I got seriously drunk, I couldn't see clearly everything was blank so as my soul I just sat blinked my eyes severally and cried in silence just tears no words, the pain didn't want to go I didn't know what to do, I thought of killing myself but I can't,I can't kill myself I tried to it's just been so difficult to do it I wanted to cry and scream but didn't get yhe strength to do that, I lost again I lost everything, I had bad luck, now where do I go from here everything is being bad, just broken lost my feelings, the scene of Antonio and Chiara making out kept replying in my head I laughed like a lunatic devilishly, I felt kind off powerful, been broken made me powerful this time instead of being weak how and why was this even possible to happen?.
I managed to stand up from the floor laid myself on my bed, so drunk I closed my eyes and fell asleep immediately, I was bothered alot, cold sweats broke on my face as tears poured out from my eyes oh gosh I was having the nightmare again, the past wouldn't let me be, I'm stuck in my past I can't seem to move on with my life I quickly woke up again my eyes clearer than before, I stood up looked around wore my slippers and headed for the restroom I removed my clothes, threw it at one corner, I opened the shower and water started flowing, I just sat down on the cold bathroom flow, pulled my hair as water ran down my face I screamed "ahhhhhhhhhh" I'm so tired of crying I just sat there without a choice I kept smiling like a physchopath, I've totally lost my mind.
I got up from the bathroom for what seemed like some hours I went back to bed and found sleep, I didn't care about what's going to happen anymore. After some hours I woke up with hot hangover my head burning and I was feeling feverish I managed to sit up on the bed took the telephone and called the receptionist and ordered some pain killers, she brought them in almost immediately, "good morning" she greeted I just look at her nodded my head she dropped it on the table and told me to order what I'll like to have for breakfast. Just told her to get me anything simple and some coffee too she just nodded and left, I signed looking bored then decided to scroll on my phone memories of yesterday came again, I wanted to cry, but I blinked the tears again I decide to accept the truth this time, Antonio doesn't deserves my tears, he did it to the point of lying about his name to me, he didn't even care, he didn't call me and asked how I was someone I made sacrifice for and came from Scotland to Italy, I'll have to decide what to do with my life now.
Thirty minutes later, another lady walked in with my breakfast, I just faked a smile at her and she left immediately after serving the dishes, I signed I can't kill myself tho I need to eat in other to gain strength, strength to revenge both the past and the future, I have to I ate my food took my phone I had to decide whether to stay in Italy or go to other countries , I headed into the bathroom had a quick bath, I wore a simple short floral gown with just a slippers, I plastered a fake smile on my face and decided to stroll out to see how Italy is, I took everything necessary head down to the receptionist, paid for extra charges, because I'll be staying for a while to decide maybe I should continue my stay in Italy or end it.
As I got outside I inhaled the air. Around gosh it smelled nice, then I started walking, looking around to see different people, and their looks, Italian people looked so gorgeous everything about them, but I haven't found someone so good looking as Antonio, my thoughts drifted to him again and pain flashed across my face, no I can't be thinking about him I wouldn't let a useless trash spoil my mood and hinder me from getting the happiness I truly deserved, I sat down on a bench brought out my phone and opened the contact hoping I would have met a lot's of missed call there but he didn't even call me, nobody called me, I'm alone in this world nobody cares for me, I didn't bother or looked surprised, I had to admit I missed my dad even tho he didn't care for me, he's still my dad even tho I wasn't using his name anymore, even tho I decided to start bearing Hudson he's still my dad.
I got up from the bench and used a gps to locate a amusement park since it was getting dark already I have to do something fun, and plus I was new here so i don't really know anywhere, but luckily the GPS said there was one just down the streets happily I rushed down there I have to make myself happy I didn't care anymore even if nobody cares for me I have to start caring for myself. As I just saw the amusement park my jaw dropped in surprise it was big and nice I quickly went to a roller coaster for two each per seat I need to seriously find a partner, luckily there was a lady who looked around her early 30's also wanting to join I quickly paired up with her then we rode it, it was just so awesome, I didn't care anymore I ran around like a kid after what seemed like hours it was getting really dark and the crowd was decreasing I looked at my phone and it was already 10:37 , oh my god what was I thinking it was late already, but thank goodness the hotel wasn't that far from here I quickly left the park looked around and decided to get some ice cream for dessert I was wasn't sure if the hotel offers ice cream so I went to a nearby store, went to the ice cream section, ta-da! All ice cream looking really nice chocolates, strawberry,vanilla, and mint flavor I decided to pick two each, God Italy was great even the stores looked nice, after paying to the cashier I took the bag and left the store, it's so nice the evening gentle breeze caressing my bare skin, my thoughts drifted to when I won the scholarship, that gained me lots of money and made me pay for my tuition fee too, nobody helped me I schooled myself by doing minor jobs and gaining lots of money from my competitions for the school it was all sure great. The hotel was about ten minutes away, then I felt like someone was stalking me, but who I barely know anyone here, maybe it's just me thinking too much I signed and hastened my steps the surroundings was too quite, suddenly a hand yanked me from behind, suffocated me with something and everything felt blank, something covering my face then I heard " treat her with care, take her into the car gently" it was a feminine voice I was sure before I drifted into unconsciousness.
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