'Let me embrace you like this because you are my oasis. You are my happiness in my short life. I don't care if I am trapped in my own mirage forever.'
Bai He Lian
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I never knew how long my eyes were closed. I am still trying to fight with this pain but I remember the oath mentioned by Xiao Ran and Chen Sheng Lin. I think the Oath is like a promise for a lifetime between a couple of lovers but the truth is we are not. Chen Sheng Lin is a demon and it's so impossible. I remember if Xiao Ran says Wang Lin can help me. Okay, I have to find that man besides I have to find Xia De Ming.
'Xia De Ming where are you?'
I open my eyes and see Xia De Ming. For a while, I was shocked when I saw him. Why is his body so different? Why does he look more beautiful than handsome? My heartbeat grows faster and feels like a dagger piercing my soul when I see him in a purple layer. He coils his long hair like a woman in ancient times. His eyes swollen. I still don't understand but I know that my heart now belongs to Xia De Ming but at the same time I realized that I have to surrender.
I cannot hold the tears drop from my eyes. I sit down and reach his face. Xia De Ming just looked at me and smiled but why did his smile torment me. So hurt. I am caressing his cheek gently and Xia De Ming just closed his eyes and let me touch his face until his tears wet my palm. Why do I have to love him? I know we are so different. Maybe he is not a human too. How come I am falling in love with this man?
"Tell me something, please." I begged him.
"Bai He Lian, This is my real form. I am-", He stopped. I know he is in pain too. I cannot hold myself to embrace him tightly.
"Don't say anything. Let me embrace you like this."
"I don't want something bad to happen to you." He wants to push me away but I embrace him tighter. "Bai He Lian, please let me go."
"Xia De Ming, you know that I don't have any strength to fight you back so please let me embrace you like this. It will help me a lot.", I lied because since I touched Xia De Ming, I can feel the fire burning my backbone. I won't let Xia De Ming leave me. I just want to feel him in my embrace before I die. "Your shoulder is so warm. I love it."
Xia De Ming does not say anything just tapping my back and it becomes extremely painful when his palm reaches it but I choose to keep silent. I just don't want Xia De Ming to stay away from me.
I know, Xia De Ming is not a real man. I know he cannot touch me and I shouldn't touch him also but how can I stop my heart from loving him? If Xia De Ming fulfills the deepest part in my heart? I can't tell him about this. Let me just be happy by seeing and embracing him like this. I know, I was trapped in my own mirage by falling for Xia De Ming. I didn't care if great pain was hunting me like nightmares in my restless tortures.
"How dare you!"
I am shocked when I see the voice of Chen Sheng Lin. I don't know why he can come here since this place is forbidden for strangers?
Chen Sheng Lin looks so angry and his red eyes deliver the creepy atmosphere. I think he is a real demon. When his sharp gaze points at Xia De Ming, just in seconds I see Xia De Ming fly far away from my embrace then crush on the wall. I am shocked and all over my body in trembling when I see Xia De Ming Body fall on the floor. He looks in pain. I want to come closer but I can't move my body.
"No!" I shout out loud. "Please don't do that to Xia De Ming!"
I don't know where all the girls are? I need somebody to help me stop this demon but no one will come.
"You know what's your consequences if you violate our agreements." Chen Sheng Lin looks so angry.
"Prince, please don't be angry. I knew. I will never touch her anymore. "
'Wait?! Why Xia De Ming looked so scared to Chen Sheng Lin?''
"That's good if you realized! Now go!" Chen Sheng Lin shouted out loud.
I don't understand why Xia De Ming looks so obedient to him even though he does kowtow until his forehead touches the floor. His gesture was full of respect towards the demon. I really don't understand. Xia De Ming left me in the room with Chen Sheng Lin after do kowtow even his body was in pain.
My body was still frozen until Chen Sheng Lin came to approach me. He sat beside my unmoved body.
'I want him to disappear from this room.'
"Bai He Lian, don't ever dream to make me disappear from this place. It's impossible." He answered. He makes me shocked and scared at the same time. Chen Sheng Lin gave me his evil smirk then I realized his eyes now are in crimson colour.
I know, supposedly I get used to his red eyes but I am still afraid when his red eyes appear like this. I really want to step backwards but I still can't move my own body until Chen Sheng Lin puts his warm palm on my tummy and makes me feel awkward with the sensation of his touch on my skin because the seconds later I can feel something beating from my tummy.
"Chen Sheng Lin, what are you doing?" I am panicked. I really feel something in my tummy.
"I do nothing but just check your condition." He said. "No wonder, you are still alive until today."
"What do you mean?" I asked him.
"Just treasure yourself until you deliver my baby."
Whatttttt?!
"What--what do you mean?" I am trembling and panicking.
His statement made me scared. Chen Sheng Lin mentioned about the baby. I never imagined that I would be a mother from his seed. This is really a disaster.
"Are you really dumb? How come you can't feel him?!" He scolded me.
"How can I know since I have never slept with a man before!" I am so angry.
'Oh Bai He Lian how stupid!' I cursed myself.
"I know." His calm voice irritated me. "That's why you dumb enough until you can't distinguish between real man and not."
"What? Chen Sheng Lin, don't be joking!"
"Don't fall for him or he will die." His evil smile makes me sick.
"As you know. I have the right to love whoever I want!"
"Don't you understand about your own body?" His fingertips exploring my jaw then rubbing my neck. "Your soul is mine?" He continued.
"I don't want to! I DON'T LOVE YOU AND NEVER LOVE YOU! "
"I WILL NEVER LOVE YOU TOO!" He shouts out loud and makes me scared if he really wants to kill me now.
Soon he spit the blood out from his mouth. I am shocked. This is the first time I see the fresh blood. Usually I will faint but now I don't feel anything or the pain since I feel 'the thing' in my tummy.
"Chen Sheng Lin, are you alright?" I asked.
His red eyes stared at me with confusion. He didn't say anything but in his fast move his lip was in my mouth. I almost can't breathe. I can smell his blood but I can do nothing since he embraces me tightly.
"Chen Sheng --"
He closed my mouth with his brutal kisses then pulled me to lay on the bed. My hands still keep slapping whatever parts of his body then I am stopped because my energy has run out.
"Bai He Lian, look how unfortunate we have become. You love him but he will never touch you while I had forbidden to hate you who forced me to forget about Xiao Er. That night is a mistake."
His eyes become normal but his tears flow and make my face moistened. Is he crying? I can feel he really wants to kill me right now but something that restrains him to do so. It seems like we cannot escape from each other.
His breath on my left ear makes me feel uncomfortable but now I am speechless when he is facing me. I cannot avoid his sharp gaze.
"Bai He Lian, I don't care if you die or not. I just care about the baby in your womb. Now, the baby protects you but if something happens with him, you absolutely die."
Then he left me in this bedroom alone. I still try to figure out what happened a few minutes ago while caressing my tummy.
'Are you really exist? How can I have a baby from a demon like him? Xia De Ming, what should I do? '