SUMMER'S P.O.V.
"where's your boyfriend, Summer?" Asked Mark. Mixing drinks for other costumers.
"beside me." My reply.
"hey, what are you saying?" Skyler butted in.
"just sit and shut up." I glared at him.
Mark looked at Skyler, then me.
"he's not Nathan." He had a confused look.
"of course he's not."
"so, you cheating on Nathan?" Mark continued.
I shrugged. "not totally." I gulped my fifth shot. "let's not talk about this. It makes my bad mood worst."
"okay, fine." Mark attented some costumers so he turns his back at me.
Many minutes past, now i'm on my second bottle of a hard drink. Mark opened it for me.
My chaser is just a water. I put some crashed ice too. I know my voice will not be so good for a few days but i can still sing. I'm feeling a bit dizzy now but i can still carry on.
"don't you like some, Skyler?" I offered him a shot.
I got surprised when Skyler accepted it and gulped at once.
"what's with the face?" He asked after putting it at the counter.
"y--you just drank it."
"who says i can't drink?" He smirked.
I smiled. "i like you." I said without even thinking what will be his reaction.
I saw Skyler's forehead forming a knot.
"how?" He asked. His body facing at me.
"mmm.." I'm trying to think how. He's hot, handsome in no doubt, smart, super smart, tall, rich, an athlete, excels in music, nice, caring, perfect. But i still couldn't find a definite answer. So i give up thinking and just shrugged. "i don't know. I just--i just like you." The last two words seems like a whisper but i'm sure he heard it even if there's a very loud noise of music and people's shouting and cheering.
"you're already wasted, Summer."
I swiveled my head at him directly. Then turn my whole body to face him. "a little. But i know what i'm talking." I gulped my 2Oth shot.
"yeah, sure you know. But you don't mean it."
I put down my glass with a loud thud.
"i mean it!" Oh god! I don't know why i insist it to him. Maybe because i'm a bit drunk now but i really mean what i say. I so like him!
"okay. Don't be hyper."
I'm still not convinced if he believe me. Oh, hell i care.
"i think that's enough, Summer." He said as he stood up and attempted to snatch the shot glass from my hand but i shove him away.
"don't disturb my business here!" I said angrily at him.
He stared at me in surprise.
I ignore him and drunk the remaining liquid in the bottle directly. I put it carelessly at the table. The bottle's empty. And my dizziness activated more. But my emotions are lessening it.
"if you want to go home, you can. Leave me alone here!" I stood up to face him. "I don't want anyone interfering my business! I don't want anyone reprimanding me of what i should do and shouldn't. You think i can do whatever i want? No! I can't! I can't even do the most thing that i want. I can't even do music without breaking my father's heart..." The alcohol's turning on my emotions. And i can't control it anymore. I know a tear fell from my eyes. And it didn't stop. People won't notice us anyway. They're too busy enjoying while i'm sentimenting here. "i can't even do music without remembering my mom's death.. But i'm doing it. Still doing it. Why? Because i want to punish myself. But there are times music makes me happy. I don't--i don't understand.. I really don't understand.." I started to sob. I covered my face with my palms. Skyler pulled me towards his arms and chained me to it. I burried my face at his chest again. "i know--i should--have--stopped this--should have sto-pped--my music. B-but, i d-don't know why i can't. I can't, Skyler... I can't. I'm hurting my father.. I know i'm so bad. But i can't help being bad. It's r-really me."
When i'd calmed down, i pull away from him.
I return from my sit.
"Mark, more please." I ordered.
"right away." He said cheerfully.
Good. He did not notice my crying and shouting. Well, no one can really see my face but i know i don't look good now. And my cheek's swollen from my father's painful slaps. Adding my bloodshot eyes. But i look fine with a dim light. Well, it's a night club so everywhere's a little dim. Except for the comfort rooms. But i won't go there. I don't want to see myself.
"here." Mark placed it in front of me.
I don't use a glass anymore and just gulped it straight to my throat. I want to get wasted until i can no longer drink anymore.
"Summer." Skyler called beside me. Tapping my shoulder.
I ignore him. I don't want to talk anymore because if i did, i'll only lose myself and let my emotions overflow me again.
I had finished half of the bottle and it gave me a dizzy sight and weak system. I put it with a thud and breathed for a while.
Skyler took a sit beside me. I stared at him.
"what is it?" He asked.
I can't really see his face straightly because of my dizzy sight. But i shook my head and once more, i can see him straightly. But it won't last longer. So i need to blink and focus many times. My heads getting heavy too so i leaned my head at my palms. My elbow's at the table.
I look seriously at him. "one more thing i hated the most.. I hate people caring for me because they just need to."
"i care Summer because i just do! I don't know why but i care! Really care!" He stormed at me and my body shivered and seems got awaken.
My drunkiness seems to lessen.
"fine then. I don't hate you. Oh i already said, i like you. So i really don't hate you. You're out of my hate list. But actually, you have never been listed in it." I smiled at him.
My body is getting weaker. So i fall from my seat but Skyler caught me by my waist. He's fast. I can still manage to keep awake, barely.
"let's go and you can do nothing to stop me." He gritted.
He lifted me to stood up. He put my arm around him.
He fished something from his pocket and pulled few dollars. He put it at the counter.
"keep the change, Mark." He called.
Mark accepted it. "where are you bringing, Summer?"
"somewhere she can sleep. Trust me. I won't do anything evil at her."
Mark noded then look at me.
"see you again, Mark." I said to him.
Skyler then put his arms around my waist to keep me standing and to avoid getting out balance.
We got out from the bar. I glimpsed Skyler glancing at his wristwatch. It's already 10.
He sighed. "com'on, Summer."
"not home." I mumbled. "you can leave me anywhere but i'm not going home."
"no."
"what?" So he'll bring me home?
"i'm not leaving you anywhere. Fine if you don't want to go home. Then we'll go to my place instead and you can sleep there safely."
Oh, i thought he'll force to bring me home. But he's offering me a so much better place instead. So why not yes?
I smiled at him.
We walked a little forward to the road. I'm depending with Skyler to keep me from falling to the ground. Many are looking at us.
After a moment, Skyker called a taxi and he pushed me inside at the back. He hopped beside me at the back seat. After we settled. My head fell to his shoulder and my eyelids shut. I know i'm going to fall asleep but Skyler's with me. I trusted him so i don't bother anymore.