*UNEDITED*
No matter how many books she browsed through. Lila gradually got distracted, her thoughts playing games with her.
She can only rely on herself and nobody else. Ah, but once upon a time there may have been time where she attempted to rely on someone, only to end up corrupting the person along the way. In that case is there any need for her to rely on other people?
Whenever Lila tried, she ends up destroying that persons life and causing them pain. If that's what the outcome will be then there is no need for her to rely on other people.
She is stronger alone, and the strength she has gained is evidence for this. There is no point in getting attached to people, because in the end of the day you can only truly count on yourself. For the longest time she believed this, and yet her ideals were crushed so easily.
