"What should I wear?" ~ This question has been bothering me for the past thirty minutes that I had spent going through my closet like a complete madman trying to find the perfect outfit for today. My bed now had a pile of clothes and I was sitting between the mess, my petite frame almost Invisible amidst the mountain of clothes, my hair and entire appearance resembling the mess that was my room. I probably looked like those teenage girls trying to find a dress for her first date. At least them being nervous can be justified but mine, I am like this for a party, just a party involving HIM. My curls were a little wilder than usual and I ran my hands through it in frustration, My hair is getting a little bit longer for my liking, I should get a hair cut soon. Damon baby, don't get distracted, focus on the task at hand, find a good fit you god damn idiot.
With a frustrated groan, I continued swimming in the pool of my clothes in search of the one outfit that will look good on me. ~ "Gosh, Why am I acting like this? It is just a party, I have attended many."
"But he was not there in the many you mentioned !" ~ The person inside my head talked back. One day I am going to smash my head somewhere to kill my annoying thoughts. But I can't deny the fact that he is the reason I am this close to shitting my pants. Gosh, why is this so hard! I am not a little kid anymore. Yet, I feel like my heart is about to burst out of my chest. A thin layer of sweat covered my pale skin, the damn air conditioning doing nothing to calm my nerves, My brown eyes were wide with panics while they scanned all those choices that I had over and over again. God, Why is it just me who has those weird feelings?
"Cause you are stupid enough to catch feelings."~ Once again I get the urge to smash my head against wall, but I ignored it.
I have been rambling about this certain someone and my dilemma about a stupid outfit for quiet a while now haven't I? Hope I didn't bore you to death. You might be wondering why this guy is acting like this over an outfit, if you are not, you should probably start, because I am not letting you go until I tell you how I ended up in this situation, after I find a fucking outfit for the fucking party I am going to.
After what felt like an eternity I decided to go with dark denim trousers and white button up shirt that fit me in all the right places. Yeah I don't look too bad, I stood in front of the large mirror in my room doing those poses that you see the male models do in magazine covers. But the only difference is that they look good meanwhile I look like a monkey making weird faces at the mirror. So that now I have got a decent outfit you can finally hear how I ended up in this situation. Long, long go which happens to be yesterday morning, I entered the conference hall to make a presentation that was going to make my companies reputation sky rocket and the rest was history.
Flash back :
Today has so far been a shitty day for me and fate finds more ways to make it even worse. My alarm has betrayed me after a long time, consequently I woke up pretty late and messed up my entire morning routine. I am thankful to god that I had managed to make myself look presentable after my adventurous morning. I had an important meeting in the morning and New York traffic can be a real bitch during times like this.
Somehow I managed to reach my office on time and saved a billion dollar deal for my company. I had to explain our company' new policy to our brand new partners, If they are willing to go by our plans and everything sails smoothly today then both the companies growth will sky rocket. I entered the conference hall carrying an air of confidence around myself and stood before everyone in the room. All of them greeted me with a warm smile and I tried to reciprocate the gesture while scanning all those unfamiliar faces gathered in the room. My smile fell when my eyes landed on a familiar face, a face that has haunted my dreams since the very first day I had seen it. Time seemed to have frozen as I stared into those icy blue orbs that had once landed me into many detentions because I got lost in the beauty of these blue ocean during those stupid and boring lectures. All those feelings that had abandoned me after graduation party came rushing back and once again I became a stupid teenage boy with stupid feelings obsessing over that one boy he can never have. I could feel my insides twisting as his eyes travelled from my head to toe and the corner of his lips tilted in a smile that has never failed to make my insides turn into a huge marshmallow. I know that I am staring at him right now and yet I can't take my eyes off the piece of perfection sitting right in front of me. Some how I managed to tear my eyes away from him and focused at the task on hand. After clearing my throat I tried my level best to get into business mode.
The last person I expected to find when I stepped into the conference room was my first crush, my childhood sweetheart, Nathan Altera. Life doesn't go as we expect it to be, So here I am, Damon Salvino – CEO of Archer group, doing a presentation in front of my first crush who happens to be legal advisor of my business partner. This deal is crucial for my company yet I can't focus, with his eyes watching me so closely. I can feel my heart hammering out of my chest. Gosh, why is this so hard? Come on man, he is not a monster, he is a human, just like everyone else in this room, You can pull through.
"That's it. Thank you ladies and gentlemen for your time"
After the longest hour of my life and literally embarrassing myself in front of everyone in this room including Nathan, I concluded my presentation with a thank you note. Everyone seemed to be impressed with my presentation even though I was dying on the inside. I needed to get away from this meeting and most importantly away from him for my sanity or else I am pretty sure I'll go insane with all this crazy feelings and thoughts swirling in my mind. Everyone belonging to the other company expressed their appreciation towards my idea except for Nathan. I felt disappointed but right after the meeting he got a call and excused himself out of the room. After everyone left the room, I flopped into the chair and heaved out a sigh. Gosh, Why is my life like this? After a good two minutes of relaxing I got up from the chair and made my way to my office.
Today is really not made for me 'cuz as I was about to enter my office room Nathan's angelic voice calling out my name stopped me. Hesitantly I turned around and was met with his breath-taking smiling face. God kill me now. Be cool, don't do anything stupid. I repeatedly chanted in my head as I made my way towards him.
"Hey Nathan, Long time no see" ~ I managed to say without shuttering, Thank god.
"Yeah we never got a chance to meet up after graduation. I never thought I had see you today. I never guessed that the brilliant business tycoon everyone talked about was you. I have heard a lot about your company and Now I see it. You got a great company Damon". ~ He said
A compliment from him, Jesus Christ, Am I dreaming! This day is not that bad as I thought.
"Why, Thank you. I can't blame you for not thinking that I would start a business, even I was surprised when I got this idea" ~ I smiled at him . While my insides did flips that would bring professional gymnastics to shame.
"I remember you talking about wanting to be a police officer" ~ He chuckled.
"That I did but seems like god had other plans" ~ I said.
Well, it is not that hard to make conversation with him if you can ignore my racing heart. Someone called for Nathan from the entrance, he made hand gesture for them to wait a minute.
"Damon , Actually I am hosting a party at my house tomorrow to celebrate my victory in a huge case. Many of our classmates will be there. If you are not busy, Would you come?" ~ He said softly. Yeah, I am definitely dreaming. There's no way he is inviting me.
"I will try to be there, Can't miss a chance to go back to the good old days" ~ I chuckled and his reaction mirrored mine
"I got to go now. it was nice meeting you again. See you soon" ~ With that and a smile he walked out of the building.
Party at his house tomorrow, Should I go? I need to have a talk with my bestfriend, person inside my head, I need you.
End of flashback...
At the party :
I was a literal mess when I stepped into the party, nervous would be an understatement in my situation. My eyes scanned for familiar faces, soon I found my old classmates huddled in a couch laughing their asses off. A strange wave of nostalgia hit me and I caught myself smiling looking at all those who had made my childhood and teenage years an absolute blast. I grabbed a drink and made my way towards them. All of them greeted me with tears and soon we indulged ourselves in the memories of our days together. We were a group of 10 and 9 of us were there on the couch. The missing one being the host of the party, Nathan. Thoughts of him brought back all the nervousness back into the system. I scanned the buzzing crowd for signs of him but he was not there. Just as I was about to turn back, brown met with blue and the whole damn zoo erupted in my stomach. He smiled at me as he approached.
"So you came" ~ He said never breaking eye contact
"Surprisingly I had a free schedule today"~ I chuckled.
There seemed something off with him, It almost felt like he was nervous, but for what?
"Damon, Can you come with me to the rooftop? I really need to speak to you" ~ He said with nervousness
What????Speak to me alone!!Jesus, What's happening? Why does everyone around me has this weird expression like they know something is about to happen? Are they all trying to execute a stupid prank? Or worse? Did Damon catch up on my crush on him? Is he finally going to break it to me that I have no chance with him? My thoughts were literally everywhere as I made my way to the rooftop alongside Nathan. Our footsteps were the only sound fighting the deadly silence. After what felt like eternity we finally reached our destination. Nathan went to the edge overlooking the buzzing New York city, I slowly walked over to him. The moonlight illuminating his face made him look ever more handsome, Gosh, How can a human be this perfect?
"So, What is it that you wanted to tell me?" ~ I asked.
He looked at me and my heart skipped a beat. His eyes showed nervousness and something else that I couldn't decipher and he cleared his throat and spoke in a voice that just stole my breath away
"Damon, I have been meaning to tell you this since high school but I was too chicken to do that then. But now after years of living with the regret of not letting you know. I don't want to have that weight on my heart anymore. I really like you Damie" ~ He said with the sweetest voice i had ever heard.
I pinched myself in the arm. I felt the pain so this isn't a dream. My crush is saying that he likes me. My eyeballs were about to fall out of its sockets. The entire zoo erupted in my stomach and my entire being turned into a big fuzzy ball of happiness. I wanted to scream out my love to him but I couldn't, it felt like the happiness had paralysed my tongue.
Nathan continued with his voice full of doubt and a tiny flicker of hope shone somewhere in his eyes ~ "I have liked you for a long time now and I have mustered up all the courage I have to tell you this. You can say no if you wan-"
"No"~ I practically screamed not giving him a chance to finish
Me saying NO to him!!! No way!!Nathan's face fell and all hope died from his eyes replaced by dejection. I slowly realised that he got the wrong idea about my words. Oh god, What have I done?
"No, I mean, Nathan you got the wrong idea."
His eyebrows rose in confusion. I struggled to finish my words, my brain fuzzy from happiness. I was so overwhelmed that my faces become void of feelings. I did the only thing that came to my mind, I kissed him. He was taken aback from my sudden action, I could feel it in the way his body stiffened against me. Soon he relaxed kissing me back dragging me close by the waist. After felt like the most blissful moments of my life, he rested his forehead on mine. I could feel the wetness on my cheek and god! I was crying, I am a crybaby. He leaned down to land a tender kiss on my forehead. The moment his lips touched mine again, a camera flash was heard in the background. We turned around to see our friends gathered at the entrance.
"Finallyy my ship is sailing, Woo hoo !"~ The excited cheers of our friends tore us apart from each other making both of us flush.
"Aww don't stop, we were enjoying the show" ~ My best friend from high school, Emily said with a teasing tone. I turned into a tomato at her comment.
"C'mon guys the party awaits us" ~ Nathan said saving us both from the embarrassment. We made our way downstairs, the silence with which we had once ascended the stairs now a forgotten story drowned in the excited cheers of our friends.
_THE END