"No... No... No" I mumbled to myself pacing around the small apartment
There has to be a way to stop death! There has to! Nothing is impossible
The question is how?
"Stop it!" Nikki said grabbing my hand "Stop being freaky-"
She knows?!
"-and mumbling to yourself its freaking me out" She said her voice an octave higher
No she doesn't.. No one knows
I look down at her small size, blond hair, pale skin with a rosy blush and the wide blue eyes that are shining with fear
She is like a sister that I never had, she is the only one who treats me like a normal person, the only one who is always happy and cheery and thinking about others rather than herself
What will happen to me if she dies?
What about her brother?
I look at her again and see that the black lines and increasing and getting wider
Time is running out and I am doing nothing to stop it
Should I tell her?
Or shouldn't I?
Its her life. She deserves to know
I open my mouth and try to speak but no words come out, I swallow and go to kitchen to grab some water and drink it appreciating the coldness of the liquid
I turn back and see Nikki looking at me with pure confusion, my eyes move to the photo frame showcasing us just behind her
There is a ice cream cone on both of our noses and we are laughing like 2 crazy people, that picture is old probably from high school
I still remember that day... I was getting annoyed when Nikki ate her ice-cream and her ice cream started dribbling down her hands (I am a neat freak.. sue me) and she got irritated when I pointed the facts so she stuck her cone on my nose, caught in the spur of moment I did the same and then we started laughing, a yearbook photographer took out photos and we got ourselves a special column as 'The craziest BFF's'
So we did what any person would do, we bribed the photographer with pizza to get the picture and got it framed
It was actually Nikki's idea! I just had nothing better to do...
Its funny how 2 people so different can live under the same roof for almost an year
Looks that was going to change now...
Nikki makes her way over to me "What is it Tessie?.... Are you okay? Did you catch fever?" She asks her voice filled with concern as she places her palm on my head testing the temperature
I shrug it off and looking at those blue eyes I decide... I decide that I am going to tell her the truth now
"Nikki... I need to tell you something" I said my voice cracking at the end
"What is it?" She asks warily as her eyes takes in my serious expression
"You.. you are...youaregoingtodie" I say, the words entangling themselves as they escape my mouth
"What did you say?" She asks missing the words
I can't do it.... I freaking can't
Grabbing my phone I type the text and show her
She looks at it her eyes widening then she burst into peals of laughter
That wasn't exactly the reaction I was going for.....
"Oh.. my gosh... you had me there for a sec... I literally believed it... nice acting Tessie... I almost believed you... Where did you learn to act like that?" She asks her eyes twinkling
She looks at me expecting to laugh along with her
I don't
She looks at me her expression slowly turning from amusement to confusion
"That was a joke, wasn't it?" She asks her voice uncertain
I shake my head saying it wasn't and look at her to gauge her reaction
She giggles uncomfortably "C'mon Tessie admit it! Stop this joke its.. its creeping me out"
"Its not a joke Nic" I say my voice barely a whisper but the words still manage to fill the already tensed silence of the room
I dont know how she is going to react, I have never met a person who walked up to me and said 'Jeez! You are going to be dead! Congo and by the way I happen to be your best friend'
I dont know whats going to happen
The atmosphere is so tense that a person 2 floors down could probably sense it
Out of my peripheral vision I see Nikki's shoulder become rigid, I raise my head and meet the blue fire glowing in her eyes
"Is this supposed to a joke?" She asks her voice ice cold enough to make me flinch
Great! She thinks that this is a freaking joke!
"Its... not" I mumble my eyes looking everywhere but at her eyes
"So you know that I am going to..." A pause "How can you possibly know that?" She asks her voice sharp
I... should tell her- No- I have to tell her
I take a deep breath and tell her... everything
As soon as I am finished-
"Please tell me this is all a joke" She says
"It isn't" I say looking at the ground staring at..nothing
We are silent for a while
"I.. I.. can't believe that I am saying this but... what if its true? What if I am going to die?" Her voice is shaking and cracking
I dont reply.. I don't have anything to say
"No.. no one can see the future.. you-you are.. going-going crazy" Her voice becomes abrupt, firm and monotone
I feel hurt blooming inside my chest at those words
She looks at me, her face carefully blank and says "Get your shit together, Stop the nonsense I will be back in an hour"
Before I have a chance to do anything she leaves
She didn't believe me
I knew it.. I shouldn't have said anything.. screw you conscience
I sit on the kitchen counter my hands fiddling with my purse
I feel tears sliding down my cheeks... I broke my vow...I told her I was a freak
And now she is going to-
Wait a second! Shit
I go downstairs, grabbing my car keys along and open the garage
She took her car with her
I sit my black swift and start driving not knowing where she had gone
I shouldn't have let her out of my sight.. if she dies
It's going to be my fault
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