The people around her aren't stupid. Even if she says nothing, her actions, her behavior is enough for them to understand. She held back for the longest time; she feared that people would learn her identity. She feared what they would say. How many years has she spent in the entertainment industry? Worrying about such things seems so superficial. Superficial, and not like her at all. Yet, Lila knew how worried and paranoid she became. She feared that Haruka would realize the truth.
When she first started dating Karashima Haruka. Lila knew she not only still loved Kiryu. But, the feelings she had for Haruka were not that strong. That's why she could look past all those girls clinging to him. However, it's different now. Now that her feelings are serious. Lila realizes how petty she can actually be.
"The present, past, and future die away as they repeat
Just like hope and despair, even so, I embrace what's precious
Alice knows the loopholes of this world,
