Why am I not surprised anymore? One thing for sure, I need to find out: why do members keep disappearing? For now, I guess I will be the Bee around honey.
Jooheon of Monsta X was in my living room.
I don't even have to look at his face to know that it's him, everything about him shouted its Jooheon. His haircut and the hair colour. He turns around and smiles with his dimples. All of a sudden I see tiny hearts and flowers petals floating around him. Jooheon's smile and dimples have this hallucinating magic over me. I couldn't help but stare at his face.
He takes out his phone; stares at the screen for a second and then quickly walks towards me. All of a sudden Jooheon hugs me and I nearly lose my balance. I don't know what to do? Should I hug him back?
"What's wrong?" I hesitantly ask Jooheon. My arms hanging at the side but I slowly bring them up and hug Jooheon back. His warm hug fills me with the sense of belonging.
"Honey" Hi voice in my ears sends me to the seventh heaven. I felt like this was a dream. I was being called honey. What happened? Maybe I am being called honey because that what Bee's gather; and protect with everything. Wait! What am I thinking? I have lost it.
"Honey, you won't believe it" Jooheon's cheerful voice drags me out of wonderland of thoughts. I try to move out of his embrace but his strong grips hold me tightly.
"What is it?" I asked him excitedly but in return, I get the response I have been hearing for the last hour. Has it been an hour, maybe a day? I feel like I have been with him for years.
"I won't tell you. It's a secret." Jooheon whispers these words in my ear. His warm breath sends a tingling feeling through my whole body. I try to move but his soft lips touch my ear. Jooheon didn't move away from the shock, instead, I felt a sharp pain on my ear. Did Jooheon bite me?
My hands immediately reach me to touch my ears in defence. Jooheon lets me out of his embrace and I immediately start walking backwards until I hit the wall and stop. I stare at him in shock. Isn't he suppose to be a cute Joohoney that I see all of the time on the screen? Well, he could be sexy as hell when he was rapping on the stage. However, he was not on stage this time so where was all of this feeling coming from. Jooheon always had a charismatic side to him...
"You are super cute, Honey. I want to eat you" My ears start ringing a bell upon hearing the words he said. The bells that you are most likely to hear in a church when a wedding happens. What does he mean? Jooheon slowly starts approaching me with a smile on his face. He stopped in his tracks when he was just a few centimetres away from me. His expression was filled with puzzles like he was trying to figure something out.
I quickly use this chance to get away and walk towards my bedroom. This was not what I was expecting at all. How could he say this? And on top of that bite my ear? What is going on here? As much as I want to solve this puzzle, I feel like all of this will end up being pointless. Everything will go in vain if I get involved more then I have to. Although, I want to enjoy this moment i can't help bearing it. My heartbeat felt like it was set on a timer; and any second. it will blow up on me.
"Open the door, Honey..." Jooheon softly knocks at the door. My hand automatically reach the handle to open the door but my other hand moves to stop it. I need to make up my mind. Open the door and see the sexy version of Jooheon instead of a cute one. I don't mind the sexy version but the only problem is that I won't be able to bear it. My face is like an open door to my emotions. No matter how much I want to hide my feelings for them, but my face just shows it all.
After a long time of conflict with myself, a sudden realization hits me. I jerk the door open to find him. Every time I was away from the members, they would change. My heart skips a beat at the thought of not finding Jooheon there, I mean I have not had much time with him. He wouldn't just go away like this.
To my surprise, he was still there. Eveys closed and sat in front of the door. He looked like he was meditating. I kneel in front of him. Maybe he fell asleep, but then again, why would he sleep in this position. That definitely looks like he is meditating and trying to keep calm. Could he be angry? I wave my hand near his eyes to find out if he is awake. His eyes didn't open. Does that mean he is asleep? Looking at his face now, he looks innocent and not the sexy cute guy you would see on stage.
Maybe, I spoke too soon. Jooheon eyes open in flash and his hands reach out for arms. All of a sudden, I am pushed to the ground by a strong force. I open my eyes and find a Jooheon face. He had his winning smile with dimples. Why did this happen? I try and get up but Jooheon moves faster and grabs my arms. I was pinched to the ground by him. I can't believe it. I must be dreaming.
"Got you, Honey!" Jooheon grinned at me and all I could do was look at him angrily. At least this way, my red face won't be because of being embarrassed but will look more like red because I am angry. I don't know if this will work but its worth the shot.
"Stop being so grumpy, Honey" Grumpy? Does this mean Jooheon fell for it? Yes! I knew it, watching all those dramas and acting out the scene will help me someday. But last time I acted in front of my mum, she said that I was the worst actor ever. Does that mean my acting has improved? Either way, I know I am a genius.
Jooheon suddenly pinches my nose and I look at him confused. He was smiling like it was his win. Did he fall for my angry face?
"What are you cooking in that head of yours?"
"What do you mean?" I turn my head away to avoid any eye contact.
"Gosh, you are such a devil." My eyes automatically divert back to look at him. He was looking at me amusingly. Slowly, Jooheon started to lean forward. He was getting closer and closer, but my heart was running faster and faster.
All of a sudden, the doorbell rings and Jooheon leans back. What a bad timing? Wait. Why am I thinking that it was a bad timing? I shouldn't be losing myself. Get a hold of yourself. Pull yourself together. Love is an endless pit that I cannot afford to fall in again.
Jooheon looked annoyed as he got up. I lay still on the ground, looking at the ceiling. What was happening here? I never expected this. Why is it that every time I am about to kiss a member, something will happen and I won't get to kiss? Karma must be getting back at me.
My lips must not be destined to touch someone else. The misery of my lips, maybe I should live my life properly now. Get wild, enjoy it! I used to be like that but that incident has made me believe that love is just a toy. Play with it and then toss it away when you are bored with it. A teardrop travels on my cheeks to my ears. Why did I cry? I must be stupid!
Jooheon was taking a long time to get back. I force myself to get up and walk out of the bedroom. I nearly scream in shock at the sight of him. It wasn't Jooheon that was standing there this time.
This time and like any other time, a new member was here. I look at him and smile.
"Welcome." I gesture my arms towards the sofa. He looks a bit surprised but soon starts to smile as he understood the joke.
What else am I suppose to do when a new member appears? I guess I will just have to welcome them some way.