Xyan_Lee

I wanted to cry but, no tears would form. Frustation, insecurity, anxiety, fear, confusion, and anger. Those bottled up feelings were lingering my chest as I struggle to keep my breathing. My emotions keep swirling like a brewing storm as snippets of memory surges. 

They say after crying, one would feel lighter.
How I wish I could force myself to cry to vent all this. I am so sad. I am also mad. I am sadmad.

I reached for my phone and checked the time. It's past 2 in the morning. My breathing is slowly becoming more even. Regaining some my strength, I stood up from the bed and head outside the room. I was so light headed that I didn't notice that my feet lead me to the rooftop. 

The urban skyline is brimming with lights. Even though it was beautiful, I was more attracted to the night sky. It so quiet and serene. Staring at the vast sky, stars were twinkling as if conversing some morse code. I sigh at deep though.

"I wish. I wish I can cry." I wishpered so soflty that even the God's may not hear it. 

'Be careful what you wish for'
I heard someone murmured but I could not catch the words.

I seached for another person but found none. 
Suddenly, gust of cold wind blew so quickly that my last saved up strenght was taken away. I reached for the sky when my consciousness is slowly fading away.

Table of Never Yours

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Volume 1