I'm here lying on my bed, nakatingin ako sa mannequin that is here inside my room, pinahanda iyan ni papa na galing pa kay grandma.
Wala ako sa mood para pumunta doon, I don't feel like it. Siguro ito na mangyayari na iyong request ko for Pervy and maybe after this hindi na kami magkikita. I don't know sa request niya na kaya siya pumayag na maging kami but I hope hindi pa dadating iyon.
Yes, ganito ako since that moment na nangyari a week ago and I'm super exhausted na talaga dahil tinatanggap ko na I like Pervy na, yes weird diba? I'm weird! This is getting weird! Everyday nalang akong ganito.
Normal na kami ni Pervy, you know the type of him being weird and sweet... Or flirty and me being maldita sa kanya kasi even though inaamin ko na that I'm having a crush on him ay ewwy pa rin siya and nakakainis minsan.
He's sticking to me like a glue kahit nasa school kami, labas pasok na siya sa Royal North Academy and yes, super public na kaming dalawa and marami na ang may alam, kahit mga Southernians kalat na din doon na kami.
He didn't even mind! Pinagpatuloy niya pa rin. Busy din ako minsan kasi malapit na ang Culmination sa Buwan ng Wika and we have to help Chloe na mag-organize sa program and kung ano ang mga activities, and I will volunteer nalang sa pag-decorate. I will surely do something para ma-prove sa ibang students that being in a relationship is not a hindrance sa pagiging leader ko.
"JULIE!!!"
I almost fell off of my bed nang bigla nalang akong dinaganan ni Zara and I realize na sabay pala kaming pupunta sa party.
Napatingin naman ako sa iba na nakahiga na sa kama ko, para silang pagod na pagod, yeah since busy nga kami these days tapos may papadating na 2nd Monthly test pa, napa-close na nga ng eyes si Chloe eh. Hays, we're so kawawa naman talaga minsan.
We ended up nagchichika while nakahiga because it's 6:31 PM pa naman and the party will start at exactly 8:00 PM.
I sighed, "Guys... I think I like him na," napatingin naman ako sa reaction nila and ngayon ay nakaharap na sila sakin with their question look na 'who?' and I sighed na naman. I can't lie to them naman kasi. I need to let this out kasi baka lumalala.
"Ryan."
Napatingin ulit ako sa kanila and I saw Chloe na napapikit while si Zara ay... Ewan nakatunganga eh, pino-process pa siguro ang sinabi ko and Katie, well nanlaki naman ang eyes niya, "WHAT?!", biglang shout ni Zara and agad naman siyang binatukan ni Chloe at sinapak ni Katie.
Napatawa naman ako, "Yes, I think I like him na talaga... I mean yeah, he's from Royal South Academy, and we all knew since we were new sa Royal North Academy noon, kalaban na talaga ang turing ng both campus before we bought the school, but guys, maybe not all of them are bad guys... Maybe the principal was right all along," as much as possible mahina nag pagkasabi ko doon.
They're silent for about a minute then nagsalita si Kate, "I don't know, I don't feel them. It's like they're too impossible for us. Both campus are just like the chemical of bleach and rubbing alcohol that aren't compatible, kapag magkahalo ito it would produce chloroform, hydrochloric acid and other compounds such as chloro---",
Pinigilan ni Zara si Katie, "Gulalay naman Katie! Sunday na sunday nagkaklase ka?! Respeto naman po sa mga gustong magkaroon ng break from stress eh ano po?", sabi niya kaya napatawa nalang kami ni Chloe at sinimangutan lang siya ni Katie.
"Julie," napatingin naman kaming lahat kay Chloe na ngumiti, "It's okay to fall for someone or like someone, hindi kasi natin naco-control emotion natin and it is useless kapag pinipigilan mo because lalaki lang ito and mas mahirap 'yan. Just go with the flow, as long as wala kang sinasaktan na ibang tao, hindi masama ang maging masaya. I know you're happy with Ryan's company and it's okay, andito lang kami," and ngumiti siya, I hugged her naman.
Mapapagkatiwalaan ko talaga sila sa lahat, kahit papaano I feel like may kapatid talaga ako because of them, I love them as a part of my family, as my family, "But... Nakamove on ka na ba kay France, Julie? Are you over him?", napatingin kaming lahat kay Zara.
Medyo may konting kirot when I heard the name France, masakit, the guy who left me, the guy na that I picture my future with but left, ngumiti ako bitterly, "I don't know, masakit pa din. I don't know, I guess useless naman because he's not coming back," and humiga ulit si me.
I heard Katie sighed, "Kaya wala akong alam diyan sa love eh, it's so complicated, even complicated than our thesis project," and napatawa nalang ako when Katie hilot her noo na parang it's a problem talaga.
Piningot naman ni Zara her ilong, "Problemado ka dyan Kate?! Eh wala ka ngang lovelife or naging lovelife Ms. NBSB! And paano mo nalaman na complicated? Saang planeta mo naman nakuha iyan? HAHAHA!", napatawa nalang kami because Katie is so cute naman kasi, she's NBSB and alam niyo na kung why. Books and books.
"Grabe kayo sakin! At least matalino ako and I have brains, mas productive pa ang studies kaysa lovelife ano! And I'm proud that I'm NBSB, hmp!," sabay flip niya ng hair, yes people, that's Katie. Mayabang siya when it comes to grades and hindi na kami po-protesta because it's true naman.
Napasinghap naman si Zara, "Ano? Proud ka na 'no boobs since birth' ka Katie?!" and we burst out laughing, ang kulit lang!
"Hey hey Zara baka nakakalimutan mo NBSB ka din, kung ano ang kinalaki ng kay Chloe, its also the opposite of you HAHAHA!", sabi ko naman and the rest of us except Zara laughed.
Napatayo si Zara and began to defend herself na naman, "Hoy! People sa earth! Meron ako, meron!", tapos hinawakan niya pa iyong chest niya, kaya mas lalo kaming napa burst sa kakatawa and tinapunan siya ni Chloe ng unan.
Tumawa lang kami and when we start to ran out of laugh ay tumahimik na when Chloe starts to talk, "Basta Julie, don't confess to Ryan muna that you like him if di mo pa na-confirm that you're still over France. Because that way, baka may masasaktan and it's better to be sure," and I just nodded.
Natapos na ang chika time namin and we start to prepare ourselves for the party, kanya kanya kaming ayos and makeup but we would help each other din. Kailangan maganda and fabulous kami sa party!
[Katie's gown is on the first pic while Zara's on the second while Chloe's is the black one]