After the welcoming party for the new members of the arts club, I never saw him again. When I found out that he has a girlfriend I never turned my thoughts on him. After that night I don't know how could I face him again. I mean like, after I asked him that out of the box question and found out that he has a girlfriend, I even slept with him.
(On the dance floor with Kris "The continuation of their convo")
"Why? Do I smell bad?" he asked. "No-no!, actually you smell good" I answered. Am I too obvious that he's my type?" (talking in my mind) "Oh! well, Keith right?" he asked. "Yeah! Keith" I responded with a fading voice. "Should we go and grab a drink? The girls are getting annoying, hope you won't turn me down." "Sure, l-let's grab a drink" I awkwardly answered. I left Jason on the dance floor because he was busy showing off his dance moves to the other girls, just to impress them.
(At the bar counter)
"2 beers please!" Is he going to treat me? nevermind I'll just pay everything. I never said anything or made any sound. I was just secretly observing him. He got that hot asian look, does he go to gym? he got biceps, I'm pretty sure he got those abs. Wait what am I thinking right now? In a while I was dazed by his beauty and forgot that this guy infront of me has a girlfriend.
"So whats your deal? why arts club?" he asked. "I don't know, I mean I just fell inlove with art" "what do you mean fell inlove with art?" "I mean art, its just like love, it needs time, patience and effort for you to appreciate the beauty of it. The beauty that makes you smile everytime you see it, the beauty that would make all your wasted blood, sweat and tears worth it and the beauty that would make you realize that this life has a purpose." I responded with a fading voice towards the end. "Big word for a freshmen" he smirked while looking at me in the eyes. His eyes were shining like stars, everything about him is beautiful.
While having a casual conversation with Kris we get to know each other. We shared our address, phone number, facebook, twitter and instagram accounts. He is even from the medical department too.
I never thought that I am talking to him right now. All this time I thought that he's that kinda fuck boy, snob senior but I guess I was wrong, and it made me even more impressed by him.
"We should be friends" "U-us?" I answered. "Yeah!" "Okay, then now were friends" I answerd in a low voice. "No! I mean facebook friends or I'll just follow you on instagram and twitter" "Oh! is that so" In the end I expected something but the reallity is he was just trying to have more followers, anyways I'll gain more followers too. "Sure!" I gave him all my social media accounts and followed him back. I thought that was it, we just followed each other since we are now colleagues but...
"I should follow you so that I could know more about you, you are an interesting guy after all"
.....
After he said those words there was a complete silence. I don't know how to answer him I don't know if I was shocked or flattered. The silence lasted for about 30 seconds with my thoughts in the head,
"Is he really interested with me?"
"Am I to obvious that he's my type, and now he's playing games with me?"
"I can't believe this is happening"
My thoughts were flying away it was like my spirit was pulled out of my body, although if that happened I might die.
"Keith? Keith? are you okay?" I never noticed that he was talking to me. "Me? Yeah! I'm okay, I guess?" "Why is anything wrong?" is this guy showing some concern about me? "Yeah, my head hurts and I'm a bit dizzy" I responded with a weird tone. "I guess your drunk, let me send you home" Yes! I admit I'm a cheap drunk, I could only take 3 to 4 shots of soju how much more I drank an entire bottle of beer, but even though I'm drunk am I hearing this clearly, is he really driving me home? The guy whom I just met and turned out to be my type really driving me home? Again, alot of thoughts are getting into my mind.
"Am I about to lose my virginity?"
"No! This can't be, I'm still preserving this for the right girl or boy maybe"
"Nahh! I don't care, he's my type after all"
"Wait! what am I thinking right now?"
I never thought that I could think alot of dirty things with this useless mind.
"Let's go! I'll drive you home." He grabbed my hand and moving his head away pointing towards the exit. "Wait! I have'nt paid for our drinks yet" "Oh yeah! I'm paying" he released my hand and grabbed his wallet and payed for our drinks. Then he grabbed me again. On my right side he held my right hand using his right hand and held my left waist with his left hand. "Is he taking advantage of me?" again I had those thoughts in my mind. "Uhhmm! I guess your too close?" I talked in a very gentle but awkward voice. "Your drunk, and I am your senior I should take care of you after all you are my responsibility." I guess I'm just over thinking the situation. He's just a kind senior to a freshman.
..... ( to the car park ) .....
Wow! "Lexus LC500" I guess he's not all face, he's got heavy pockets too. I am totally inloved with this car I even asked my dad to buy me this car but I just turned 18.
As he was driving me home there is a complete silence. I don't know what and how to start a conversation, the atmosphere was totaly awkward, you know? I met a hot, handsome, rich and kind senior who asked me out to go and grab a drink with him. We even exchanged social media accounts even if we just met. This things are kinda acceptable for the first meeting but this guy is now driving me home, this is crazy it's like a guy flirting with a girl whom he just met on a club and planned to make out. But I guess it was all just me thinking about these things. I don't know why am I freaking out, maybe because I'm drunk or maybe because this is my first time being driven out by a guy who turned out to be my type.
I hate the silence, its like the longer the silence is, the more awkward it gets so I decided to make some noise.
"Do you know where your heading at?" I talked in a low voice just to break the awkward silence. "Yeah! Devon neighborhood right?" "Yeah! how did you know, have we met before or have you been stalking me?" How could he know? "Stalking you? Hahaha" He is laughing like there's no tomorrow. "Whats funny?" "You told me your address awhile ago when we were still in the bar, remember?" He is laughing while talking I can barely understand him because he is still laughing. "I even told you that my dorm is in the forth building" he added. "Sh*t did you, did-I?" I am totaly confused of what is happening right now. "I guess you're really drunk huh?" "Yeah! I think so" "I just can't believe your a cheap drunk hahaha" "I know so stop making fun of me" He is getting annoying how could he bully me when we just met. "Sorry I didn't mean to offend you hahah" And after the sorry he is still laughing. "Yeah! you're forgiven, after all I can't believe you're still driving even if you drank 2 bottles of beer." The awkward atmosphere is already gone. "My friends and I usually go out and drink. It's like a bonding for us." "So I guess you always shit on your pants?" I am trying to get back and bully him. "As what I was saying I am not a cheap drunk like you, I can always hold it" "Okay-okay you win." I gave up on bullying him. "You know what, you should get a nap so your head won't hurt, I'll just wake you up later." "I guess you should suggest that I stay awake because the one driving right now is drunk" "Trust me, everything's gonna be okay, I won't let you get hurt." The silence came back after he said those words. It was so familliar, like i've heard it before. It was like the words said by someone who broke my heart 2 years. To escape the silence I decided to take a nap instead.
...
Kris did not wake me up, so I just woke up myself. I had a good nap it felt like good sleep. Wait! am I already in bed? But how did I get here? Wait! this is not my room. Then, whose room is this? No one is with me in bed, my clothes are still intacked I can't feel anything in my ass too. No one is in the room with me. I guess I have to leave this room before someone arrives. When I am about to stand I heard a manly voice saying "Goodmorning! have you slept well?" It was Kris. "What happened? no wait please don't tell me, sorry for intruding I need to go" I imediately stand and went to the door to look for my shoes when he said. "Your shoes are over here" As I am walking slowly towards him I never looked at him. When I was about to pick up my shoes, he pat my head and held my hair. "I like your soft hair" I looked up to him then I saw his bright smile. "My soft hair?" There was a complete silence. I even forgot that I need to go, then I remembered "Oh! I need to go" I ran away even I still didn't have my shoes on my feet.
What the hell just happend? Did I slept with him? When I was to get embarass with myself I suddenly remembered. "I like your soft hair" "My soft hair?" It was totaly like what that person said before.