The darkness that had swallowed her was not as cold as she expected it to be, it was colder to sit beside her own grave to watch people cry on it. Elen longed to remember, but her mind was clouded, slipping further away. She felt it coming, the abyss she herself had created.
- Ah, such a beautiful soul, - woman cried out loud, her hand on the grave.
- Calm down rose, it's not good for you,- said young man beside her, with tears in his eyes.
It was a chilly night in the graveyard, as the sun found itself sleeping on horizont. Its last bit of the light shining peacefully on top of the flowers that people had left on her grave. People come and go, as she stays in one place, watching over her gravestone.
- It's lonely, isn't it? - said someone from behind, voice soft and still strong.
- Excuse me?! - she jumped up with fear - you, you can see me? - Elen asked, her eyes full of excitement and fear. The person in front of her nooded for approval, as she sat down in the same place Elen was sitting just a moment ago.
- What is happening to me?
- You are dead
- Dead? Dead… you mean not alive? - she nodded again
- Then what am I now?
- You are a ghost as humans call it
- A ghost? - Elen laughed to herself, looking back to her gravestone again.
She watched as the last two people left her grave, the sun going back to sleep in the sky. Silent, painful and cold Silence.
- I can sense that you are becoming something darker than you should be
- Am not sure what is the meaning of this, what are you even talking about?!
- I am here to lead you to the correct way out
- Who are you? No, who am i?
Her mind was getting even more fogged than before, it was hard to think of sentences, even harder to understand the existence of herself. The only reason she knew her own name was the gravestone, but was it even her own gravestone or not was another question she has not answered yet. She felt a warm touch on her forehead, soft fingers pressed against her head.
- I am the angel sent down to help you, be in peace little one, - her touch had powers within, as Elen felt her cold body get warmer, she could see little bit clearly what was happening in front of her.
The woman, who called herself an angel was smiling gracefully, she was shining as the sun. Maybe she was the sun, Elen couldn't tell yet.
- No need to be afraid, i don't come here to harm you
- Who am i?
- Now? I told you…
- No! - Elen cuts her in the middle of speaking, - you know what i mean! Who am i?
- A human, your name is Elen. You died with unfortunate fate
- Why do I not remember anything?
- It's normal not to remember, you left your old life!
- But you said it was an unfortunate fate! What if I never wanted to leave?
Silence.
- What if I wanted to stay?
Silence.
-And why am I the only one here? I watched as they buried two others beside me, they are not here! Does it need more time?!
- They already left
- And me?
Elens composure is getting darker, her eyes drowning. She could feel herself drowning again and again. What was this feeling, when would it end? She is already so tired
-Calm yourself - said angel, as she touched Elens forehead again
- You say that, but…
- What is it, what are you searching for?
The question confused Elen, what was she searching for? It sounded funny, she doesn't have any memories, how can she search for anything? She has lost nothing but everything at the same time.
- Am not sure if i understand your question
- There must be something you want
- I don't
- Impossible - angel says, pulling a book out of thin air - let me see…
- What is this?
- Nothing important to you, here! I found it
- What is it?
- Love, you are searching for love!
There was one more long silence, as both of them looked each other in the eyes, ome confused, other excited.
- I, i don't get it
- That's the point - she smirks, walking proudly on the ground - you don't get the love!
- This is crazy…
- Crazy in love? - she smirked, - alright, that sounded better in my head
- Please, tell me you are not the one who will make me "get the love"
- Yes, it will be me!
- Oh no…
- Oh yes!
- What will happen if i don't "get the love"
- This
She said, pointing at the creature by the tree. The small creature was attached to a tree, letting its tears drop down on the ground. The tree was absorbing its energy, as it little by little swallowed the creature.
- You become part of nature, it's painful but at the end you can become something bigger than a pain.
- Okay, that's not so bad.
- Only if you are kind enough
- What does that mean?
- Lets go
- Wait, what does that mean? - she asked again, but elen was already in angels hands, who was not going to answer her question no matter how many times asked
As they left the graveyard, she felt like she sense of darkness crawling inside her little by little, stronger and deeper.