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Chapter 23 - 23. What do I want from life?

When you spend time with your friends, time passes quickly. Shradha felt that her 3 months vacation was well spent this time. Between her 2 part time jobs, endless supply of science fictions, online gaming and Nishant, she completely had no time to think of loneliness. They say empty mind is the devil's workshop. Shradha used to fill up the empty and lonely feeling in her life by parties, guys and other useless things. But she would always end up feeling more depressed in the end. Previous semester break was unbearable to Shradha because of all these things. But this time things were different; she had a friend who genuinely cared about her. She had a target to achieve and things to learn. After the serious discussion with NIshant on the other day, Shradha had started thinking about her future. In one of the sessions, she had discussed with Neeta about her confusions. Deciding to take control of your life is easier compared to figuring out answers to questions like 'how' and 'what'.

"Having confusion about your future is natural. Some people figure it out in the early stages, while others take time to understand themselves and their priorities. It is perfectly fine to be in that state of mind. 'What do I want from life?' is not an easy question and hoping to find answers in a definitive period is stupidity. People spend a whole lifetime in finding answers and you are stressed here thinking that you don't know what to do in life. Give yourself a break and focus on finding out more about yourself; who is Shradha? what do YOU like to do when you are free? What interests you? What is boring? What is worth your time? Would you rather party or travel? Friends or family? Try to find answers for these questions and figure out your priorities. No one is holding knife under your throat for the answers; so take your own time and work in your own phase. Sometimes ignoring the roaring question in your head and focusing on other things can get you answers. So do that! Enjoy this college life. Believe me when I say this - this is the best phase in everyone's life. You have to live your fullest. This time will never come back." This is what Neeta had said.

So Shradha had decided to understand herself better first and then try to find answers for other questions. She was going to read more, learn technologies sincerely, travel a little and of course spend time gaming. Although it started as a way of escaping reality, Shradha was realising that she really liked gaming and she did have the skills for online gaming. So second year of Engineering was going to be fun!

While Shradha was feeling good about her summer, Nishant was listening to Sheela's endless lectures. Although he had a pretty good feeling about the vacation, Sheela was stressing out that time wasted in 2 months had to be compensated in the coming months. She wanted Nishant to join some technical courses during the holidays, but he had wasted his time running around with Shradha in the name of part time job. So Sheela used all possible ways to tell Nishant to focus on his studies once the semester started. She knew Nishant would not listen to her if she spoke about Shradha. So instead of saying bad things about their friendship, Sheela focused on Nishant's emotions and spoke about their dreams for him and how they would be heartbroken if Nishant fails to fulfill their wishes. This was indeed emotional blackmail and deep down Nishant knew what his mother was trying to do. But his attachment towards them and his fear of disappointing them was stronger than all other emotions.