Keikusanichi
I was once a little girl, with lots of friends and a functioning relationship with the people surrounding me. I don’t know what changed in me, what influenced me, what killed that part of me that made me one of the darkest person with a beam of pretending light right now. I tried navigating that side of me again, however, my perspective just completely changed. I am starting to realize that the world is yes, of beauty, it is just the people who are always shading it black. On the past, I questioned what drives them to commit to the dark side, to make their humanity disappear in a split second just to gain power. I was naive back then. I tell myself that when I face a gigantic wall, it’ll pass and the world is just, rather, not fair. That was literally dumb of me, what a shitty thing to say. I even blamed the world when it was just filled with greedy pathetic humans. But now, a demon visits me every night as I change my view, as I awakened this side of me that conveys only vengeance and hatred towards every people who are corrupted, wicked, and just plain evil. The funny thing is, it tells me things that I am not able to digest yet. And one day, it made me do things that made my addiction stir up and my eyes be of, just, unable to absorb any emotions. Victim by victim, my remorse went down and my smile altered. I was dominated by my inner selfishness, in the end I didn’t kill just for the sake of justice, I killed to fulfill my unsatisfied pleasure. Others praised me, while others wanted to hunt me down. Now, I am a fugitive in the eyes of the law and a threat to evil doers; but a hero in the eyes of the victimized people. The demon stayed inside me, ravaging my mind. I am becoming a slave to its desire. It got me thinking, was this really the solution to everything?