As I drove to his studio, continuum questions and thoughts kept on and playing on my head. I didn't realise that had parked right in front of his studio. There he stood with his broad body, his shirt was off. I stood there examined his whole body thoroughly, all the thoughts that I had, they diminished after seeing the man that I love so dearly. I couldn't get to see the painting that he was busy with. I slowly walked towards him, I never cared if he had paint all over his chest, I needed to hold him so tight, just to listen to his heartbeat perhaps that would calm me down. During that course, I felt as if I could lose myself to him forgetting that it is only a couple of days to our wedding. The anxiety that filled me up that instant, the only thing that could help subdue my nerves was to hang on to him. I embraced him, he turned around, to his surprise he did not even realise that I was at the studio. He looked into my eyes, I slowly raised my hand to touch his cheeks, I rubbed my hand slowly towards his beard. He followed my hand without saying a word. His look was so intensifying, as though he knew what was going on through my mind. He dropped the paint brush that he had on his hand. He grabbed hold of my hands and started kissing both of them slowly, with his eyes directly facing me. He let go of one hand, he drew me closer to his chest, and he brushed off the hair on my face and said "Hi" with his deep voice, that is so bold and mind blowing. I couldn't face him since he had already read my mind, my gaze was on his chest, I opened my mouth, I couldn't stomach it out, he slowly pressed his lips towards mine, a simple kiss made me want more than just a kiss. I pressed my lips into a thin line. He never removed his gaze from me. I bit my lip. He wrapped me around and brought me closer. I yearned to kiss him. Out of my bewilderment he sealed the kiss, we kissed as our tongues intertwined together dancing to the rhythm of love.
He left me wanting for more.
"Talk to me" he said "What seems to be troubling you?" He said this as he caressed me. For a moment I stood still, not knowing what to say. My only motive was to confront him. How, what happened and why it took them this long to bring me back.
"Baby, I was with Mercy just now.. "
"Yes... What were you too discussing about? I hope you haven't made any more changes to the wedding"
"No not really, we were talking about you and I"
"What, why?"
I decided to let go from his embrace. Reason being that I couldn't help see the sorrow in his eyes. The look he gave me, I could tell that this man, is somehow possessed with love.
"I had inquired about both of our situations from the previous years... "
"Why were you digging up the past?"
"Because J. R... "
"Cause what? Why are trying to hurt yourself? Digging the past won't solve anything... We got to face the future which is now!"
"Aren't bothered about how I lived a miserable life without you? The thought of not seeing you each day, made me go crazy. The thought of trying to understand that you are no more, drove me nuts... "
Before I could carry on with my expressions, he quickly grabbed me by wrist. He turned me to face him.
"What matters most is now, it is you and I, our love and affection towards each other, that's all that matters. What happened in the past remains in the past.. For what good reason would you want to open up healed wounds? I made peace with it. I love you"
I pressed my lips, staring at him. I lifted both the heels of my feet, stood on my toes. My hands wrapped around his neck. I then kissed him slowly. The love and affection this man gave me was priceless. I held from him stared right into his eye's.