Everything You Wish For
Is it too much to ask for something magical, something extraordinary, something out of this world? Being raised in a conservative family regarding relationships, and in a society where fear is prevalent everywhere, I went from a kid who used to dream about doing everything alone, traveling, going on hikes and adventures, starting business ventures, to a young adult who wishes, even prays desperately for a prince, her soulmate who could make her feel secure, who could fulfill her fantasies, as she realized how impossible they have become. Sometimes I wonder maybe I am creating these invisible boundaries for myself, and I just need to break them, while other times it’s the society and my family. And I cannot break those barriers without consequences. There is so much I want and I don’t know how to get it. There's so much I want to experience, and I keep stopping myself from the ridiculous reasoning such as it's raining, to a few realistic ones like I don’t have money or I have to save money. Honestly, I don’t know what to say. I want something, and I don’t know how or what it is.............................