School Year
2023 - 2024
So there was this girl a year and half ago that I keep seeing everyday whenever the class is dismissed.
I have a habit that whenever I see people I normally see everyday but I don't interact with them I tend to give them a lot of attention.
Fast forward after a month or so in the afternoon a female classmate asked me. If I had a crush on "that person" I said "no" because back then I didn't know what her name was and I didn't really see her charm at the time. Cuz I had a crush on someone else from far away and yes I got rejected ofc but it was fine as it help me grow. I realized being in a Long Distance Relationship (LDR) might be difficult and trust is a gonna play a part on it so I accepted that I was rejected and rn we're still friend though we don't interact much we rarely chat each other and I inquire her about academic stuff in a gc cause I'm a shy person lol.
Back to who I'm currently crushing on. Months again later we student's have to partake in a program where we dress up on what we want to become and I chose to become engineer (not specified) and to my surprise she also chose the engineer profession and also her best friend which is my classmate that is part of my social circle.
Later in the program her best friend which was my classmate approached me with her and introduced her to me and that's when I knew her name. I told her "nice to meet you" with a handshake and I got a little embarrassed. Good timing cuz my friend called me about a game he's playing and I used that to get away because I got so shy.
And that was it, that was the time where I would constantly look for her. Back then, I didn't what that feeling was, I thought that it was just me being shy to women but It wasn't, it was entirely different. Everyday I would look for her, and I wanted to see her atleast once everyday because I couldn't remember what she looked like but I actually know what she looked like but I felt as if I had forgotten it. Crazy ye?
Whenever she walks though the hallway I would take a glance. I wait for her to come through or when she goes to our classroom I was secretly happy. When she's in a contest I would watch almost till the very end until my friends call me.
She is also friends with one of my close friends last year and she's part of their circle but they rarely meet together now.
And currently this year (2024 - 2025) I'm her classmate and yes I'm very happy to here because I get to see her everyday.
Only 2 people knew about my feelings a close friend from far away and 1 classmate and let's call him B1.
Just an assumption I think she liked me or not or somehow cuz on the 1st day she was smiling at me while introducing myself idk if because it's she's happy or idk I am very confused.