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I opened my eyes and again found myself in the white void,I was lying on a white-colored floor which felt like being enveloped in a soft, calm expanse.
The brightness of the white void created a sense of openness and simplicity, almost as if you're floating or suspended in a serene, neutral space.
The lack of color made the surrounding environment feel quieter and more expansive, while my body contrasted the pure whiteness beneath me.
Both the sky and the land were vast as infinity in this mysterious space.
its the third time I am getting ended up in this place.
I didn't move from the ground,
i just waited there hoping a familiar voice
to call me out.
Oh my ,You came back already?
That's unfortunate.
"Yeah,i didn't expect it either."
There is a saying
"in case you never get a second chance: don't be afraid .
And what if you do get one ?You take it and make the best of it.
I kept my mouth closed.
My situation wasn't the best at the moment to have a normal conversation with her.
You don't expect me to be happy after what you have done this time,do you?
i could feel her presence right near me.
I was speechless.
She was an exiled being that guided me through my two lives of mystery and suffering.
The prophet named " Vahel."
Her appearance was like a witch in saintly attire that blended the ethereal qualities of both mystical and divine.
It would be called enchanting, yet grounded in an aura of mystery.
She was wearing a flowing, dark and delicate gown made of shimmering fabric reminiscent of saintly robes.
The fabric catches the light in a way that seems to shift, as though alive with magic.
Her hair, long and dark, fell in loose waves while her face which hid by a veil as it showed an enigmatic calmness.
I really wanted to tell her that I was relieved to see her here again.
Because l was dead sure that if she was still here then I can still go back to my body.
My mouth was becoming dry as hell but without stuttering,I answered her back while lying on the ground.
"And what happens when you also screw that up too.
Wait for the third .right?"
I cursed inwardly,talk about disappointing.
No, then it's about time you step aside,
don't you think so too?
Lynn.
I slowly stood up and looked at her.
"And why should I do that exactly?Vahel".
Since you are still here."
She was indeed my benefactor,
the one who helped me from the other side,her mouth was the only thing visible underneath her veil she was wearing.
Hearing my answer her lips curled up into a smile.
I don't know why but I knew she was enjoying my struggle.
Becuz you ain't good enough for them and
besides you don't need to do anything anymore, since you just saved the world
and got killed by your own kin for saving it.
isn't that enough of an achievement for 2 lifetimes?
Even a exiled one like me can tell that you have lost before the real task even started.
Don't you think so too?
She saw through my thoughts and dragged me back to my inevitable situation.
I expected this kind of argument from her,
but this was a little harsh.
I calmed myself ,i didn't want to show my pathetic side in this moment since she already saw all of it anyway.
"Whether I get killed by them or not,
is something that I decide, Vahel.
Things can ...still be fixed.
I know what I have to do."
Sure lynn.you got lots of time to think right,since you are DEAD.
The only reason your soul still haven't perished yet is because of our contract.
"Our terms hasn't ended yet.
You can still send my soul back to my body.
right.?"
God dammnit just say YES.
You are persistent, Lynn
But think again what's left for you to go back.
This isn't about our terms.
You can't change the outcome just like you can't change your perplexive nature.
"You are not the one to lecture me.
This time will be different."
this time?
It's sad that your one-way mind is leading you upto your demise over and over again.
Not to mention even with my assistance you failed,not just once but twice in a row.
My mind was getting restless and my mouth moved on its own before i could think properly.
"My decisions might be the wrong ones but I have found the clue to alter my misfortunes.
Can you just support me this time too?
Besides whether I succeed or not
you are only gaining on both ends."
Hearing you say that makes me think I am the one hindering your path,
may be i am who knows.
But the fact that you only realised now that you are only in the losing end after living two life's makes me think sending you back isn't going to bring any good outcome for me.
This can't be happening.
No,i should have expected this shitty situation.
"So your are leaving too ?
since you are getting bored it's only natural that you would be dropping me behind."
this isn't betrayal or anything ,Lynn.
This is just a matter of outcome.
I gave you resources and support that even the world's chosen ones doesn't get.but even with that you couldn't get your job done.
So it's wise to reconsider your status.
You have done what you could but it wasn't enough for you to win them over.
neither it was fun for me to watch you fail and wasting my time on you.
"Just stop, I know my mistakes and I willing to accept it
But isn't this unfair?
Just what are you suggesting anyway."
I am saying that you aren't capable of changing anything or Stopping anything.
You just acted on your instinct without thinking and the other side got the advantage over you instantly.
Not everyone gets second chances,but your second one ended before you could even start your purpose.
This makes me feel bad,Lynn.
I mean truly.
But consider this honesty of mine as a blessing.
"You can't go back,not in the way you are"
the price for me was your soul in return to provide assistance against your fate.
Don't blame me for losing my confidence in you.
You have lost the right to bargain.
I wanted to apologise to her but I couldn't find the exact words to express my dissatisfaction.
"I can find the excuse in the first one but second one is entirely on me
It did end in a unexpected way
but I can still make up for it if I could go back.
You knew the story that was going to happen on the second time instead of following the support instructions,You went with your instinct.
And that caused your demise.
"Guess i am Hopeless huh."
You have no one to blame but yourself dear.
"I didn't expect to hear that from your mouth."
This feeling of being hopeless was suffocating as if my future is a blank void with no possibility of light or change.
Vahel was watching my expressions ,even with her face covered i could clearly see that she is frowning.
"So what's next ?Vahel.
It seems like you aren't done yet "
Since our contract terms are incomplete,
I will provide you one last assistance.
"What's that supposed to be?
You want me to complete another one of your daily tasks."
Yes, one last task.
THINK
I will give you one hour.
"THINK, what exactly?"
I can't provide you an another chance
Since it's against my terms but
I can interfere with your fate one last time.
Consider this your final way out.
If you want to change things you have to change your way of thinking.
She snapped her fingers.
A small hourglass in the size of my palm appeared in front of me.
Then she turned around to leave,
as if she is in a rush.
"Since I can't go back,
What sort of change can you bring anyway?"
Anything but only ONCE.
since this is the last time, atleast think of something useful, yourself.
Just make sure to think hard since this is your last chance.
Break the glass after you decide.
Then she disappeared.
....
My mind was getting cloudy.
This wasn't the way it supposed to end.
Unnecessary thoughts were appearing one by one in my mind.
No matter how I look at it
I couldn't find where it had gone wrong for me.
My actions were purely out of Good will.
But no one saw it.
Well shit.
My chest hurts a bit but Vahel was right.
I couldn't alter my fate in the plot when I was in it myself .
And now you are asking me to THINK of a way to change the entire thing without even being a part of it.
No matter which crucial point in my life ,
I always ended up doing something idiotic.
May be that's why they all left me for the chosen ones.
I did so much good things with just 2 lives combined , something that chosen morons won't do in 10 lifetimes.
Yet I am died and they are still alive and well.
This is some curse alright .
I always liked it when unexpected things happened to me,since it put me in the spotlight.
But at some point it had become truly expected.
May be it's good that it ended this way.
I don't have to chase after people who won't acknowledge my presence in their life.
With that thought in mind ,i slowly laid my body on the cold floor.
I grasped the hourglass in my right hand and felt the flow of time in it.
Thinking was easy for me, but to think about the something thing that should be capable of changing your entire coarse of fate in one hour is kind of difficult right now.
I truly am fu*ked beyond worlds.
I closed my eyes and let my conscience take over it.It became totally blank.
The moment felt liberating ,the thought that I can't change anything made me feel sad and happy at the same time.
l felt the freedom in making my own choice,
thinking about it all again from beginning right now in this moment.
I have free will.
No more tasks to complete
No more expectations
No more final CHANCES.
Unknowingly I tightened the grip on my Right hand and the glass broke.
You are sleeping? Huh
"WHAT ..?
CAN'T YOU JUST LET ME SLEEP FOR ONE LAST TIME."
You have become truly absent minded.
Guess that can happen to anyone who lives multiple times to end up here at your mercy,only to get informed that you efforts have been wasted.
Lynn ,its good that you have finally given up if someone else was in your position they would have chosen to do something atleast instead sleeping on your final hour.
After this the only thing you can do ever do is to sleep forever.
"Vahel ,I never asked you this
what did you get by taking my soul anyway?
Since the chosen ones will be able to bring more entertainment for you.
You should be making contracts with them instead of me ,right?"
I was getting frustrated,even it is my final moments i might as well get some answers.
Guess you have finally gone insane ,huh.
I don't regret choosing you Lynn.
Because there will be only one of a kind like you this world.
Foolish and Unperceptive at the same time but unpredictable in every way.
No hard feelings,lynn.
Truth to be told,If I ever have to choose your kind again in this world or any other,
I might as well skip it.
"Choosing my kind ..... in this world? huh"
Hearing that made me think something funny.
This thought of mine may be random
but it's worth a try.
"So you are saying that the me in this world is not good enough as the other versions of me in the other worlds"
Maybe or maybe not.
That isn't matter anymore.
"You are cold ."
Can't help it ?since i am in a hurry.
I need to leave before the divine kin finds my presence.
"You mean the ones supporting the chosen ones? right.
Just how many are there anyway,
it must be really tough for both of you guys to travel around every worlds to screw people up."
The thought that my existence is getting wiped out after suffering so much is making my mind unstable,otherwise I never would have joked with her at this moment.
We the exiled ones are unique beings in our own right because we are free from dimensionsal rules and restrictions since we are exiled .
But we can only interfere from the outside,since our presence can be found easily inside the world's domain.
I was feeling a strange sense of certainty that my thoughts are going in a direction that may help me find the alternative I need right now.
"What about my case?
You said you can do anything ,right?"
That's because we are bound by contract,
the terms are agreed in the favor of both of us.
Your mere existence masks my presence even if I interfere in your fate until the contract is over.
"So by signing the contract with you
i just protected you and also got my soul sold off to you."
Say what you want,since i am the last person you will be seeing and who knows,
i might be the only one to who atleast try to understand your actions in this world.
After this you won't be seeing me in this cursed world again.
So you didn't understand me either huh.
No, it was my faulty decisions that I ended up this way,she is not the one to blame.
I remembered something my uncle used to say to me "no one will understand your actions better than yourself "
Don't waver Lynn ,since its time to play your last turn.
"Good for you I guess.
Oh by the way ,Vahel
you just said you exiled ones are interdimensional beings?right.
Yeah? So..
"About that help you mentioned.
I have decided how to screw that SOB fate
of mine.
You sure you can do it?"
I never doubted Vahel 's capabilities since I experienced it myself.
but I wasn't sure how far a being like her will go for me since I was in the losing end of the contract.
My decisions were always random
but it was instinctive.
My instinct led me here to this damn situation but I can't regret it anymore.
It's all I have right now and I am trusting it.
Finally thought of something useful,
Let's hear it.Lynn
Since this is the last time i promise to get this done for you.
"I am glad to hear that you are taking me seriously this time,so just find me the best version of MYSELF among the alternate world's you are aware of"
Yeah sure,there's plenty of you in the...
Huh...!
WHAT?