My mom always used to tell me that high school will be the greatest time of any growing adults lives. She lied. In fact it is the complete opposite of that. Ever since freshman year I've been a screw up the whole time, but it wasn't my fault completely. This place fucks with your mind. It screws you up so badly and it's so hard to pick up yourself after that.

I go to Belmont High School, home of the fucking Braves. There's nothing brave about the school in case you're wondering. But there are drugs here, numerous fights, an enormous amount of suspensions of people being caught in any nearby bathroom of couples having sex in the stalls and those horny janitors, can't forget those. Other than that, I have two best friends who help me stay sane through all of this. Edith and Carter. Edith is a beautiful but fast girl. She's got that long black silky hair that every girl envies. The big breasts that all the flat chested girls want and those lingering green eyes that captures all the boys' attention. Carter is beautiful as well. She's a blonde, no she's not dumb, but she has that beach wave hair that makes her look so innocent and angelic at the same time. Blue eyes with the perfect smile, even the male teachers at our school drool over her. Gross. but then there's me. long brown hair, hazel eyes which corresponds with my last name Hazel and I have an okay body. Honestly I look better than I give off, but my two friends sometimes make me feel insecure about myself, but of course they don't know that.

Anywho, besides having two amazing girls in my life, I feel lost. My mom and dad got a divorce when I was in the 8th grade. It was the worst thing that's ever happened to me. But then, he died. Just like that. Cancer can be a real bitch and so can my mom when she's in a bad mood. my life including my mom's life hasn't been right ever since. and then I had to come to this crappy ass School like it made anything better. Although it is the one place where I met Edith and Carter and life was okay for a while, but I'm in my last year of high school and I need to turn it around. I just want to feel happy again and I can imagine my dad wouldn't like me feeling depressed everyday of my life and not doing good in school. But this year is going to be great. I'm going to keep my grades up, I'm going to go to prom, all the senior events, parties, trips and maybe find myself a boyfriend. I haven't had much luck in that department though. I can be kind of weird and sometimes, I just can't help it. But for starters I'm just going to look for a therapist.

"JUNI!!", my mom screams at me from downstairs, "Come help with the groceries!" I run downstairs, annoyed but open the back door to the garage. I open the trunk and see loads of grocery bags. I turn around to see my mom entering the garage and coming up beside me to pick up two bags in her hands. "Are we having a buffet?" I ask her, looking at all the food she has packed in each bag. she smiles and laughs. "It is a lot of food isn't it?" I look at her quizzically waiting for her to explain more. She looks nervous so now I'm officially intrigued with what the reason is behind all of this.

"Well, here's the thing sweetheart", she says as she puts down the bags on the floor and pulls me over to sit with her in the trunk of the car. " "I met someone about a week ago at some store I was at and we started talking and I may have sort of got his number while I was there." She was staring at me, waiting for a response and she was looking at me almost frightened. I guess I could understand why since my eyes were wide open and my mouth was slightly opened in an O shape. I was indeed very surprised with this news and I couldn't really process it. "Damnit, I knew this was a bad idea, I should've talked to you about it first." She sighed and put her face in her hands and shook her head frustrated. "No, no it's okay, I just...." I couldn't get the rest out but my mom already knew exactly what I was going to say. "I know", she says. "It's been so long that you couldn't even imagine me with anyone else other than Dad, right?" I looked down at my hands and nod my head slowly. I don't want to stop her from seeing anyone else, it wouldn't be fair to her. This definitely would have to be something I need to get used to. I look at her and smile then grab her hand. "I miss dad so much and I know you miss him too, but at some point we need to move on and I feel like it's time that you do so I'm happy for you." I look back at all the grocery bags we still haven't put inside the house. "So I'm guessing the food is for future dinners that you'll be having with him which concludes that he will be coming over... a lot.", I say with a smile. She smiles back and gives me a big hug. "Yeah it is sweet pea, I probably should have given you a few days notice but he's actually going to be coming over tonight." Again another shocking surprise but I should have known this day would come and like it or not I'm going to have to be prepared for it. "Well, let's hurry up and get this food in the house, shall we?" I say with a smirk. "Right", she says and picks up the two bags she placed on the floor. "Thanks Juni, I love you and I promise you'll like him a lot." I look up at her and a twinge of sadness falls over me. I brush the feeling away and focus on grabbing as many bags as I can from the trunk. "I'm sure I will mom.", I reply back. She smiles at me before she disappears into the house.

• • • • • •

It's the evening and Mom is cooking dinner before our guest arrives. I decide that I need to change my clothes, so I go upstairs and look for a casual dress to wear before heading into the bathroom to take a shower. I wonder what this guy will be like, she didn't even tell me his name. I hope it's not a dorky name like Bernard or Edward. I climb out of the shower and dry my hair. My mom knocks on the door and tells me that he'll arrive in 15 minutes. I close my eyes, take a deep breath and head to my bedroom to change into my dress.

I put on mascara and lip gloss since my lips are already naturally red, which I hate, and decide to text Edith and Carter.

Me: hey bitches ;)

Carter: Yo

Edith: Sup putas?!

Carter: hey June wen r u gonna walk with me 2 the library?

Me: whenever u want of course

Edith: what 4?

Me: Carter is trynna get at a boy :P

Carter: June wtf. ur not supposed to tell her!!

Edith: Y cant I know about it??

Carter: becus you'll ruin it with your seductive looks.

Me: lmao that is true, shes got a point

Edith: oh plz, I'd be helping u out. I got a lot of experience with boyz

Carter: yess! that's the problem *annoyed look*

Edith: ugh fine girl, but u dont have to keep it a secret from me *annoyed look as well*

Me: what's up with all these annoyed looks?

Edith: lmao

Carter: haha, so whats going on with u guys ?

Me: well I texted u guys to tell u my mom is talking to some guy and now there dating

Carter: Bro...

Edith: what foreal?? does he have a big dick?

Me: wow

Carter: Edith stfu horndog

Edith: what? I'm just asking. can I not ask?

Me: No

Carter: No

Me: lmao I hate u

Edith: my apologies u virgin marys. what's he like?

Me: Idk hes coming over tonight & I'm kinda nervous.

Carter: itll be fine, but r u ok with this? considering your dad...?

Edith: yea, how r u holding up?

Me: I mean it is weird and a little sad but I'm fine, just eager to see wat hes like.

Edith: true . well tell me how it goes

Carter: yeah and dont figure out his penis size either because edith over here..

Edith: Carter were fighting on the first day of school lmaoo

Me: save the fights for Amber remember?

Carter: yeah I hate that bitch she can suck a chode for all I care

Edith: honestly I would miss prom for her just so I could rip her throat out.

"Juniper! He's at the front door, come downstairs", my mom hollers. I look up from my phone and hear the doorbell ring. This is it.

Me: gtg guys, hes here.

Edith: alright ttyl

Carter: text us l8er

I place my phone on my desk and head down the stairs halfway and wait until my mom opens the front door. She looks up at me and smiles broadly, showing all teeth. She's clearly excited and I'm clearly anxious. Open the damn door woman. She opens the door and invites the stranger in. I look at the back of his head before he turns around and looks up at me with a smile. I freeze and suddenly I can't stand up on my own anymore. I fall down the steps and everything turns black.