Charles left and how do I feel about that? not pleasant and it was scary! Here I am still lying on his bed thinking about how he stared at me with those predator's eyes, those eyes that will eat me and certainly, he amost ate me!
"Why would he do that?" I asked to myself.
did he fall for me? what did he see on me?
I try to calm myself as big girls don't cry, it's just a kiss! huh~ just a kiss!? as I touch my lips and wondering if I do have some... nope! I don't feel anything! it's just his lust. But... that was my first kiss as I'm feeling complicated with this mixture...
I tried to stand but my legs are almost out of energy, we haven't started yet and I am this weak. Hahah! Me, myself, don't joke with that, if I did "that" if we really did "that!" thinking about obscene makes my face explode. Ah! I wanna slam my head agains't the wall. Why the hell am I thinking doing something like "that" with Charles.
Stand! Risa! Stand! as I convince myself to get ahold of myself.
when I open the door, there is Charles smoking. He looks at me with a guilty look and I felt sorry for him...
No! No! why would I feel sorry for him who tried to rape me! I don't have to forgive him but handsome people really have some perks that one can make overlook for his wrong doing but I gotta be strong, Ah! the handsome in an english window is like a painting of a prince, damn! I am dreammy wishy-washy me then a moment I snapped out of it, My! I almost forgave him! don't let that look defeated you! Fight!
(....)
"Risa, will you marry me!? "
out of nowhere I was asked by that....