'I will never let you go even in your dream.'
Chen Sheng Lin
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"I don't have money." I am trembling. "I will pay the debts to you, just give me time, okay?"
"Actually I don't want your money." He kisses my neck lightly and makes me feel the goosebumps all over my body.
He stared into my eyes. He made me tremble when he pulled my lingerie down and let it fall on the floor. I try to move but can't. Now I am totally naked in front of him. He looked at my bosom. There is a birthmark like a scar. His nail exploring the birthmark in my skin. The sunray made it all seem clear and I was totally embarrassed. What can I do now?
"Wh--at?"
Suddenly he carried me with bridal style to his bed. I don't know why I can't move my body. Laying naked with this stranger on top of my body makes me go insane.
He kissed my birthmark and made my body shudder in sudden. I wanted to cover my breast but couldn't. I am so weak right now.
"I never knew that you have a beautiful body like other girls before." He said with calmness.
"I never met you before."
"Answer me honestly." His whisper in my ear in some way makes me feel so thin and relaxed. Did he use something?
"Uhm." I don't know why I answer him with such a gentle tone.
"Why were you auctioned by them last night? Why did you kiss me last night?"
He pressed his body on mine and looked into my eyes.
I didn't kiss him!
"Xu Feng betrayed me. I never know if he has a lot of debts and makes me his insurer. I don't know if he will use my signature to trap me. I never know about that money."
Why do I have to give him my answer without thinking? Did he drug me?
"Tell me why you kissed me last night."
What is the question! I never kiss him!
"Don't you remember that you kiss me first. Tell me now."
"I really don't know why I kiss you. They make me drink something that I didn't know before you pick me up. I feel my body burning at that time so I kiss you."
"Maybe they give you aphrodisiac to serve me well." He smiled then kissed my lower lip so gently. "Reply me then I will know that I have to let you die or keep you by my side."
I think he must be insane! What happened to me right now is why I am replying to every kiss that he sow in my lip. I almost go crazy because I kiss him like whore and this is not like me. I never kiss a man like this and I never being touched like this way also.
His finger rubbing my chest. I want to protest but there is power that restricts me to do so. I can't protest or offend him. Does he hypnotize me? Who is he?!
Please don't do this to me. I don't such a girl.
He kept kissing my neck then my ear. I can't move. He drugs me.
Please let me go!
I try to shout out loud but can't.
"Tell me who is Xu Feng."
"Xu Feng is my boyfriend and I love him so mu-"
He blocked my mouth with his intense kisses. His tongue sliding in my mouth. I want to push him away. My instinct says He is so dangerous. I see his eyes become red in front of me. I want to run away but my body is stuck here.
He pulled me until I was sitting on his lap. He put my arms in his shoulder. My crotch set apart on his abs. I want to die with this lewd position. He kissed my left neck. His arms caressing my back and butt gently.
"Ah!!!"
Suddenly I feel the fire burning my back and all over my body. This pain is so strange and tormenting me. I can feel the fire through my bones. Unconsciously I kneaded his shoulders.
He looks so shocked when look at me cause I realize I can move my arms to knead his shoulders. His silver hair is sparkling and I am so scared right now maybe I will die soon. Perhaps he is a grim reaper who picks me up into nothingness.
"My back hurts."
I lay my head on his shoulder to take a break and bear the strange pain from my back. With this position we like hugging each other. I know he observes my back then goes to embrace me tightly. My energy ran out so I closed my eyes. I don't care if he wants to kill me.
No one will be looking for me. No one cares because I don't have anyone indeed.
"You have me now. From now on, I will never let you go." He whispered in my left ear.
I don't know how long but when I open my eyes, I am still in the same position. This is so embarrassing.
"You awake."
"Let me go."
I pushed him away but it was useless because he drew my butt nearer until my flower rubbed by his garment.
"What are you doing?" He whispered in my left ear and sent the goosebump in my skin. "How will you compensate me now?"
"Let me go please. I don't have money now but I will pay Xu Feng's debts to you."
"I think you must be misunderstood about something." He bite my ear gently and makes me feel the fire burning in my nerves. "You are mine. I won you in the auction for ten billions. How can you pay the debts?"
Whatttt! Ten billions?
He kissed me and made me lie on the bed again but now he restricted my knees with his arm and made me straddle wide in front of him. With this position I can't move away. I am shocked when feel his lips in my nipple. I never felt this sensation before and I am so scared when his tongue is licking and sucking my nipples.
"Please don't do this to me. I am honest to you. I have never been touched by a man before. Please spare me! I am begging you. I will do whatever you want if you spare me today. I know you are a good person so help me. Spare me today."
I am crying hard. Now I am shocked that I can cry hard even moving my palm now on his shoulders. He stopped suddenly. His eyes observe me. I don't know why his gaze was full of sadness. I can feel it.
"So now you want to make another promise to me?" He asked.
"I never made a promise to you before. You can trust me."
"I know. I will not touch you more than this today."
"Thank you. I promise to not forget you even in my dream."
"Deal. I will not touch you more than these today and you will never forget me even in your dreams." He is smiling while I feel like the fire burning my body. I am shocked.
"We will meet again soon."
My vision became blurred suddenly. I hope it's just a nightmare.
***
Knock! Knock! Knock!
Suddenly I am awake and see the clock on the table beside my bed show at 07.00 pm.
"Bai He Lian! Bai He Lian!"
I am rising to open the door. My head is still dizzy. Lin Hua standing in front of my door. She is still wearing her office uniform .
"Bai He Lian, our boss always asking about you-"
She stopped soon and smiled.
"Bai He Lian if you are with your man yesterday please don't make our boss worry about you. Look, he forces me to come here."
"I think Xu Feng is really gone."
"So how do you get these kiss marks?"
Kiss marks?
"No." I denied.
"Everyone knows if you spent your night with somebody last night. I think you have to cover them."
I run to see through my mirror and I am regretful because I see my neck has a lot of reddish spots. How can these become kiss marks since I just slept?
"But I just sleep. I never met someone during this time."
Lin Hua is laughing.
"Yeah."
I know she didn't trust me. Gradually I feel my nipples so hurt and sore when I am breathing.
What's going on with me?
I remember every scene from the last nightmare is so real.
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