Mom is a word I have first learned
when I was 7
I didn't speak until I was 6 years old
My Dad used to sing me a song
He called it
My Swan
My little Swan
swimming in the pond
everyday You visit me
and You shake Your wings
as if to tease me
My love and forgetful heart
made You swim away
my little Swan
He cries a little everytime he sings that song
I never knew the meaning of the song in my head it always played
it specially rings when i dream
and it tells me to stop believing
and to stop remembering
It was one year after Stella's death
I was flying again
from Seattle to New York
I saw Stella in my dream
she was in a white gown
much like her wedding dress
she was wearing her favorite earring
that Harry gave her as a present
The blue tiffany Earrings
it was always her favorite
she wore them all the time
but I saw that same earring before
from somewhere
I saw it from Celia she wore
the same blue earrings when I first saw her when I was 7 years old
from a photo long long ago
i didn't know then she was my Mother
Stella stole the earrings
and they were fighting for it
throwing hurtful words
at each other
Stella You are the worst person who ever lived
Celia You are just jealous because Harry chose me
No Stella, He loved me first!!!
You disgust me as a Sister and as someone who hurts people
without any remorse
I wish You die a tragic death
Stella just laughed and she closed the door on Celia's face
Celia was pregnant at the time
she left My Grandfather's house
and she never said goodbye to any of her friends
She gave birth to me in Hong Kong
I was her shining glory
her most precious jewel
and Stella took me away from her
and told everyone
I was hers
Celia was in a mental hospital
because she never forgave herself
for giving me to Stella
Only Celia knows the truth
and now I remember Mommy
is the first word I ever said
not to Stella
but to Celia my real mother looking at her picture
wearing the blue tiffany earrings my dad gave to her
I awoke from my dream
and now I knew where my heart belongs
to the one person who never forgotten me
her daughter
I called my Dad before I flew from Seattle to New York
and he answered the phone
I told Harry
my wish to see and be with her
as soon as my flight lands in New York
Celia will be there
waiting for me to arrive
my Allen is there also
and my Dad
all waiting for me
to start a new life
just like a new life is growing inside me
my new family
my real family
the flight attendant offered me a drink
I said Orange Juice only
or water
I'm pregnant You see
I saw her smile and I smiled back
Congratulations she whispered to me
and I smiled like I never smiled before
held my self and my dreams together
as glad as I will ever and always
remember where I came from
I was thankful for Stella
even if she was not the ideal Mother
I was thankful because she brought me back to my real Mom
in her own way she was my Mom too