Zhi Rui sat cross-legged.
'But that blob of energy was not stable. When I held Hilda it got slightly bigger. I was anxious to eat her up then. Maybe it rewards more or less due to the intensity of the desire? I could explain why I benefited so much, I wanted to eat Hilda since the day we met after all.. to hold back until now, though amusing, it still fanned the desire. I have to test it.'
'It cannot be let loose. What if I found an enemy worth bedding and it simply creates a desire would I have to do it? What if I'm angry and desire death for my subordinates? Would I kill them, then?'
Zhi Rui pondered in a daze.
'Desires are directly connected to emotions. I can't control my desires.
But If I control my emotions, then maybe I can control its direction and intensity.'
Remembering the intense euphoria, and how it muddles her head Zhi Rui sighed frustrated. 'If I do satiate my lust, I get addicted and mindless. But If I don't, that blob of energy will corrode my insides.'
