he ask for apology.
"No. It's my fault and not yours. I am the one supposed to say sorry. I should be more careful while walking. I'm.... I'm really sorry." I said sincerely.
"No, it's fine. But anyway, thank you!"
"So? I will leave first? By the way, I'm Althea." while gesturing to make a shake hand.
"Prince Kyle. Kyle for short." and he took my hand, looking into my eyes and then we parted our ways.
I am about to bound the exit when I heard someone calling my name. Upon hearing his voice, I staggered away and ran to the gate. But he still got me by grabbing my arm.
" Look, I don't want to talk to anyone! Release my arm and let me go!" I demanded.
"But I can't. Your friends are too worried of you. They ask me for help to find you."
"Thank you." I said sarcastically. "Now, you can go back and tell them that I am hundred percent okay. No need to worry."
"Althea, I know you're feelings. I'm really sorry for what happened last night. But....." I did not let him to continue whatever he was about to say. I don't want to talk about what happened last night and with him.
"Okay....okay.....okay." I raise my two palms indicating that I surrender. "But please, I'm begging you Chris Paul. Don't ever mention again about last night. Please!" my tears are about to form in my eyes again. But he didn't say anything in few seconds. He kept silent as if he was shock.
"How did you, I mean when did you.....?" he ask.
"When did I what?"
"Since when did you know that I am Chris Paul and not Alexander?" he seems surprised.
"It doesn't matter anymore." my response is too short indicating for unwanted conversation.
"Althea, I'm so sorry. Please forgive me. I know, what I did was really unacceptable. But I do hope you will forgive me."
"No problem." I said but deep inside I'm still angry for what they did. They fool me. I just want to end the conversation.
He offer to go with me where Maria and Rose staying. But I refused and insisted that I really want to go home.
I am sitting right now in passengers seat beside him after having a long argument. He insisted to send me home. I don't have any choice when he grab my arm again where his car was parked.
"Althea, I hope you will give us time to compensate for what we had done on you." he said out of nowhere.