NYXI
"So, what brought you here, Ms. Nyxi?" asked the pretty blonde woman, reading the paper I filled up with some funny questions I almost answer with sarcasm.
"Do you have to say my real name in this? Can you just say Endraven? Everyone knew me anyway." I said, kinda annoyed at others stating my real name, no offense to this woman who just quirk her lips at me. Well, sorry, even if you are goddamn nice-looking thing. I just hate anyone saying it.
"Hmm… sure if that's what makes you comfortable." She says as she pulled up her pen and started to correct her posture and now…. gently stared at me with her blue orbs… I mean eyes. Damn, those are distracting.
"So… actually, as everyone knows I'm a villain and all – that this is my role…" I started, but the staring is really distracting so I focus my attention to the plants to my left at the side of the window just near the end of the sofa as the sunlight hit it…kinda mesmerizing.
"This is my job now… with the treaties with the heroes and all – I'm on the bad side for over five years." I breathe. "My boss, force me to attend this therapy because he said I've been a drag this past few weeks now…. I kinda loses often to the heroes nowadays…"
"How did that make you feel?" She asked, putting down her clipboard to make a good look at me.
"Terrible!!! Getting your ass kicked by that nonsense hero, Serenity - is a big slap on the face – flat face fuckass… I going to get revenge somehow… But lately I don't have the energy to do it, and just wanted to give up every fight, which sucks – if you ever felt it."
"I do relate at that, but we do have a different situation… right now, I'm just going for the initial consultation, and once you felt that you wanted to continue this at every session – you are free to do so. Or if you will choose to have a psychiatrist instead for medication purposes, you are also free to do so." She said.
"Hmm.. why are you being nice? Are you secretly a spy?" I asked as I shift my position.
"… I'm just doing my job, Ms. Endraven"
"Alright, what's your name again, gorgeous?" I asked, smirking a bit. I do know I have some charm left. She already introduced herself a little earlier when I got to the clinic, but I'm not paying attention.
"…." She blushed. What a cute face behind the clipboard. "Don't flatter me, and anyway, it's Seren. Dra. Seren."
"Seren, is a cute name." I said, wiggling my eyebrows.
"Stop flirting, Endraven, we are derailing from the consultation." She straightened herself. "Now, can you tell me what happened to you the last few weeks or earlier today?" She said with a measured voice.
"Aww.. sucks, I like that blush though. Anyway..."
3 Days Before the Therapy
NYXI
"Is that all you got, Endraven?" said the flat fuckass face – I'm going to ruin, maybe today.
Her white energy emanating from her, holding her DIY staff out of thin air and swooshing it around to look cool, thinking she could end me with it, especially with that ridiculous pink hair and outfit like a corporate snob.
"Nah, I just got bored with you, I'm just letting you win this one." I said, blood dripping on my head, that damn bitch.
The black particles within my body started to dissipate. I don't have enough mana left for a one more swing in her face. I'm out of juice for a fight I could have won, If I have an energy left. Why are these days so exhausting now? Am I….
"For two weeks now? Come on, you are not even trying. Kinda miss the all-out fight we had last December, before Christmas we both have to go to ER in the North and spend the Holiday together."
No comment for that embarrassing night. I buried that deep in my mind.
"I am trying to erase that from memory, ya know. You hog all the blankets! And pillows!"
As I'm trying to stand and held myself to the ground, she started to walk towards me and said "You know, I think I get you. You chose to be a fallen because you don't want that kind of responsibility anymore. You choose this path and you are giving up this role again – Ny – Endraven, there is no saving you. You have no second chance anymore. Fix yourself and I'll battle you again.
What am I doing wrong? I can't stand properly.
What am I doing wrong? I can't even jab straight to her face and pull on that pink hair.
What am I doing wrong? Even the hero sympathizes me.
"W-what?"
"I'm bored, I'm going home now, there's a new season of Parcs and Reks, I need to watch it."
"Wait, Ir- Serenity!!! We are not done yet… come on."
Back to the Therapy Session
NYXI
"… And that's it for the last few weeks too, doc. My co-workers, fellow villains have been cleaning my act too, and was mad at me for doing sloppy jobs for those weeks. My boss, much nicer boss than the hero department, Clym, told me about this clinic, and referred me to you... So, what am I doing wrong?"
"Well, Endraven, are you happy with what you are doing now?"
"No, not really, I hate therapy. But I do need help."
"No, not that, your job. As a villainess?"
"Oh…. Hmmm… well, honestly becoming a villain is much easier than being a hero, except that you have to accept all the hatred, all the anger, all the misery and nasty things that makes you a villain. You have to yell at stupid people though, which is kind of a fun part of it.
"Do you want to be a villain forever?"
"If the world is already making me a villain, I have no choice."
"Regardless of the world thinks, what do you want?"
"A full rest maybe, just me, my bed, my pillow and blanket – something like that. A work life balance I think. Career wise, I'm still lost on it, so I cannot answer that."
"Tell you what, do something that you want, anything that doesn't need thinking, like shredding papers while zoning out or anything your cup of tea. If you would accept the next consultation again, I like to see what you did, and tell me how was it."
"Hmm.. Okay, I'll try."
"Did you enjoy the consultation at least."
"Well, it's nice to finally talk to someone who is not punchable in the face and just accept my way thinking. I did enjoy it somehow. And…. You may call me Nyxi next time."
"That's cool" Seren said, as there is a slight tint of red in her cheeks. "See you, and next week let's talk deeper about the cause."