It's the first day of school. Whoopee... I glare at the alarm clock that woke me up this morning and hit the button to turn it off. I groan into my pillow and then throw it across my room. My mom knocks on my door. "Yeah?" I sigh. "You know throwing pillow at your dresser doesn't stop you from going to school or me from going to work everyday you know?" my mom says through the door. I chuckle. "Yeah, I'm getting up now." I hear her footsteps walking away from the door. "Make sure you're down here by 7."
I manage to get out of bed and and rummage through my closet for an outfit to wear. Let's see, it'll be 80 degrees today, 65% humid and the wind will be 8 miles per hour. Guess I'm going with a spaghetti strap and shorts. I brush my hair and decide to keep it down today and I put on some lipgloss on the way to the dining room table. My mom is making coffee in the kitchen and hands me a mug to pour some in. She looks at my face then my chest.
"Wow, you're wearing lipgloss and your boobs look bigger today." My eyes widen and I look at my chest with disgust. "What the heck mom, do they really?" I put my arms over my chest, trying to cover the cleavage that was surprisingly showing a lot. My mom laughs at my nervous and disgusted reaction. "Haha yeah they are and you're fine, no need to get all worked up about it, hey listen, so I'm going to be heading out somewhere with Christian after work so you can tell me how your therapist meeting goes whenever I get home." I glance at her, surprised. "Whenever you get home?..." I ask. "Yes, Juni whenever I get home." she says with an exasperated look.
Imagine my mother getting boned by big and tall Christian.... ew I don't even want to. My mom is like 40 years old, I think? I brush the thought away quickly and drink my coffee. A few minutes later, my mom drives me to school and drops me off at the front of my school, giving me a kiss on the cheek goodbye. I see Edith waiting for me by the wall in front of the school and she hugs me. "Where's Carter at?" I ask. "Not sure, ooh wait there she is." says Edith, looking off into the distance somewhere. Then I spot Carter too, she's talking to some boy. Maybe the boy that she mentioned a while ago that she was trying to get at. They both exchange hugs and she spits the two of us staring at her from 50 feet away. She jogs over to us, smiling and blushing. "Were you guys spying on me?" She giggles. Edith responds. "No, but we were looking at that boys eyes you were talking to because he was staring at your ass the minute you starting jogging towards us." "Fuck I thought I was the only one who saw that." I laughed. Carter rolls her eyes. "Shut up no he wasn't... wait was he?" she asked, looking hopeful. Edith and I laugh and Carter smiles broadly.
"So, senior year guys, we need to be friends with the popular kids so that way we can get invited to all the cool parties this year." Edith is applying lipstick to herself, while Carter and I stand there waiting for her to be done with her makeup. "In my defense, all the popular kids do is smoke, drink, and put drugs into girls cups so they can take them upstairs to their bedrooms and rape them." I look at Carter, horrified. "Damn, you do realize just because you see a movie with that kind of stuff in it doesn't make it true in real life." Carter slaps my arm. "Dude what the fuck, of course it does, it happens all the time." Edith jumps in. "She's right, Carter. I mean even if it does happen all the time, I say just bring your own booze and don't drink anything anyone offers you and yes, even if a girl offers it to you... girls can be devious creatures too."
The school bell rings for first period. "Alright guys, I gotta go, can't be late to class anymore, trynna do good this year." "Well, well, look at you Saint Juni." says Edith, smirking. I flip her off and smile, heading out of the bathroom. Carter catches up with me and we're both walking to class. "Hey, just keep in mind, that everything in highschool movies are real Juni, they're REAL." she says intensely. "Hey, were gonna be fine, besides, we may not ever get invited to a party, well at least me, you and Edith will probably be the first ones since you're both the prettiest of the group. "Oh come on, dont say that!" she says, annoyed. "Even if that was slightly true, you'd probably be the first one before us to wake up naked in someone else's bed drugged up, I mean look at your boobs."
I gasp. "Ugh, is it really that obvious?" I say, covering my boobs and thinking about what my mom said this morning. "Um yeah, you're gonna be getting a lot of attention in your classes today, don't say I didn't warn you kiddo." She walks off in the opposite direction to her class. Meanwhile, feeling insecure, I pick a seat in my first period class which is chemistry, and I already see several boys watching me walk to my seat staring at my bare chest. I sit down quickly and look down at my hands, wishing I had brought some kind of sweater or cardigan. Even some of the girls are giving me dirty looks, probably slut shaming me or something. Happy first day of school to me.
Cool part of being a senior is that I get to have free periods. This year I have a free 6th which means I can actually go and visit my therapist sooner and longer if needed be. the office where my therapist stays at is a building across the street from the school. A 5 minute walk, nothing more nothing less. I text my friends telling them that I will be heading to see my therapist during 6th period and an extra 30 minutes after school. Edith replies with "good luck" and Carter replies "tell us how it goes". I have to admit, I'm a little bit nervous. Mostly because I'm afraid of what my female therapist will see me as as soon as she gets a load of my bare chest. She's probably going to think I'm a hoe or an attention seeker. Fuck, I really should have thought my outfit through, but it was super hot today. Hell, I was sweaty walking into school.
I walk through the automatic doors of the building and head to the reception desk about 20 feet away. I give them my name and other information that was asked and the lady who looks like she is in desperate need of help and looks like she wants to kill herself because of how bad her job is tirely asks me to take a seat until my therapist comes out. I take a seats and think about all of the stuff that I want to talk about with this woman. To be honest I wouldn't really know what your start I have so many problems and issues that I want to get over and fix, I'm going to have to try to pick something out from one of the hundreds of issues on my list otherwise I'm just going to be overwhelmed and probably go kill myself too with the lady at the front desk.
About 10 minutes later a woman walks out from a door on the left side of me. "Juniper?" I look up at the woman and my eyes grew huge. She's a tall blonde lady with the most perfect milky white skin I've ever seen. She looks young, Maybe mid-twenties and she's got this bright red lipstick that fits her so perfectly on her big plump lips. I get up and she smiles at me, reaching out with her hand to shake mine. maybe she won't think I'm such a slut, she seems like the type that would probably dress the way I would on occasion, I think to myself. "Come on, right this way please" she says with a sweet voice. my palms are sweaty but I am excited. I'm excited to talk to her about the horrible cramps that I would get during my periods, the horrible girls at my school that only care about their makeup, shoes and how many boys they can date in a week, and how fucked up this society is.
The blonde lady leads me to the last room at the end of the hallway. There's at least 10 rooms on both sides. she opens the door for me and lets me walk in first. It's a big office. it has a giant window overlooking the beautiful nature of trees and different colored flowers, a big nice-looking desk with a Mac computer on top, two bookcases filled with big thick chapter books and two pretty long couches in front of the nice looking desk. I noticed on the walls there are huge paintings of abstract figures and different colors. I can't take my eyes off of them, they're really fascinating to look at. "So, my name is Trinity and your name is Juniper." She smiles. "Yep, that's me." I say with a nervous smile. Could I have said that any more awkward? " She walks around to the desk and opens the drawer to pull out a manila folder filled with paper, I'm guessing information about me or something. As she scams through the papers I look more around at the office. It's quite nice in here, it's tranquil, peaceful, I could definitely see this as my room. I wouldn't even mind living in a place like this, it's high-tech. I look back at Trinity when I hear her say "aha". "Okay, so Juniper, I already told you my name" she says with a giggle and a smile. I smile back, clearly she doesn't know what she's doing or she's either nervous, I can't tell. "Sorry, I'm kind of new at this. this is actually my first time becoming an assistant or a psychologist. Well not exactly an assistant but someone who just observes and take notes firsthand to get a feel of what it's like to actually be psychologist. I'm training right now I'm actually not going to be your therapist, Dr. Brooks will."
I look at her quizzlingly. So she's not going to be my therapist? This tall, beautiful, blonde lady who I'm pretty sure we could probably relate to on a lot of things is not going to be my therapist at all? "Oh okay, my mom didn't tell me that, she said Ms. Heartcastle was going to be my therapist." Her face lights up. "Why, that would be me Miss Juniper Hazel, but yeah I'm sorry for the misunderstanding, I'm not sure why my name is on the list I'm not even a certified psychologist yet." She says with a chuckle and a distorted smile. She seems confused herself as am I right now. I frown then look up at her. "So is this Brooks person cool?" I ask. "Is she nice?" she looks down at me with her twinkling blue eyes and smiles broadly and giggles. "Brooks is actually a he." Stefan Brooks is his name." I look at her, horrified. "What? A guy? But I specifically asked for a woman, I can't talk to a guy about my problems and my periods!" I cover my mouth, realizing I was talking a little bit too loud in a little bit to fast before I could think about what I was saying. She frowned at me and then smiled again. "Hey trust me it's going to be fine, he's a great psychologist, he also has great rates from many patients and he's very understanding of women. I think you'll be just fine trust me." She giggles and tries to give me an understandinglook. I noticed this lady likes to giggle a lot, what is so funny all the time? I take a deep breath and decide to just go with the flow and trust that this guy may be a good person for me to talk to about my problems. "I just hope this doesn't get awkward at any point in time." Trinity responds, "That's why I'm here to help with that, I'll be here any time that Mr. Brooks wants me here because I am going to be studying how he acts with his patients so that way I can do the same with my future patients one day, so you won't be alone on this." She says with a smile and a wink. Oh brother I hope you're right."Why don't I go get you some water and we'll wait on him to come in shortly." I nod my head and she walks out of the room closing the door behind her, leaving me all alone in this beautiful gorgeous office of Mr. freaking Brooks. I lay back on the comfortable couch and try to take deep breaths to calm my nerves. All I can think about is me killing my mom as soon as I get home. the door opens with Trinity holding a cold water bottle, which she hands to me. I think her for it, open it and take a sip. Jesus, I didn't realize how thirsty I was. I started drinking more and more water and then the door opens again. As soon as I see who walks in, somehow the water goes down the wrong tube and I'm coughing like shit. Holy fuck, I'm dying over here. Mr. Brooks runs over to me while I hear Trinity's loud and perky voice in the backround asking me if I'm okay. No I'm not okay lady because I think I just saw a fucking angel and now I'm dying! My coughs sounded nasty, it was embarrassing. After I stop coughing, my throat is hurting and I decided to take another sip of water. "Easy there, don't make the same mistake you did 30 seconds ago." He says with a calm voice. Wow. That voice, sounds so relaxing and instantly I feel better. I'm on my knees on the ground recovering from my cough and he's crouching down next to me. I look into his eyes and for some reason I don't feel like I'm here anymore. He has these beautiful eyes. Beautiful brown eyes. The kind of eyes you could just get lost in and in that moment I think I did.
I don't know how long it's been. But it feels like forever that I was staring at him. he stares back at me, then he speaks. "Are you feeling better Juniper?" I think it took me awhile to answer until I snap back to reality. "Oh uh, yeah, um I'm fine, yeah I'm good, I'm good yeah, yeah dont worry about me, I'm fine." What the fuck Juni, shut up and get a hold of yourself! He laughs and he smiles at me showing perfect white teeth. Gosh, he has the most beautiful smile and laugh I've ever heard. "Here let me help you." He stands up, then reaches for my hand to pull me up towards him. As soon as I'm up I almost fall down again because of how fucking nervous I am. Why in the hell is this happening? Why now? I noticed Trinity is not saying much, probably because she's mesmerised with this man's beauty that she can't even properly function right now. Wait, I just realized he knows my name! "So uh, shall we get started then?" he asks, looking at Trinity a little creeped out with her gripping stare. I sit down on the couch, cross my legs, as he makes his way over to his desk while Trinity snaps back to reality too and finds her place on the couch too.