Chapter 4 - ☆3

Ma'am X remembered Sir G. He was an interesting individual. He took her fancy at the age of seventeen. Her heart hurt with jealously, and that was when she realizes that she started to develop feelings for him. Being a wallflower, it was a little difficult summoning courage to express herself. She was inexperienced in the art of love, and or firsthand how to have a relationship. She had to bow and find a living hands on textbook to see where his heart lies. It hurt her, but her first choice was a secular experienced man. When Sir G. saw her in that man's company, it was like a wake up call for him. That relationship was short lived, but as the reader knows, her guardians Sir T and Ma'am C took liberties and ended her relationship. They took it upon themselves to ensure that she would not have his offspring. It was a good choice, because she didn't have to settle down with the wrong man, but a bad decision, for it took the power of her making that choice of her free will. She felt shame knowing that they suspected her of being pregnant and forced her to take a pregnancy test. No matter what she said or did, their trust in her was severely damaged. A black aura followed her for multiple months never leaving her side. She was plagued with constant nightmares and the constant echo of "you'll never measure up and be just right". She fought her demons silently. Six months later she entered a relationship with Sir H. He was a jolly secular man. She did not have affections for him or her previous boyfriend. Ma'am X learned to become stronger and was successfully able to properly breakup with him with no assistance. She felt more confidence after the end of her second ended relationship. She then focused on her life goals for a time. She had her strengths and her weaknesses. She may have failed her classes for two semesters, but in the third, she strode confidently gaining attention from her instuctors.