I stayed with Allen the rest of the week
we had dinners in his apartment
I felt like I was in a bubble
I cried in the showers as i wash away my grief
and he layed on the bed
I got dressed in my night gown
he was listening as I told him the story of my life
he was not even flinching when I told him
I was adopted by my real Mother's Sister
I was not the daughter of Stella
we were never a Real family
she was my actual Aunt
who adopted me after my real Mother lived overseas
she left me to pursue her dreams
I was shaking and Allen held me in his arms
he lifted my chin and kissed me gently
he carefully looked into my eyes
and Said "I love You"
whoever You may think You are
You are real to me
and nothing is going to change how I feel for You
I settled in his embrace and we fell asleep
that night my anxiety went away
I was at peace
and i told myself I was going to have to confront my past for another day
and look at my present
which is so wonderful
my heart is almost bursting and wants to stay like this forever
or at least a few more days until my next journey
takes me back to reality