Am walking down this relatively empty street oblivious to my surroundings. What I just saw whirling round my head. I think I should try doing something but what precisely? Am not certain. Where am I? I don't even know that at this point. I am moving my body step by step walking in the opposite direction away from him, away from everything.
I guess it's my fault he did this since that was what he said but again how exactly is it my fault? I don't even remember. What where his words again.... oh yes "You are a woman without emotions and spirit". "You're like a walking dead." " I almost assumed I had Necrophilia for every time we had sex".
I can't remember the last time I was ecstatic or felt loved while in his company. Can I even remember the last time we spent 30 minutes alone with each other? I think it's been 6 months or is it 8 months? I am not even sure about that. What is it that I am sure about right now? How did I get to this point?
Who is screaming? Why the noise, can't I even rummage through my thoughts in peace or am I also not even allowed to wallow in my wretchedness and sorrow? I turn around trying to take note of what is going on and the reason for the screams. It's too late.
I walked off the platform at the subway station into a rail track and the next train is here. Worst of it all, a little girl is clinging to me, looking like she wants to drag me back but how is that conceivable?
I am obviously heavier than she is looking to be about 4 years old holding on to my dress with panic filled eyes as she was saying something, which I later recognized to be "Aunty, mum said it's dangerous to cross the yellow line."
I already lost my balance so reflexively, I removed her hands from my dress and pushed her back to the platform, then closed my eyes.
How did I get from Al's home, no our home.... or it's no longer my home anymore right?
That aside how did I get from there to the subway station, through the security check points to the platform without being aware? The human mind sure is powerful.
I hope the little girl is okay. Even if I wasn't able to accomplish anything good in this life, at the least I do not wish to have blood on my hands while dying.
My name is Leilani, now a 28-year-old Ajumma according to my K-dramas. I have spent 5 years in this city for which I dated Al for 4 years. You might assume it's an approximation, but it's not. What I mean, is that today 17th July is exactly the date we started dating 4 years ago. He was the most handsome man I had every met, and I fell in love with him the first time I laid my eyes on him.
We met at a conference I attended and he was a speaker introducing a form of renewable energy from common weeds and grasses. I collected his business card after the conference and luckily his office was 1 block away from mine. After meeting up for lunch twice he asked me out, and I agreed after which he became the exclusive focus of my existence.
I am an orphan who had to depend on myself from the age of 7. Hence I was ecstatic to have someone care for me like I was the only one that mattered in the entire world. We dated happily until after 2 years. He got promoted to Director of Strategy of his company then his behaviour towards me changed.
When I protested, he bought me a diamond engagement ring and claimed he was preparing everything for us to have a comfortable life. I quit my Job and moved in with him to aid him, taking care of his mother who was physically challenged. Gradually I because a housekeeper, nurse, laundry maid and cook for him and his mother forgetting my dreams, offering him my heart and body until he betrayed me. Oh!.... I should include my life as well am dead now aren't I?
"What's this noise again, can't I even die in peace?" I can hear weird sounds like am in a forest, what is it again? I feel aches all over but not as much as am expecting for someone who has been crushed by a train.
I struggle to turn my right arm and it moves, I try to move my right leg up and it moves, what is going on? I am experiencing a splitting headache but that's not the issue now right? I open my eyes and try to sit up, looking around to inspect my surroundings.
Like I thought am in a forest and it's night. How did I get here? What happened? I glance down when I detect something pushing against me. My eyes widened, I find it difficult to believe what I see. An enormous cat or is it a tiger is lying down beside me nudging my right arm. I do what I presume anyone who finds themselves in my present situation would do.... I SCREAM!!!!!!!!!!!!
The huge cat stands on all fours while staring at me with a definite emotion in his eyes. I pause, I know something is wrong but am I so delusional to detect a glimpse of "feeling wronged by the master" in the cat's..... no, tiger's eyes? It doesn't look like it wants hurt me instead it moves closer and places its head on my lap like it wants me to stroke it.
What happened? I glance at myself and discover am wearing strange outfits that resemble a layered historical attire and I start to think of what this could all mean. Shouldn't I be dead, or is this place the afterlife? Did I reincarnate?
After a while I struggle to stretch my legs and stand up to inspect my surroundings and at the least try to move to a safer place but my legs have gone numb from being tucked under me for a long time. Adding the tiger's weight on my lap, I fall back down and this time, hit my head on a protruding root.
Holding my head in my arms I try to hoist myself up and images start to fill in my head with memories of this body. Turns out I now inhabit another body. I am in a continent that didn't exist in my past life and guess what?.... Am being chased by assassins..... Between the Devil and the Deep Blue Sea.....