Getting back at her home all tired mentally and physically, she sluggishly went to the deep well and fetch some water to boil in order to clean her worn out body. Thinking about the old couple who always considered her feelings made bliss overwhelmed her heart.
All the emotions she has been keeping to herself all throughout the past years till now suddenly poured down and made her cry a lot.
While bathing, seeing her porcelain doll like skin that turned pinkish while on the hot water, her swollen eyes looking so lovely and enticing still wear the same lonesome and sad aura which only let lose whenever she is alone. If one will see her state, those who loves her will love her even more. She who is so oblivious to her own beauty never even thought that her cold stunning physical feature is enough to ruin a city.
The memory of my parents, of our happy family life made my heart crumble.
she can't help but lower her head and hug her own knees forming a beautiful human ball.
Even until now, just by seeing how happy a family was doing simple things such as-walking and being together made my heart inexplicably hurt. i don't know how to end my sufferings that keep on killing me over and over again.
While crouching on the bathtub, a single tear fall down from her swollen eyes she said as if talking to someone
"if only you were alive perhaps im not..not this hurt"
"i miss you.. i miss you so much mom and dad. How could i ever live long feeling empty inside!"
her heart churn in anguish as though a million needles slowly piercing her broken heart.
Weeping she whispered "please answer me, p..please t-take me... with you."
Not knowing how much time passed, she fall asleep naked without going to bed. Her entirety darkened and her mind drifted into the dream she always had everyday.
Here i am again, entering the time where my parents were still alive. Happily talking to one another, making food for supper while waiting for my father to come home from work.
Despite being a small merchant he was known for being trustworthy and honest young man. My mom is actually beautiful they said just like me, though i wonder why my mom marries my slightly over average looking father at least for me as his child.
I must be too young and too used seeing pretty people around me, making my fathers look as a beauty standard when in fact i didn't know he is handsome and prettier than girls sometimes but he often time say jokes that get on my nerves. I regret not going along with his jokes, if i only knew perhaps i could bring him happiness even just slightly.
Come to think of it, my mom and i often talk about father while waiting for his comeback. We are happily cooking as we both laugh while my mom tells me her side of stories. Hmm what were we talking about that time again? Ah yes!.. that's it.
"i fell for your father because of his honesty though he is handsome he is not arrogant and he even looked more cooler whenever he talks about business. I don't know why but i even love his silly jokes and not knowing why..i silly laugh. Perhaps im in-love at your father even before he started courting me" she said with her gentle eyes, blushing cheeks and happy aura.
"mommy, how come i don't like daddy's jokes? It always get on my nerves.." pouting her lips she ask daringly.