Haruka exhaled deeply, what is he doing? Staying like this with her? He turned back to the girl. Though she had woken up; her fever was high again, so he made her lay down again. He walked back over and extended his hand out towards her forehead; a burning sensation filled his palm. Hot. Normal fever or not, he should buy regular cold medicines. What he gave her before will only be useful for a short amount of time. With this in mind, he decided to leave; however, the girl suddenly shot her hand out.
Did he wake her up? Haruka looked down, and found Lilas' eyes were open, "Haruka I think I might like…"
What is she saying, this girl? After hearing what she said, it didn't take him long to lose control. Haruka doesn't hesitate to tear the shirt from her.
"Haruka, you too. Please," Lila begged. Her voice was desperate and so needy, needy for him. Haruka removed his shirt and found her, staring at him with flushed cheeks. What an idiot. Noticing her gaze darken slightly, he pauses. Oh, right? There are other markings left by the girls he saw earlier.
To his surprise, her fingers quietly grazed over the marks, "These don't look nice they did it wrong."
"Then, you fix it."
"..."
She stared at him with flushed cheeks, and he understands immediately. Even if she suddenly gets caught up in the flow, it need not mean he can trick her. It's okay though, with this atmosphere. They'll probably be able to do it.
See? It doesn't matter who she likes. He's good at sex; she'll agree to it. She's just like any other woman. He needs to convince himself that. She isn't any different.
Lila seemed startled, however, and uncomfortable.
".. Take deep breaths." He instructed.
"Deep breaths?" Lila repeated puzzled.
"It'll help you."
Lila nodded. Laughter suddenly escaped her lips as she murmured that he must be worried about her. Haruka looked away slightly. What is he doing? Generally, with this atmosphere, he goes ahead and does it. Words that have nothing to do with pleasure are unnecessary. This girl, at this stage they'll do it. Why isn't she stopping him? She was so against it before. Or maybe it was all an act.
Oh, it probably isn't. Lila is still sick.
He almost forgot. The reason he has Lila here is to give her treatment. He almost got carried away. The fever is probably making her act this way too. Haruka isn't stupid to think that she's doing this consciously; especially considering how cold her gaze is whenever he touched her as of late.
"Haruka... Haruka. It feels... kinda... good."
Still, what on earth is she saying? No, she's sick. She's not thinking straight. He lifted her shirt slightly and frowned, seeing the deep marks. One would think they'd disappear by now but traces still firmly remained.
Marks from another man. He figured it was like that, but huh, they met up. Haruka then puts medicine on his fingers and shoves it inside her mouth, "Suck it." he murmured in her ear.
"Nnnngh. .."
The moans that left her lips rendered him speechless. Why does she sound so sexy?
"Haruka, I'm dizzy..." Lila said. He removed his fingers, "Ah...Uh .."
God. This atmosphere is bad.
"uk...ma. Ah, Haruka."
. .. He gulps down the rest of the medicine, and bends down, parting the girl's lips once his lips were on hers was simple, especially in her present state. "Nngh ..unngh."
She belongs to another guy. He knows better than anyone, and yet he can't stop this. Once he stopped kissing her, he noticed how flushed she was. He saw it earlier but didn't comment. But seeing how her face color was changing several hues, he paused. Is it merely because of the fever? "For a while...you haven't been embarrassed around me.." he mumbled.
"Ah-huh...it was weird.."
"That's different now?" Haruka asked, but he wasn't expecting a proper response.
She shyly nodded, "I'm embarrassed."
So, what? Is she back to normal? It's only been a short amount of time. Can he delude himself again, into thinking she feels self-conscious around him because her feelings are changing? Can he keep pretending that he's not the one forcing her into this?
What's more her singing is fixed now too. Was he hindering her rather than help? Lila, he only wanted to show you that he loves you. But as it stands, these feelings of his; are only causing you trouble.
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May 8th, 2035 Light Academy.
'Remember, even if you have a boyfriend. A fiance, you're already mine…'
Lila shook her head after hearing such words from him three days ago. How could she possibly think anything of it? Thump. Thump. The places he touched still burn. They were close to having sex that much was certain. She wasn't sure what happened in the end since she passed out. But she understood that he stopped at some point. In all honesty, she still felt terrible. But if she stayed there any longer, it would have been bad for her.
........
In the end, she entered an empty classroom. Haruka was fast asleep on the sofa. His face seems flushed. That person, Umi, Sonoda-senpai told her that Haruka had a fever. Lila walked over and brushed her hand on his forehead. Hot. Did he catch it from her? She can't say she's steady herself, but she should help him.
"Lila..…"
Hearing her name leave his lips, startled her. Lila turned away; she really ought to get some medicine at least. Before she could do so though, she found herself on the couch, with Haruka hovering over her. He was kissing her so feverishly. She somehow got him off, and he snapped out of it.
"You...why are you here?" Haruka asked.
"I um wanted," Lila stumbled on her words, and she accidentally bit her lip, before she managed to say it, "Some um..help." she pointed to the documents in her hands.
Haruka nodded, "Give it here."
Lila hands the documents, and he explained from the start. From time to time, she found herself peeking at him, "Haruka…"
"What?"
"...N—nothing."
She's somewhat nervous. After all, that's happened recently. She has yet to forget the sensation of his touch too, and however Kiryus memory will paint over this feeling. Haruka, she cannot accept his feelings. But why, can't she leave him alone?
...........
Lila didn't think he would push her down, because of the awkward atmosphere. But, that thought was naive of her.
Haruka murmured huskily in her ear, "You want this right?" Lila did not know what to say. Haruka did not seem to mind though; his eyes burned with desire as he looked at her, "Well, whatever. I guess I can start."
In the surrounding area, Lila sees the state of the room and several torn women's garments. Lila immediately understood his present state, "No. Let me go!" she exclaimed.
"Let you go, huh? Didn't I tell you that's not possible?"
"You..um already.."
"Because I touched other girls? What's wrong with that? You're not anything to me yet.."
Nothing. Oh, oh, oh.
She says the words, 'oh' repeatedly in her mind. Her chest was tightening up because of the sudden pain. Haruka, she isn't necessary to him in any way. She is simply a nobody, and yet, whenever he touched her. Whenever he holds her, she can feel his affection overflowing.
Her hands wrapped around his back as he made quick work of her neck. The previous markings from before had yet to vanish. Since when did Haruka become so precious to her. When was it? Was it during that moment when he gave her the phone charm?
Or was it back then?
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Last year, November 2034
"I can only lend you a little support now. But next year, I will give you a proper answer.."She doesn't know if she can be the one to lead him to a place of light. But she wants to try.
When she thinks of light, she sees Haruka's figure.
Haruka may get angry, at her for saying this.
But for her, Karashima Haruka is another light. A different light than the one belonging to her beloved. But something equally important. What she's been avoiding this entire time. What people saw in them then. She wonders if it will all come spilling out soon.
...
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The moment she first found out how fragile he was? She said it then, Haruka-kun is a different light than the one belonging to her precious Kiryu.