It has taken a huge toll on me.
Everything, from the rumors, to the people creating it, and even the cold treatment I receive from my husband. All I could do was to silently pray that I don't loose my will to make it right.
Because I'm feeling so tired now.
"You look really exhausted right now" Xin Xue, my other girl friend said to me.
We were in my house, still lounging by myself, all alone because of my husband's work.
"I know, I'm really stressed out right now. The rumor is spreading too fast I couldn't keep up on it" I said while massaging my aching head.
The rumor continued to spread and if became more ridiculous to hear. But even though it have a lot of loopholes on it, people just can't help but to create stories themselves and make it more worse.
"You know, you should really explain to your husband, even though I hate him" Alisha said while looking at me with concern.
"If I could, I would really love to do it now. But he's in another business trip and I.....I don't know what to do anymore" I said, exasperated over the events that continued to stressed me.
With my hands up in my head, I tired to think over some solutions I could come up with, then I guess I should come to my in-laws first and explained my side of the story.
"I'll be heading out to my in-laws, could you.....um.....could you d-drive me over?" I ask hesitantly, still afraid of giving them trouble brought by me.
"Why do you have to ask? Of course we would give you a ride!" Xin Xue said with a huge smile on her face. Thank goodness I have my true, real friends with me.
With everything going downhill for me, I'm glad I could confide with them.
....
"My goodness Eiri! You look too pale! How could you also look so thin!" Mother Heline immediately came over and inspect my face.
"It's all about the rumors right? Don't worry, they're too ridiculous to even believe. I couldn't fathom how those simple minded no brain idiots you called reporters created that rumor" Iris said with an annoyed tone.
"Is that it? How could you even think that we- Even so, we would definitely sue them! How dare them cause such a big trouble and create a rumor that stressed you out!" Mother Heline added which both my friends and Iris nodded.
Having great comfort over their words, I finally get a piece of mind.
"But Nolan.....I-I don't think he t....trust m-me, I-I really do..n't know. I'm scared"
They panicked when they see me cry like a newborn child. These past month, I'm getting too emotional and could easily cry and get excited.
"I will beat him to a pulp if he tried to hurt you!" Alisha said.
"I would definitely skin him alive if he didn't believe you!" Xin Xue added.
"Even though he's my son, I would surely give him a lashing for not trusting you" Iris nodded at her mother's words as my two friends cheered for my mother in law.
"Thank you, thank you so much" I said while crying and half smiling.
Then a phone was handed over me, looking at my mother in law, I asked her through my eyes.
"Call him, I know he can't refuse you just like that"
With her words, I dialed the familiar numbers I used to repeat over and over my head when I was in high school. My hands were slightly shaking and then the call connected, a lump on my throat appeared.
"Hello?"
I didn't know that this one call would cause me such pain, and even so, several chains of misunderstandings would began.
And so my demise.