I really wished I had prior knowledge about how all of these works. It would have given me some leverage about how I should have handled myself in the heat of this feeling or whatever it was.
At 19, I had just gotten enrolled into the university which was a different state from where my family stayed. I got admission to study Medicine which is going to take me about 6 years to be done with. I really knew there'd be a lot of work ahead for me so fastened my seatbelt for the ride. I knew a lot of people where looking up to me to make the most out of school and so I couldn't let them down.
I was raised by a single mum that solely provides and takes care of me and my sisters. And so, if there's one gift I could give to her was coming out with flying colors with my academics and also trying as much as possible to live a good life in school.
I've never really been in anything romantic all my life apart from the childish plays we had back then in secondary school about being someone boyfriend or girlfriend. I believe the reason for that couldn't be far fetched as my home was a religious home with strict laws that guided us. Our mum believed that when the time was right, we would get the right person to settle down with each of us —- I forget to mention that I had two sisters.
I didn't really want to belong to a fellowship in school - no particular reason but I just wanted to have the space I didn't have at home. At home, we went to church almost everyday of the week. My mum is somewhat a leader in church and a coordinator of teenagers and so it gets worse on Sundays because she has to stay for meetings and sorts. Most of the times, we get to the house sometime in the evening - except of course you managed to escaped before time - tired and exhausted. I thought about all of that and just decided to