Imschadenfreude

She never feels the moment her heart turns toxic, festering with regret, like a wilting purple hyacinth-aching under the weight of its sorrow.
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What will you do when your past comes and knocks at your door?
What will she do?
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There’s a saying that if you hate something, that hate will come back to you, and if you love something, that love will come back to you. Tian Chan Juan had always dismissed this idea as a mere superstition, until her own experiences seemed to confirm its truth, albeit partially. Born into a life of privilege, she had thrived on the attention and company of others, shunning solitude. She had once believed her life was akin to a fairytale, where she was the beloved princess living a carefree existence. However, the harsh realities of life soon thwart this illusion, leaving her feeling abandoned and utterly alone.
In the depths of her despair, Chan Juan resigned herself to her newfound isolated existence, cutting herself off from everyone and everything as a form of self-imposed punishment. But was this isolation truly her punishment, or were there still more trials to come? Just when it seemed like there was no way out, salvation arrived in the form of another person. This individual became Chan Juan's second chance at truly living and feeling alive, doesn’t whether she deserved it or not. However, as events unfolded, it became apparent that this second chance was not what she had hoped for. When she realized that her past mistakes continued to haunt her, she was forced to reckon with the consequences of her actions. In the aftermath, she was utterly devastated, stripped of everything she held dear, enveloped in a pervasive solitude born from the wreckage of intense suffering. Yet, with time, she found a way to reconcile with her new reality, feeling that it was a just consequence for the pain and sorrow she had inflicted upon the innocent souls who cherished her. In an act of self-forgiveness, she embraced each pang of agony without shedding a single tear.
As she grappled with this self-condemnation, the universe couldn't help but wonder what the future held for her. Would she find a way to break free from the cycle of her mistakes, or would she be forever caught in their relentless grip?

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Table of Silent Penitence Beneath the Hyacinth

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Volume 1