It was a miracle na nakatulog pa ako nang mahimbing kanina after what happened last night about the phone call.
Tinignan ko ang oras na nasa table katabi ng bed ko and I checked that it is already 9:32 in the morning, and I haven't decide yet if pupunta ba ako sa San Roque or nah, kasi ano naman sasabihin ko? It will be too awkward for me and him!
"Ako... When will you miss me?"
Jusmiyo! How am I supposed to open a topic without relating to what he said last night?
Diba! It will be too awkward! And I can't handle this too much feelings! I had boys, as in crushes boys, in the past and all of them fail! I'm not an expertise when it comes to crushes or puppy love! I suck at that! I act like a bratinella, OA, maldita, or any undesirable attitude when I am too drowned by my feelings and don't know what to do! Then the boys would not come near me again after that.
Which is why I'm such a loser when it comes to feelings and I don't want to show that side of mine to Nyte!
But, I fright that if hindi ako pupunta ngayon, we will ignore each other the other days until matapos nalang ang summer! And I don't want that neither!
"Claw, honey," bigla akong napabangon sa tawag ni Mama and I saw her standing near the door and nakaangat ang right hand niya papunta sa door that looks like kakatok sana siya and then she put it down realizing na gising pa pala ako.
"Oh honey, good morning! Anyway, pack some things because we're going to visit Sibonga, your other relatives will be there dahil may fiesta na magaganap, and since we're here in Cebu, might as well visit them there, nagtatampo na iyong lola mo," and mom chuckled as she retreat herself palayo sa kwarto ko.
So I guess di ko makikita si Nyte for the mean time huh?
Gaya ng sabi ni Mama na magpa-pack ng things ay yun ang ginawa ko. While my mind is battling if ipapaalam ko ba ito kay Nyte or hindi. I mean baka lang naman magtaka siya na wala ako doon.
I gathered all of my strength and kinuha ang phone ko then searched his name, and starts to type, "Hey! I am going to Sibonga for maybe, two or three days, so I won't be there. Just saying hehe, okay bye!" and without hesitating I press send.
I quickly turned off my phone, I feel like this is a bad idea and I also feel like it's not! Ah basta! Ewan! We're friends aren't we? Why am I so jumpy? Oh heart, bullshit ka!
Now, I watch the view from the side of the car, which is I'm on, we're driving for an hour now. I'm half excited beacause finally I can visit a province! A province! With no polluted air and with more trees and grass, and I'm also half sad, well, of course I will not see him for a day or two, or even more than two.
Speaking of, I remembered my text! Dali dali kong hinanap ang phone ko sa loob ng bag ko na nasa lap ko, I found it within a few seconds. Dali ko itong in-on, because I turned it off kanina.
My heart is beating faster that I can feel myself na parang bumigat ang chest part ng katawan ko, I mean, mamimiss kaya niya ako? Will the text's content be about missing me? Or he will take back what he said yesterday?
I felt my forehead are sweating cold. Unti-unting bumuhay ang cellphone ko. I stare at it for a minute or two and wala pa rin puma-pop up na message or reply na galing sa kanya.
"This will be fun!"
Napatingin naman ako kay Mama na excited habang nakatingin samin and napunta din ang attention niya kay papa, "I'm sure mommy would be delighted to see us, especially you hon! You have been a pain in the ass as a kid but still you're a momma's boy," and she chuckled.
Papa only groans, "Surely, they misses the kids more. I have to work, damn that Sanchez, I don't trust him enough for our company, he will only jepeordize it," and that made mama laugh so hard.
"Ang ingay papa, mama! I'm watching here," Zara interrupted na nag-meet na ang mga kilay habang hawak-hawak ang cellphone which made Mama and Papa laugh even more.
Napatingin nalang ako sa labas ng bintana, leaning the tip of my nose and napahigpit nalang ang hawak ko sa cellphone ko, and I feel sting in my chest and parang nawalan na ako ng gana para mag-explore sa probinsya. I mean I just want to rest and sleep but at the same time I don't. I just don't have the mood to entertain people. I want to think.
Napaformal ako nang upo when I already saw the ancient houses, more like mga bahay kubo and it's owners na nakatingin sa sasakyan namin. Lahat ng nadadaan namin na mga tao ay palaging tumitingin sa sasakyan namin. Wow, do vehicles alien to them? Or meron but hindi kagaya ng samin?
I hope there isn't. I want fresh air and new environment without a trace of similarities of the city life.
Mama and papa open the window of our car and bumati sa mga tao, they went near to our car immediately with smiles all over their faces. I didn't know na kilala pala sila mama and papa dito, even though my parents ay di halata na fond sila sa ganitong lugar, probinsya. Well, they're pretty workaholic.
"I brought my kids with me. Sigurado akong hindi niyo pa sila nakikilala," rinig ko nalang na sabi ni Papa sa kanila and I saw them divert their attention sa backseat window.
And to be polite, I opened immediately the window and ngumiti sa kanila na nginitian din ako pabalik, "Hello po sa inyo, magandang umaga po," and nag-bow ako ng konti dali nasa loob pa rin ako ng sasakyan.
Bumati rin si Zara ngunit di rin ito nagtagal and dinivert ulit ang attention niya sa kanyang cellphone.
"Pasensya na, kailangan na namin na humimok," pagpaalam ni Mama sa mga tao na taga-rito. They seem to enjoy coping up with mama and papa na natagalan talaga.
Ngumiti lang sila na parang sinabi nila na okay lang, "O'sya sige at bumyahe na kayo. Kayo ay mag-iingat ah?" sabi ng isang matandang babae na siguro nasa late 40's or early 50's, kumakaway naman ang nasa likod ng matandang babae sa amin.
"'Nga pala, Don Ronaldo! Kayo ba ay makikisaya sa piyesta mamayang gabi?" tanong nila na umaasa talaga na pupunta kami.
Humalakhak naman si Papa, "Oo naman Aling Theresita, di namin iyan papalampasin habang nandito kami ay susulitin na namin ang pagbisita po," kaya natuwa naman sila.
Few minutes ay inandar na ni Papa ang sasakyan.
I never expected na ganito pala sila kamahal ng mga taga-rito. Though I may not know the story, I'm guessing na dito lumaki si Papa kaya ganito sila mag-welcome samin. I have always known that Papa's side of the family are ancient-like, filipino-ish like. Mama is kinda modern, slight.
Papa's papa has a blood of Korean and Chinese sa side ng lolo ko, na papa ni papa, and is sent here so my lolo married a Spanish woman, which is my lola. While my mama's side of the family are pure Spanish, well I think they also has a slice of Filipino blood in them. Though mama and papa are filipino citizens, obviously.
Napansin ko na nasa kapatagan na kami and I saw someone na inaararo ang kalabaw sa isang maputik na area. I don't really know kung bakit niya iyon ginagawa but wow, I mean, he looks like four years older than me, or maybe it's just his presence that looks mature but he got these biceps and well-built body, hindi masyadong malaki but perfect for guys near my age. I admit na gwapo siya, he's one heck of a handsome boy, to think I don't really like tanned-skin guys. He's tan but not so maitim, okay lang, sakto lang.