The distance back to my home. It took quite a while.
On the way back, I secretly cursed about Kim Jihoon several times in my mind.
I understand why he didn't want me to borrow that much money.
But I want him to trust me.
The feeling I feel can be called 'disappointed' right?
Never mind... What I have to focus on the most is
It's 'how to make money'.
Right now, Kim Jihoon doesn't lend me money.
He just said 'If you want that much money, we're done.'
I don't want to lose our friendship because it's my only relationship I'd had as Han Seoyeon.
If I dare to borrow from him again soon,
Our relationship will really end.
If you ask why I didn't borrow from someone else,
Actually... In the novel, Han Seoyeon herself didn't have any friends since she was a child.
Her first friend was Kim Jihoon.
And all of her friend list until now are only 'Kim Jihoon'.
There are no other people.
The reason is because she was born in the slums.
There weren't that many children in the slums where she was.
It used to be a prosperous area.
But later it was ordered to be closed down because there was an epidemic.
After the epidemic end, people who used to live here were afraid and didn't dare to come back.
That area became a place with dozens of abandoned houses.
Thanks to the plague, it was the reason why Han Seoyeon had a place to live.
Oh... If you ask about Han Seoyeon's parents,
I don't know either.
It wasn't mentioned in the novel.
"Ah... My feet hurt."
I looked at my feet, which were now swollen and red.
My house was really far away. I walked until my feet were red.
It seems I need to use medicine again.
Because the medicine I'm taking can reduce the pain.
But exerting force or doing activities made the medicine's effect wear off quickly.
At first, I thought the medicine would last another day and a half.
But now the burning pain started to come back.
'...Do I need to use medicine again?'
I ponder to myself
Ah... I don't want to feel any pain.
Plus, the medicine makes me happy, so...
If I use it once, it won't be a problem, right?
But... The amount of money I have,
If I use it, my money will run out quickly.
Although I still had some of medicine inside the drawer, but it's expensive.
If I actually use it once...
Then where will I get money to buy food?
But I really don't want to feel pain.
If I have to choose between happiness and pain,
No human would choose pain, right?
So, I made up my mind.
As for food, I'll leave it to my future self.
I'd rather be happy and not feel pain.
Soon I arrived at my house.
It was an abandoned house the building was made of cement.
There was a square hole in the middle of the wall, but there were no windows.
There was an entrance, but no door.
This was where I lived.
I walked inside and hummed happily.
It was because I could use the medicine I wanted.
I wanted to feel happy.
I didn't want to feel pain.
I just want to be happy.
Kim Jihoon, why doesn't he understand me?
I just want to live a normal life and be happy.
Because of my illness, I have to rely on medicine like this.
He knows that I'm sick like this, but he still doesn't help me.
He's really stingy and heartless.
I slide the drawer of the dressing table that I use to look at my face every day.
Inside the drawer is a small black box.
I take out the box and open it.
Inside is a small glass bottle filled with a clear blue liquid.
When I see my medicine,
My brain is shaking with happiness.
I hum a song with happiness while unwrapping the bandages.
Crack~
However, before I can unwrap all the bandages,
I hear the sound of glass being stepped on from behind.
I quickly turn around.
I smile as soon as I see who the owner of that voice is.
"Hello, doctor."
In front of me is the doctor who is currently taking care of my treatment.
He is the only doctor who told me that he would treat me while the other doctors refused to treat me.
Because I have no money
Because I come from the slums
Because I'm dirty
Because I'm disgusting
This doctor was the first and only one who extended his hand to Han Seoyeon
So, I trusted him just like Han Seoyeon trusted him
"Hello, long time no see."
"Are you here to check on me today?"
I asked the doctor.
I didn't know his name. Only the fact that I trusted him.
I didn't care about that at all.
The doctor stroked his beard-covered chin.
"Yes, and today I brought you a new medicine to try, a newly developed special medicine."
"Oh! Really?"
"Yes, this medicine will make you feel much better than the one you're currently using. In addition, it will stimulate your senses, but all the pain will go away. It will also make your mind clear."
"Ah... I want..."
"You want to try it? But it's expensive."
"Um... no, I don't."
I refused.
I really wanted to try the new medicine the doctor talked about. But right now, I have no money.
If I had money, I would have bought it right now.
"Huh? You never refuse."
"Uh... I have no money right now."
I laughed dryly.
Talking about my financial situation right now, having no money, it's so embarrassing.
Although I still have the million won that Kim Jihoon gave me.
My mind is divided between spending it and saving it.
The doctor raised his eyebrows with interest.
"The money your friend gave me is all gone? What's your name? Ah... Kim Jihoon."
"Ah... yes... Kim Jihoon, my friend sends me money every month, but I've been fighting with him lately..."
I was silent for a while.
I thought about Kim Jihoon's face.
What is he doing right now?
Will he stop being mad at me?
If I contact him, will he reply to my text?
No, he won't get over his anger that quickly.
I want to see him.
I want him to know that I'm not lying.
I'm really taking the medicine.
And the medicine is really good, unlike the old cheap medicine that costs a few thousand won.
The old medicine I took couldn't even cure my fever.
But the new medicine can cure everything.
Cough, fever, headache, everything can be cured.
Even any kind of pain, it also clears my mind.
Tch... Now that I think about it, I really want to punch him in the stomach.
Because he doesn't trust me.
"Huh~ How about this, I'll let you try the medicine for free, although I'd lose a little."
"Really?!"
I was shocked and said it out loud.
I couldn't believe that the doctor would let me try the medicine for free.
Doctor is really kind to me.
"Oh yeah."
The doctor covered his mouth with his hand.
Ah... I guess I was a bit too happy.
Because he quickly covered his mouth with his hand.
When the doctor smiled at my gesture, he always did this.
Maybe because the doctor is shy.
That's why he doesn't show his smile much.
There really are people like this.
"Okay then! I want to try the new medicine soon."
I smiled and laughed happily before walking to the doctor and humming a song.
I'm really happy right now.
The doctor took out a black box from his shirt pocket.
My eyes lit up when I looked at the box in the doctor's hand.
The doctor walked to my side before pulling down my pants a little.
"Ah..."
I let out a little shy cry.
It's because I've never let anyone see my body.
"This medicine need to inject at the hip."
"I... I understand."
I let the doctor pull down my pants a little.
I understand that there are many injection points, which will change depending on the amount of medicine or other reasons.
So I let the doctor pull down my pants to reveal my white hips.
The doctor knelt down and took out a syringe.
He opened the black box to reveal a glass bottle containing a clear pink liquid.
He carefully sucked the liquid in the glass bottle. and tested the syringe by pressing it to let a little of the liquid flow out before he inserted it into my hip.
I looked at the doctor with a pounding heart.
From the properties the doctor said,
It will make me feel very good, my mind will be clear, the burning pain I felt will go away.
Just thinking about the properties of the new medicine the doctor was injecting made me laugh.
"Done."
The doctor used a white cloth to wipe the syringe before standing up.
"Ah... But I still don't feel it..."
Before I could finish my sentence,
I felt everything slow down abnormally.
I could feel my heart beating fast.
It was like a drum playing inside my body.
My mind was strangely clear.
It was so clear that I felt like I was floating on a cloud.
In addition,
"Ah~"
I let out an embarrassing sound.
It was a sound that I didn't know I would make such a lewd sound.
But it couldn't be helped!
Every move I made
It was so tingling.
The touch of my clothes on my body
The touch of the wind blowing in, no matter how slight
The touch of my feet touching my shoes
Everything was so tingling.
It was torture!
But it felt so good!
No!
It felt too good!
"Doctor~ Ah~"
I tried to call out to the doctor, but my legs were weak.
I fell down there.
Even my legs that fell to the ground
I felt tingling.
It felt too good.
My brain was starting to tingle now.
It was like an electric shock went into my head.
It stimulated my brain to be even more excited.
I couldn't take it anymore!
This happiness was too much.
My body twisted and turned.
The gasps and lewd sounds that I didn't know I could make
They all came out
In front of the doctor
Ahh... I can't take it anymore
Please, doctor
I want to feel more
I want to feel better
I want to feel it even more
I want to tell the doctor what I'm thinking
But the happiness and the good feeling I have right now
It's so much that I can't say anything
It's like my tongue is so limp that I can't control my voice anymore
I can only look at the doctor
As if he understands what I want
I see the doctor walking towards me
Ahh~
Whatever... Let me feel even better