Dear Peter Pan,
We flew together. Had the thickest and thinnest slices of life. Went to the peak and fell on the ground. Though most of the times, you land first and try to lessen the impact of my fall.
Pero tingin mo ba hindi pa rin ako nasaktan sa pagkahulog ko?
I did get gurt. Kasi sinalo mo ako sa maraming bagay. Mula pa noong una. Masyado akong nasanay na nasa baba ka pag nahuhulog na ako. Masyado mo akong sinanay na para bang hindi mo 'ko iiwan.
I thought our little subdivision is a Neverland. Tingin ko naman ay hindi ako nagkamali doon. After all, I saw for myself how you brought Wendy to our homeland.
You asked me to teach her how to play piano like how Peter Pan asked Tinker Bell to assist Wendy how to fly. You opened our world to her without even asking me if I want to. Mundo ko rin yun eh. I wish my opinion mattered.
But then again, I think I'm in no place to decide who would enter your life. I don't even think I have the heart to stop you from being happy.
I have many wishes tonight as I write this letter I would allow the world to read but I would never allow you to know that I wrote this for you. I really really have lots of wishes and favors I would like to ask but I'll try to narrow it down to five.
Please give me even a little of your time. Kapag masyado ka nang masaya kasama siya, kapag nakakalimutan mo na ang pakiramdam pag magkasama tayong dalawa, kapag sa mundo mo hindi mo na 'ko naaalalang isama, pwede bang pahingi pa rin ng oras? So I wouldn't be so bitter about your girl. So I wouldn't think she snatched you away from me. So you could help me like her for you. But honestly, it was just for me not to miss you that much.
I don't think you'd do this but I'll ask you, anyway. Huwag mo kong hanapin sa kaniya. Pwede ka nang tumawa. Isipin mong bilib ako masyado sa sarili ko that I would even give you this piece of advice. Pero ganoon kasi ako. Hinahanap kita sa lahat ng taong nakakasama ko. I ended up hurting a friend because I was too attached with you. I wish you won't end up hurting her cause I don't want to see you hurting your world.
And if by any chance, Wendy and I will be falling at the same time, I want you to catch her instead of me. Hindi ito pagpapakamartyr. Kundi naniniwala akong ito ang pinakamalaking tulong na maibibigay mo sa akin. To let me realize that I have to find my own man who would catch me first even if everyone's falling. Because you, fulfilling that role is long over. Mayroon ka nang babaeng kailangang unahin. And it was inappropriate for me to rely on Wendy's man.
But if I only get to choose one among all the wishes I would like to come true, perhaps it's my fourth wish. I wish I'll be born a Wendy in my next life. So that someone else has to take my place and I finally get to be loved.
And if still, that couldn't be granted, then I wish you'll be reincarnated as Tinker Bell. No, not to let you feel the pain you unintentionally inflicted to me. But to somehow let you know, that hey, Tinker Bell really really loves you.
Till my wishes come true and till I find the courage to let you go, I think I'll stay.
Your Pollen Princess,
ThinkingTinkerBell