"Don't answer me with a question Baekhyun."
"I-It's already in the past Chanyeol-ah. I think you said you're craving for some chicken-" I quickly snatched a wing and put it in his mouth. My thoughts said I should escape to avoid embarrassment yet as I stood up trying to get away his long arms caught my waist pulling me on his lap. Heat quickly crept up my face after I felt his breath on my ear and his lips were tracing down to the corner of my trembling lips.
"I am going to repeat because I remembered asking you that question after I came home from Japan last year yet you avoided it and the year passed without knowing why you're wasted. Did you miss me that bad?" He drank the beer dry and threw it without a care if it would land on the expensive-looking carpet. His arms stayed on my waist as I tried succeeding to not tremble but failed. His lips were a tease lingering on my cheeks.
"Baekhyun-ah..." He buried his nose on my neck and my body shivered as a response.
"I-I missed you so bad that time. I was so angry and frustrated because you didn't even dare to say goodbye before your flight and I couldn't last for long not seeing you for a few days." My breathing was ragged and I feel embarrassed. Why did he need to bring up something ridiculous in our 'us' time.
"I did punish you that time from what Jongdae said you did without knowing the reason why. I'm sorry..." Chanyeol whispered. My body relaxed at his apology and I shifted my face to glance at him.
"It's okay, it's not like it's your fault. I'm just a pathetic person." I said and went silent. Yeah it's true. I feel pathetic everytime I am alone. I feel insecure to those people Chanyeol works with. Why can't I work with him? I mean just the of us in one piece. I also wanted people to see our chemistry together so that fans would have something to play at or to remember every time they see our names together. Chanyeol & Baekhyun.
Yet I couldn't even have that because our management thinks being in one group and performing as one can do.
The windows were open and the visibility of the night sky from our place was very aesthetic. Hands on my waist caught my attention. Chanyeol was trying to open my robe. I hesitantly tried to stop him at least but with his larger hands he caught my wrists and proceeded untying the ribbon.
"You're thinking something stressful and annoying that made you feel pathetic. What is it?" He said while sneaking his free hand inside my robe, I flinched trying to come up with a reason as I was getting distracted with his thief-like hand.
"I just- wanted to eat a wing- Chanyeol-ah! S-Stop..." He pinched my nipple harder and a moan succeeded escaping my lips.
"How disappointing... Our fans thought you're always brutally honest with your words." Series of moans audibly echoed through the room after he slowly twirled my nipple then pinch, twirl and pinch. I felt my underwear inside my robe was getting tighter but what's worse was that I couldn't cover my mouth from embarrassing moans that were emitting from my mouth. Chanyeol's grip was too strong to break.
"Ah- stop...Oh God, Chanyeol I d-don't want to dirty m-my brief! Ah-"
"I told you how I hate it when you're not telling the truth." He whispered and licked my lips only putting my mind in a worst state.
"F-Fine! Chanyeol!" I moaned while my body was writhing in great pleasure and pain from coming handsfree, my energy was sucked in instant as Chanyeol kept me on place retrieving his hand and freeing my abused wrists.
"I always tell you to be honest with what you're feeling."
I groaned and cringed. Even if I moved just for an inch I could feel the stickiness of my own essence inside my brief. I badly wanted to kill myself for telling him such a stupid word.
"B-But I think I should have my own privacy with my own thoughts."
As I said that, he did not retort. However, he put me down the carpet between his legs and he soon after sat on the carpet too behind me, caging me in his long legs and strong arms. It's a slightly uncomfortable with his crotch bulging on my lower back and his bare top, flexing behind me.
He's not saying something until he reached for another 2 cans of beer as he opened those and gave me the other one. I put mine back on the table though.
"Maybe I'm being a worse boyfriend that's why you're not opening up to me these past few days." He drank his beer and effortlessly reached a chicken, taking a bite on it. My heart felt heavy as guilt was trying to comfort me.
"It's not like that I'm not-"
He didn't let me finish and he drank his whole can without a pause as he snatched my own beer and took a sip on it. He rested his face on my shoulder with his free hand silently snaking back on my waist, pulling me closer to him. I blushed.
"Maybe you're getting tired of me."
My heart dropped at what I heard and quickly snatched the can from him when he tried taking another sip. I know he's not completely drunk because when he does he tends to just fall asleep wherever he was. I think the alcohol was only making him say these things.
"Chanyeol..." I turned around to give myself a full view of his stressed out face. His eyes drifted down and his lips nibbling each other with his nose scrunching up every after a few seconds or so. It would be a good chance for me to stare at his hot mess look but it's only the time he's getting insecure and unconfident about our relationship. I shouldn't have agreed drinking and suggested us to just eat outside.
"Baekhyun, my Byun Baekhyun that our fans are fantasizing every day is my boyfriend yet it seems like he doesn't need me anymore." My eyebrows furrowed and quickly cupped his face and he only pouted and stared back at me with a saddened face.
"Who even told you those things? You know how we always agree to the things we do. That's why you became my boyfriend because I agreed to whatever happens and however you treat me as long as it's you, it'll never be a problem. Please stop thinking things like that." I pleaded and swallowed when he smirked and his arms caged me.
"Says the one who thought himself pathetic."
"I just said that because I feel sad about how you can work with other people yet we couldn't have our own masterpiece. I always feel envy and jealous at them. We can't go public but we also can't release our own work with both our names on it." I dropped my hands from his face but only to be held tight by his.
"You're thinking too wrong and different Baekhyun." He stated. I only stared back at our tangled fingers and became comfortable with how our breaths were audible this close.
"They should be the ones who envy you."
"and why so...?" My voice trailed off without averting my eyes from our fingers. It's a moment where I could cherish to see our hands tangled without worrying if someone would see us.
"Because you're my religion and I'm fucking devoted to you."
He caught my lips in a second. The kiss stayed soft and in a slow manner. No tongues or biting. Lust could barely be found in it. Just our lips and a little nibbling before we broke apart and finally engulfed me into a tight hug.
"I know this would make you mad but I need to meet another producer in Japan tomorrow." Good thing he said that I'm his religion or else I would've walked out from this hotel with only my robes on.
"That soon?" I pulled away and felt devastated. He could've told me sooner so I can prepare myself. I tried to calm myself and breathe slowly.
"Yep. This time it's only a day or two."
Still...
"But you'll call me right?" I asked.
"Of course and you'll get a reward if you get through those days while I was away." The smirked plastered on his face was a little bit anticipating and thrilling. It gives me excitrement after I heard the word 'reward' and when he said reward it only means...
Satisfaction.
"I-I think I can do it as long as you're going to call me when you're free."
"Don't you have a phone? Why can't you just call me?" He laughed and I blushed.
"I might only end up disturbing you..." I pouted and he ruffled my hair.
"Then I'll be the one to call you. Don't you have a meeting with the Prive executives tomorrow?" He stood up and I wondered where he was going. He opened the door towards the veranda and I quickly stood up to follow him outside. He warily looked at me and slowly, took a pack of cigarette. I frowned and stood timidly in front of him as cold air gushed on my face.
"I do have a meeting. But can I at least go with you to the airport tomorrow?" I silently glared at the cigarette that he was holding between his fingers and the lighter he supposed to use to light it up.
"If that's what my baby want."
He lit up the cigarette and inhaled once before he puffed out of smoke. His eyebrows furrowed and I saw his left eye twitched and groaned.
"You're making me guilty doing this in front of you." He confessed and I swallowed a lump. I was about to walk back inside when he took my hand and pulled me against his chest.
"Let me just finish this one stick and we'll go back inside. I don't you feeling bad before we sleep. I know how your mind works Baekhyun-ah."
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It's our manager who fetched us in front of the hotel around 5 am he said to avoid us from getting seen by our fans.
It was dreading to know that once we arrived in the airport I couldn't see him for two days and with that span of days without him, I know I'll be out of my mind again that I even need to stare at his picture on my phone until I fall asleep.
"You can sleep first. I'll wake you up when we arrived." Chanyeol whispered beside me and patted his lap.
"I was planning to stare at you till we arrived." I frowned and he smirked and I saw him glanced at manager-nim who looked busy on the road. Then he pointed his lips. I gladly pecked his lips and lied myself on his lap. From my view I could see his jaw, his throat going up and down when he swallows and his sharp nose that makes him looked attractive.
Sum it up with his bomber jacket and tattered pants, I feel sad for sharing him to the world.
"Sleep you naughty boy." He was grinning as he covered my eyes and felt him petting my head.
I wish I could sleep for two days so that when I woke up he's still there.
A/N: Short Update. Just to finish the whole idea of Chanyeol telling Baekhyun he's going to Japan. The next chapter will be about Baekhyun then Chanyeol then Baekhyun. IF you could just LEAVE some comments I could have make updates very fast because I literally dying from mental block, no energy, lack of sleep, mixed ideas, and felt unobligated because I feel that no one cares anymore for my update.
See you on my next update if I have some powers left.