"Kaylee? What are you doing here? I haven't seen you in months. And what do you mean you love me? We barley dated. I cheated on you, Kaylee. I truly doubt you love me." Logan said to Kaylee. I can't even believe it. She loves him! Logan was right, he cheated on her. How in the world does she love him?
This whole situation reminds me of that whole Stockholm Syndrome thing. If you don't know what it is it's basically when you fall in love with your captor. I don't know why it made me think of that, but it did. It's almost like toxic love. He hurt her, emotionally, not physically. And she still came back.
Or, maybe this is just some cruel joke. Which, I wouldn't really mind. No, I don't hate Kaylee. But I'm not that fond of her. Especially her walking in here, right after I just lost my baby, and after committing, no, more like trying to commit suicide she comes in here, telling Logan that she loves him.
Pretty fucked up if I say so…
"I'm so sorry for barging in this way Logan, but I really, really wanted to talk to you about something. A few days ago, before you tried to commit suicide one of my friends told me about the death of your baby. And that it was the day the funeral, so I decide to go check on you. I wanted to see how you were doing and make sure you were okay. But by the time I got there, there were ambulances outside." Haley said.
What a coincidence right? And my guess is, the reason why she came over isn't that she wanted to check on him. It's more likely because she wanted to admit that she loved him.
"So, I came yesterday. And the doctor said that you were still asleep. So I decided to come back today and see if you were awake or not. And then, when I walked in I saw you awake. So that's why I ran over." Kaylee explained.
"Is it true you really love me? I don't want to be mean or anything or question your feelings but I don't really understand how you can love me, it just sounds completely crazy. I mean, I really liked you. But I wasn't a good boyfriend." Logan admitted.
"No, you were an amazing boyfriend! I know you cheated on me but you were still so sweet and kind and took good care of me. Maybe if you don't cheat on me this time, we won't have to break up. I really want to get back together with you, if that's possible. I know you just lost your baby only a few weeks ago, but I think you could use a friend" Kaylee said as she took Logan's hand into hers.
I highly doubt she's looking for a friend, she's more looking for a lover.
"He doesn't need another friend, our friendship is good enough," I said in a pissed off voice. I wanted her gone, I was annoyed. And Logan could sense that. He looked over to me. He snatched his hand away from Kaylee's and Kaylee seemed shocked by what he did.
"Okay everybody, say your goodbyes. I have to take these two upstairs. Parents, please say goodbye and exit along with you." Doctor Mansfield stated.
My mother and father kissed me goodbye and said that everything will be okay. Logan's parents say goodbye to him and they also say goodbye to me before leaving. Kaylee held Logan's hand for a couple seconds and then kissed him on the cheek before leaving.
"Okay now since everybody's gone I'm going to give you both each a pair of pants, and a shirt. Put on the clothes and then grab a pin that has your ID, it says your name and once you guys are dressed meet me outside of the room." Dr. Mansfield said before handing us a pair of clothes.
The clothes are pure white and the button on top said our name and then a bunch of numbers. It was almost like a prison card, but instead of the clothes being orange, they were white. Now, I really felt like I was going to an asylum.
I walked over to the bathroom that was in the room and stripped down, I decided to get dressed first as Logan tried to get up and start to walk around. Since clearly our legs were tired and not woken up since we were laying down forever.
Once Logan and I were completely dressed we headed outside to the doctor, but she was too busy speaking to another patient.
Luckily her talking finally gave me the time to talk to Logan. Because I'm not even sure that he and I would be placed in the same room, we might be separated and I might not see him for the next few weeks. And I 100% do not want to be alone, I'm terrified of it.
"Logan, what happens if were separated when we go to this suicide thing?" I ask him and Logan just shrugs. Does Logan not care at all? Maybe he's not invested in our relationship as I thought he was. Maybe doesn't need me as much as I need him.
"Answer me! Do you not seriously care?" I asked him getting pissed off. Logan looked at me and glared.
"Can you just shut up for minute Aria? I'm getting sick and tired of you complaining 24/7. That's all you do. Look, I get it you've had a bad past few weeks, and I'm so sorry we lost Kayden. But you need to quit making everything about you. So seriously, just for once, shut the fuck up" Logan said before walking over to the doctor and tapping on her.
My mouth dropped and he said all those things to me. Did he seriously feel like that? Or was it just in the moment?
Either way, I was extremely pissed off. He had no right to say that to me. But the more I thought about it, maybe he was right.
I've never given one thought about how he felt these last few weeks, especially after we lost Kayden.
Once the doctor was done talking, Logan the doctor, and I are headed up to the psych floor. Which was where the little group was.
After passing a bunch of the other people who are in the group, who just seem like normal people who were here because of a mistake they made, the doctor took us past a bunch of rooms and finally stopped in front of one that had the number 14 on it.
"This will be your room. Both of you. And I know your past, and there are cameras in this room so I don't want any funny business. There are two beds in there, two tables with one lamp on them each. Along with one desk. The bathrooms are not in there, they are down the hall to the right." The doctor said in Logan and I both nodded.
"I want you to guys get settled in, and go take a shower. And then after that to go meet your doctor later on at 6 PM. She's more like a therapist though, and after that, she will explain everything that will happen here." The doctor said before leaving.
Logan and I looked at each other. I was still mad about what he said earlier, so I didn't talk to him. I open the door and walked in the room not even saying a word to him.
"Aria, come on." Logan pleaded. "Don't fucking talk to me you piece of shit," I said raising my voice by each word that I spoke.
"I don't get why you are even mad Aria, you truly have no fucking right to be. I lost him too! For the past few weeks, I've been caring only about you. You haven't been helping me at all, I've been doing everything for you. So you clearly have no right to be mad at me. Look, I'm sorry for what I said. I didn't mean to hurt you. I'm just upset, but you are to blame for this as well, I know you didn't think that you were hurting me in the process, but you truly were." Logan said as he sat down on the bed telling me how he felt.
"I'm so sorry Logan, I guess it's true. I haven't been thinking about your feelings. I've been putting myself first. And I am so so so so sorry. You mean so much to me Logan, and so did Kayden. And you're right, we both lost him. And I don't mean this in a bad way, but I was closer to him. He was with me for five months, and I grew close to him. He was suppose to be the one person that was never supposed to leave me, and he did. It's not his fault it's mine. And I'm paying the price every single day because of that." I said as I took a seat next to him.
It was taking everything to not cry right now.
"Aria, it's not your fault. What happened nobody could've changed. It happens sometimes. You couldn't have changed anything. We just weren't meant to be parents. And you know in a few years when you have your own family, you'll be thinking about this and you'll remember that I'm right, things happen for a reason, and maybe losing Kayden will help us grow in different ways. Maybe it'll teach us to not take things for granted. Like I took you." Logan admitted
" I was so mean to you because I figured that if I ever wanted to come back, you would let me. But you showed me that I wouldn't be able to. I guess I used you in many ways, which I never understood till after I lost Kayden. And I know the whole point of the friends with benefit is to use each other for sex."
" But aria, I use you in so many more ways that you never understood. When we argue, I know that I can hurt you indifferent ways, because I know no matter what that you let me come back to you, because you cannot be alone. It's not your fault though, it's mine. And I hope you don't hate me for telling you that." Logan said.
"I can't do this right now Logan. Please leave me alone. Let's just get these next few weeks over with." I said before leaving and making my way to the bathroom.
Once I got to the bathroom I stripped down so I could take a shower.
But before I could get into the shower I felt two arms turn me around and push me up againtst the wall.
I was about to yell for help but I soon decided not to because it was Logan who had grabbed me.
"Let go of me," I said in a nasty voice.
"Never," Logan said before kissing me.
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