You are always yourself
Every second of everyday
You are who you are
Every step of the way
You have your whole life
To treat youself with teasures
And yet you do the exact opposite
And others you pleasure
You dedicate your life
To provide others happiness
But who provides yours?
As you swallow in darkness
You always watch
The backs of others
But who watches yours?
When you're already watching another's
Please I beg of you
If only for a day
Find the positive in the bad
And be happy for your birthday
A whole day for you
And not him not her
Be selfish for once
And look in the mirror
See who you are
The one you'll forever be
Me, myself and I
We're the only ones that can heal me
Heal us
The broken little girl
Because we only have each other
In this isolating world
So once for your life
Take off your masks, tear down your walls
Cut off all strings
And burn all your paper dolls
Because in all your life
Nothing will pain your more
Than losing your will to live
And forgetting who you are
[End]
"If Only For A Day"
By: MysticalGalaxy14
[12/14/18]
Author's note:
I wrote this one for my birthday.
Examination days were coming and I was stressed af.
I was not feeling the joy of my birthday.
I was not happy. In fact I felt cold.
That realization of me sitting alone in our dining table sorrounded by books and notebooks with no one else.
My birthday came and nothing special happens. I know that. But it was different this year. I felt lost. Nobody knew it was special, but I did. And I was a complete doormat.
Friends celebrated it with me for the first time, yet for some reason I felt more lost and alone than when I celebrated it alone with my family the past years.
Maybe it was because all my classmates don't know me enough to care or maybe it's because I was down low to the point I realized how while I was there drowning myself in books and knowledge, others lived their lives and made friends and tasted life. Had fun and drama and thrill.
Last year really took a toll on me, changed my perspective. It opened my mind to the point of no return. It's like it sucked all the things I valued for and disintegrated it into ashes scattered in the wind. Life lost its colors. I was lost.
This year started with me looking for scraps and dirt to help me to stand back up again. Like a lost pup seperated from the pack and is stranded in a burning desert.
I don't know how long it will take me to find a haven or if I'm even able to find a single drop of water. But I have no other choice than to wander and hope there is still something to find.
This was really depressing, sorry, I had another mood again.
I hope you're happy.
Hope you enjoyed.