Beyond All I Want
**MOSCOW**
Raelynn glared at her father, she never imagined he would sell her one day. Even though they've never been that close, she still was his daughter for crying out loud!
The old man starred at the floor, avoiding looking at Raelynn and somehow, she felt better if he avoided the glare.
It was just yesterday she found out about her marriage with a total stranger whom her father barely knows. That news was like a tim bomb, Raelynn's father had come back that afternoon, declaring the marriage and all she could do was stare, mouth wide open at the man.
"You're getting married tomorrow" She could vividly remember those words as they echoed in her mind.
"What! Dad, I'm only 19 and not just that, it's fuckin' tomorrow, how on earth is that possible?"
She knew her dad to be mean and cold but how the hell was that not a joke?
"Believe what you want, I'm giving you an hour to pack your things, we're leaving for Russia"
Oops, that was Rodrigo for you, Raelynn couldn't believe her ears but she had to, hence it was her dad. She watched the man set things on his briefcase and it dawned on her her was never joking.
She staggered backwards, as tears streamed down her cheeks, frightened at what might become of her. Raelynn was about running off when her dad pulled her to a halt.
"Raelynn! Don't act any stupid, your groom is a Mafia and trust me, even I wouldn't hesitate... You know what I mean?" He corked an imaginary gun, pointed it at her forehead and 'boom!' He shot.
She wanted to say mean things to this man but that should wait, she needed to see Barry, her lover.
Raelynn quickly grabbed her phone, running out of the house.
Within few minutes, Raelynn was with Barry at their favorite spot. She dug herself into his arms, he could feel the tension in her body.
"Are you Okay?" Barry asked but all Raelynn could do was shake her head.
"I'm not, I'm not okay, I'm getting married tomorrow, I'm leaving for Russia, I'm...." Her words were shut by his kiss, she let his lips take over hers.
And for some moments, she felt safe, but no!
"Tell me it's a joke" Barry pulled from the kiss, "Wake me up from this dream my love, it's already a nightmare"
"No" Tears rolled down her cheeks. She held his palm,
"It's no dream, Rodrigo has made his choice".
"You don't have to live your life for your father! Let's elope, go far away, to a different country, you told me you would love to live at Japan. Let's go there". He sought through her eyes but she barely kept eye contact.
"Don't you get it? It's my damn father! He'll kill me, he'll make me suffer dearly. And I'm marrying a Mafia, my life has already been hell since my mom died, I can't risk yours too. Rodrigo will never think twice in killing you"
She pulled him to a tight hug.
" Just promise me you won't hurt yourself " She whispered amidst the hug, pecked him softly and pulled away.
She staggered backwards, "I love you" She looked deep in his eyes but all she could feel was a sharp pain.
Turning, Raelynn ran as fast as her legs could carry, she never looked back as she cried her eyes out.
And today, she starred at Rodrigo from the alter. Another glance, she scoffed.
She wished her mom was alive but...
Can't this priest see the indifference?
She prayed that the floor open and swallow her. As if her prayer was granted, when the ring was brought forward, she lost consciousness.
