Who am I? I'm just a regular guy living on Earth, a human—someone called Elie. If my understanding of the world is accurate, we humans are simply biological beings with consciousness. Years ago, I used to think we were spiritual beings or something else, but I'm now convinced of the contrary.Sometimes I dare to dream of becoming more than just a biological being. Being more than that might be interesting and exciting, but also terrifying because it would be full of the unknown. I just can't understand how some people have enough imagination to think there are things called mana, spirits, or something else within their bodies. It's beyond me.Since becoming an atheist, I've joined many atheist social media groups to debate them, believers about ideology, philosophy, ethics, politics, economics, life, and more. It's really become a hobby of mine. But the only group I truly enjoy chatting in is the one called "Otaku Atheists." Only there can I really talk freely, maybe because we share the same hobbies.I often find life terrifying. A deranged person on social media once told me, "Death is the implication of life." Hehe, I swear I cursed him with all my heart for telling me such a thing. How can sane people live knowing such a thing? I'm a cowardly guy; I'm really afraid of many things, and death is one of the things I fear most. What that guy said to me was like a bucket of cold water.Every night, I chat with that group "Otaku Atheists".........josh89: Hi guys, I had a strange nightmare. Last nightellie002: What the heck, guys?josh89: Last night, I dreamt that I died and went to hell.belongo00: @josh89 Take some meds, buddy. You're aging.josh89: It's not a joke. I really felt it was real. I think it's what religious people divine call to repent...ellie002: Me too! I had a dream last night. I saw my ex-crush declaring her love for me. It's not a joke. I really felt it was real. I think it's what lovers call it, lol :)belongo00: @ellie002 Lol, I love this one.belongo00: @ellie002 What "ex-crush"? Is that a new word in the dictionary of pathetic people?josh89: Be serious, lad. I really feel that my dream was real.ellie002: Mine too.mikethelogic98: @josh89 If everyone's dreams are real and have to come true, then one day SpongeBob will eat the planet Earth, according to one of my dreams.ellie002: The rapture of SpongeBob! :)josh89: @mikethelogic98 I don't get it.mikethelogic98: @josh89 It's astonishing that you still can't get the humor here after so many months of being here. Sometimes I really wish you were just playing dumb.josh89: @mikethelogic98 That's your problem. How can I understand if you don't explain but only send a laughing emoji and a sarcastic sentence? Is that your so-called logic?mikethelogic98: @josh89 Tsss, get a brain. I'm going to sleep.josh89: That guy really only has a huge ego and nothing else.belongo00: @ellie002 You still haven't explained "ex-crush." Mike made some assumptions in the last chat that you've never had a girlfriend, even at 25. Is that even possible in this era?ellie002: It comes from belief, something you can't understand.belongo00: Stop talking nonsense. You're an atheist.ellie002: It's all a matter of philosophy, guy. And for something like love, I prefer to leave it to fate.belongo00: Like fate exists? :)ellie002: Fate is a philosophy of life and encounters with the unknown and people, the way events turn out.belongo00: Stop changing the subject. Why are you still single at 25? Are you afraid of talking to girls, or are you trans?ellie002: I'm a great introvert and I'm very shy.belongo00: Why are you lying like that? For you, an introvert, that should be a new joke. You're among the most shameless members of this group, always saying the first thing that comes to your mind—really a monkey evolved.ellie002: Because you aren't a monkey evolved.belongo00: Yes, I'm more than that—a spiritual being with a temporal body. I'm no longer an atheist like all the deluded people in this group.ellie002: So what are you now? Do you know how sane people feel when they see deluded people who call them deluded?belongo00: I'm agnostic now. The belief that the world came from nothing, like this group believes, is insane. There must be a creator—the One who created everything: the cosmos, dimensions, life. . . It's just that He is beyond our understanding—an "Exception," an "Inconceivable," an "Incomprehensible," an "Indescribable" being. He may be at the same time nothing and everything, the zero and infinite, also the good and evil...ellie002: It seems like you used a dictionary and Googled it this time. The existence of such a being is inconceivable. I adhere to the philosophy of atheistic Platonism. You should Google it before shouting things like that.belongo00: Philosophy this, philosophy that. Man, stop trying to explain everything with philosophy. Get a life. Bye.ellie002: It's not like I'm trying to explain life with philosophy. It's just that everything can be explained with philosophy.ellie002: Even the cosmos can be explained by philosophy.ellie002: @belongo00 Don't dare shut down the chat. I still have a lot to say..........
What shitty night
Sometime, I really wonder what is the goal of life. If chatting with these people every night is a life. I bet it's not a life, but paradoxaly it can also be class as a part of my life. I wonder if fate exist really, sometime life is hard in point where we need to be guide, but when we have guide we really prefer to be free. What 's weird contradiction. The true nature of mankind is contradiction. It's between contradiction that we get identity and form our persona I sure of that but people never believe me.
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Like everyday. I have to go in fac, in the same way as always.
In the way.
"Rapture is coming, you need to repent of your sins" an unknown preacher
How can these propaganda still exist in this era as like? It's really more amazing that some people are falling into it.
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Suddenly the crimson moons had bizarrely pull by the earth. What the hell is happening here?