The most dangerous sickness are those that make us believe we are well.
---Proverb 42, the Book of Shhh
Sometimes all we need is a true lover who can love us more than anything, but dude is that possible in this fake world to get a true lover so easily...not at all. For someone, love makes their life beautiful but on the other hand love may ruin the other people's life because not everyone have the same heart as you have. We have to be very peculiar when it comes to choosing our life partner, but we often regret it because our heart melts even when a person behaves genuinely with us but we never how he/she is from inside. Do they have the same feelings inside too or just a fake one outside for few days... So that's even better to be alone than being with the one who acts like they love us but inside they hates.
The day begins...
Morning 6:30 My alarm beeped and the ringtone was kinda horrible. On hearing this disturbing noise of my alarm clock which was beeping continuously I quickly hit the stop button instead of snoozing it. I headed to the bathroom, had my shower and rushed towards the downstairs and embraced my mom and sister with a warm hug. My mom walked towards the dining table where I was seated and placed some pancakes and an oatmeal. I ate rapidly as I felt hungry, I didn't had anything last night... I grabbed an orange juice while continuously chewing my meal.
"So, where are you going today so early?", Mom questioned me while I was in my own world thinking about something deeply.
"Jenny dear, are you conscious? I just questioned you", Mom said while tapping my back.
"Ummm...Yeah! Today I'm up for a trip with my colleagues to a hill station". I answered.
"Oh that sounds great! Take care!"
Here we ended our conversation and I walked towards the door, sighed, and quickly catched a cab.
I received a call from one of my closest friend- Anna.
"Hey, till where have you reached", Anna said.
"Just on the way, I'll reach at the location within 15 minutes".
"No...No wait! first meet me at the coffee shop, the trip has been cancelled". Anna hurriedly told.
*After 15 minutes at coffee shop*
"Hi, how have you been?", Anna inquired with a pleasant hug.
"Yeah! Great".
We settle at the very first table
"By the way...Anna why the heck is our trip cancelled at the end?", I asked in a frustrating voice.
"Joana's husband declared divorse today, after so many defeats, that's why urgently we had to cancel it". Anna expressed with a sorrow.
"Oh I see, this love is just another shit! always ruining my day. You know what, a very good solution to avoid divorce is not to get married at all!!not to fall for anyone!". Anna interrupted in between by laughing hysterically.
"Hey, Jenny you know my ex is being anxious to meet me after 3months of breakup! I'm so glad that he actually realized his mistake". Exclaimed Anna by banging her feets with excitement.
"Anna, please... it's one of my request not to talk anything about love with me! I just hate lovers!!and though you had your breakup I'll recommend you not to again give that moron a shit".
"Okay, calm down. I'll just bring two cups of cappuccino". Anna said while walking towards the counter.
Jennifer's P.O.V
My act of hating lovers made Anna pondered like hell! She must have understood my situation much better if she ever loved a person with all her heart. By just having temporary feelings for a person just for a month doesn't mean you are in love. Love is something when the other person's happiness becomes more important than yours and no matter how tough your situation would be but you'll never leave them alone...that's called a TRUE LOVE. Anna never loved his ex, she was just having a temporary feeling for him that's the reason she's yet happy after her breakup. But what about people like me, being in trauma for about 6 months, mentally hell like tired! Suffering from uncured disease like bipolar.
When you had failed in your relationship, then you may bounced between sleepless nights and loss of appetite as well as anxiety, panic and feelings of despair. I faced much more extreme than this, those dark circles under my eyes still reconnects me with those nights where I became an insomniac patient and yeah! All those mood swings which made me anger even though I was a very calmed person. People often say that in such situations all you need is a therapy or may be a correct counseling.
"Was that a one sided love? Or a well planed game? Or a betrayal with me? All those thoughts were continuously running in my mind since 6months. But, thank god! After 6 month I've completed my masters degree in Neuro science which was one of my passion.
"Hey, here's your cappuccino just hold it... it's too hot". Anna interrupted between my thoughts.
"Do you know any pharmacy here nearby?, I need to buy some tablets urgently". I said
"Which tablets? what happened to your health?
"Ummm... bipolar medicines". I said suspiciously.
"Bipolar? Are you suffering from bipolar disease?", Anna question.
"Yup! But that's a big secret nobody knows except my mom and one of my besti, but now unfortunately it's revealed to you". I replied
"Jennifer", Anna pronounced while thinking something deeply.
"Yeah! Say", I replied with a questioned mark on my face.
"I'm actually worried about you. I mean to say...I eagerly wanted to know what made you so changed within a year. I still remember those days of our college where you were casanova of our class, but now...what happened to you?did something unpleasant happened with you, I mean something bad?", Anna expressed.
"Something bad, NO!It was one of the worst part of my life. I wish I could have never met 'ANSHUMAN', never!", I said while tears took place and rolled down my cheeks.
"Anshuman? Who's he? Yeah wait...I got it, the senior boy of our college. Am I right?", Anna questioned raising her one eyebrow up.
"Yep, you're right! nobody knows that we both were in a relationship, a short term relationship. He was the senior of our college, my first betrayal love. Because of him I became a depression and also a bipolar patient. Though both our religion were totally different, I belong to Christian minority and he was Hindu...but I never minded with religion neither he did". I said expressing my inferior.
"So what made you both isolated?", Anna asked eagerly.
"LET ME TELL YOU THE ENTIRE STORY, WHICH WAS LITERALLY A JIGSAW PUZZLE FOR ME". I told and Anna nodded in response.