Black…is all I see, black is I feel and black is all I hear. Nothing forward nothing backwards just nothing. Is this the end? The true end I needed, the end I have been looking for. Yes! this is what I've been looking for…
"No this is not the end. This is just the beginning and you must take back what belong to you. You know the true and you have seen they faces. It's time now." An echoing voice spoke out in the nothingness.
"What who is-" Sarephina said but before she could finishing nor comprehend what was happening a sound started to echo from the far distance. A sound of rushing water. Sarephina kept looking around to see where the sound was coming from but she saw nothing. The sound kept coming from all directions and kept coming closer.
"What is happening!? Who are you!?" she shouted in a fearful voice as she tossed and turned in the black nothingness not seeing anything. The sounds kept coming closer and closer and getting louder and louder to a point Sarephina couldn't take it anymore. Afraid that the noise would bleed into her she covered her ears but that didn't help. The noise kept getting louder making Sarephina body vibrated in pain forcing her to pull her knees to her chest in a fetal position and squeezing her eyes shut in fear.
'What is this noise?What is happening?' she thought as fear and confusion kept fulling her as the noise kept pushing through then as slowly as the noise came and gotten louder quickly it disappeared.
It took Sarephina a moment to realise that the noise had stopped for she still felt the painful sensation of the noise though out her body and head but when her mind realised that the noise had stopped she kept still. Then she saw a white light shine though her shut eyes. Slowly she started to opening her eyes and blinked multiple time to adjust her eyes to the light. After her eyes adjusted she looked around to see that she was in a room. A very large room brightly lit with three large open windows on one wall in a roll allow the wind to blowing inside the room as the soft white lace curtains bellow with the wind, a lit fire place on the other side of the room, walls painted light sunshine yellow with framed paintings of beep green forest, lake side meadow and fields of flowers. On the other side a large dark brown closet line the wall against the sunshine yellow wall, palace like chairs and tables furnished though out the room completing it in to a nobles room.
'This room I know… It feels like something old' She thought as looked around the room once again. As she looked down to see where she was sitting up right. Sarephina only realised at that moment that she was sitting on a large bed that could fit at least five people. The mint green covers with flower design sitting on a four poster dark oak bed post.
'Wait… this is mine? Yes I think It's my old room from when I was young in the Count house. No it can't be.' Sarephina said as she was filled with confusion ' How can this be I left this house after I married the Duke how am I here again. No I can't be here' Sarephina ripped open the covers and swung out of bed but as she stood up quickly a dizzy spell came over her making her lose her balance and garb on the bed and sitting down slowly. The next minute the door open and a young women in her early twenties wearing a black long sleeve dress with a white apron covering the bottom half a her dress and a white shirt collar shown on her neck.
" Miss you have woken!" The maid said with a shocking voice. She ran up to Sarephina side to help back in the bed then continued to cover her with the blankets. Sarephina stared at the in her owe shock and confusion once again not knowing what was happening and the women who was standing in front of her.
"Lizzy?" She said in a careful
"Yes Miss?. You know we were worried about you." Lizzy spoke in a soft tone
"We? whose we"
"You know all of us."
" Lizzy."
"Yes Miss?"
" What happened to me"
Lizzy froze at question and Sarephina saw that. That moment Sarephina had four questions . The first is that of confusion. The second is what was happening around, the third is how she got here and the fourth is this real or a dream cause she definitely knows that the Lizzy that in front of her right now can't be real. Why you wondering cause the loving Lizzy that has taking care of her all her life the one that has been a friend, a mother and sister to her died. How does she know this? Because she was the one who cause her death.
" Eh well…You don't have to worry about the right now. The only thing you have to do is get better. Ok love." She said as she tuck Sarephina in bed.
" I will let the Count and your brothers know that you are awake."
Sarephina flinched at the mention of the name of the Count and her brothers. Then all the dark memories came flowing back to her like a rushing water of all the cold indifference between her and her brothers making sure that she was never shown love and the Count hateful eyes towards her. The Count made sure that Sarephina knew her place in the house and that she never step over that place.
Sarephina quickly graded Lizzy's hand making Lizzy jump.
"Wait!Lizzy…I think it's best not to tell the Count I'm wake. Not just yet." she said. " I just don't want to disturb him now. He must be busy."
Sarephina looked at Lizzy with a pleading look in her eyes and at that moment Lizzy understood why Sarephina didn't want the Count to know about her then she nodded softly in agreement making Sarephina breathe a sigh of relief. Letting go of her hand Sarephina fell back into the bed going underneath the warm covers and spoke.
"And don't let Bex know I'm awake too."
"What! What do you mean he was worried about you the most after accident Miss. you must at least-"
"No!" Sarephina shouted and she stood straight up removing the covers off her to look at Lizzy.
"You will not tell him I'm awake do you understand! Him and the Count!" She spoke out in a raging low voice. Lizzy was shocked at the miss sudden angry but she softened her face and agreed once again at the Miss request.
Lizzy may have not know why Sarephina didn't want Bex to know about her condition but one thing Lizzy knew was that whatever the miss did she had a good reason and she had to trust her on that.
"Thank you Lizzy."Sarephina said as the anger disappeared replaced with a small smile.
" Yes Miss, is there anything else you need from me?"
" Yes one more thing. Don't let anyone else in the room unless it's you and come before dinner so I can prepare and eat with my family."
" Yes Miss."
Lizzy said lastly while giving Sarephina a glass of water that she had poured. Then she turned and left the room leaving Sarephina alone once again.
* * *
"Ok this is not what I expected to happen like at all! What in the actual hell is happening right now. This can't be real. Right?." I said to myself as I looked around my childhood right. The room that was my safe haven from the pain and hurt that lay beyond that door.
"Everything is still the same."
"Wait a moment what the hell happen to everyone at the court that tried to kill me… oh right that ass of a knight killed me but if I did die then why in the blood hell am I here." Once again speaking to empty room as I got out the soft comfortable bed. Not remembering the bed been that soft and comfortable "well I did spend 12 years under a spell and another 8 years in jail for things I didn't do." I said as I walked up to mirror to look at myself. Cause the last time I looked at a reference of myself was the day I was going to die. Remembering the scares I had all over my body, how gong my face looks and the pain that used to shoot up making me paralysis.
"What in the bloody hell is this! This can't be-" I said as I turned my face from side to side looking at myself seeing my face
" I'm not pale…while I am pale but not sickly pale like before but good" I said
"My scars!" I said as I quickly lifting my up my dress to look at my body.
"Nothing it's all…gone."
'It wasn't the fact that my body look clear of all the scars and also the pain being gone but the most profound thing is how I looked. I wasn't 28 years old but I looked 15 years old and from what Lizzy told me what happen to me and the time I remembered that accident happened to me I must be 15 years old.' I thought as I look straight in the mirror at my youthful reflection thinking to myself 'of all times why now I didn't understand?-'
" Yes you do." a voice called out in a ghost whisper in my room. I quickly turned to see who it was but I was faced with a empty room. Fear started to creep up as my heart speed up.The soft wind bellowed into my room as the air of nothing spoke. Moment past and silence hang in the air so I turned to look back in the mirror to see my reflection had changed into a different person. I gasped as I stepped in fear to see the reflection was a older women who was wearing a dirty ragged dress with scars and cuts all over her body, long frail black hair, sickly pale skin and violet blue green eyes. Just like mine. I froze realising that the women in the mirror was me when I was 28 year old.
"You are me?…" I said in a low shaking voice. Making me remember all of the pain and anguish I suffered for being born. The years, months, days and hours I suffered under that hands of him. He who started all this and the people that followed him not knowing his true plan and how he want to not just destroy me but everything because he thought he deserved the world and nothing-less.
"Yes that it now you understand." The women said in a cruel growling voice. Snapping me out of my thoughts i look at the women in the mirror who was now smiling with malice and her eyes fulled with hatred and manic and that when I did understood, no when I knew why I was here at this moment in time, who I really was and what must be done and all.Then with a cold face and malice coating my voice I said.
"It will end with him."
Turning I grad my gown and I left the room not looking back at that women in the mirror cause I knew I am not that women anymore and I will never be that women again.
* * *
"Damn book! where is the bloody hell!." I said as I reached out on the top of the bookshelf trying to get the book that is stuck at the back of the shelf.
After encountering the old me in the mirror and getting slapped by my past I knew at that moment that I must do everything in my power to prevent the past from happening again. The only problem about this is that the event that happened in the past must happen but since I know what will happen at what time I will have to find a way to control those events and to also prevent me from being effort. I know that not all events will be a full proof prevention but I must make a way to minimise the damage from effecting me and turn it to my favour and this is why I when to the library and need to find the bloody book. I step on the lower shelf to push my height to be able to reach the back.
"Yes finally! Got you!" I said as I grabbed the book. Then a cracking sound came from the bottom of the shelf and I knew that the shelf was starting to break I quickly jumped off but it was to late. Look down at the shelf it had cracked right in the middle. The old me would have panicked and hind in fear of my father wrath but now knowing what I know and seeing the true monsters of this world his anger was not anger it was just pain. Pain of losing the person that he loved the most in this world and I was to blame. I always thought that I was to blame for everything even her death and every punishment that father gave me was the right thing. I always thought that every child that did wrong to they parent especially killing them got the same punishment I did. "The Session" as father used to call them in the far dark room at the end of the estate. Well that's a memory I don't want to go into that will need at least 5 chapters to get through. Book in hand, half broken shelf and books scattered all over the library I finally got the book, the tool that will turn things around. Opening the book to find the missing piece that I needed a smile of satisfaction formed on my face knowing now the time has come to start the game.
'Ding Dong Ding'
"Damn!" The bell rang to signify time to get ready for dinner that means Lizzy will be going to my room to get me ready. I quickly grad the letter and closed the book and got out the library as fast as possible and got back into my room even faster. I got in shut the door, got my night gown and slipped back in to the bed with the letter in hand putting under the pillow and slept or just pretend to sleep. Not long after Lizzy walked in the room. Before coming to me she shuffled around the room then quietly called out
" Miss it's just me you don't need to do that and don't worry Bex doesn't know I'm here. Now we need to perhaps you for dinner." She said as she continued to shuffle. Breathing out a sigh I pulled out the cover to see Lizzy fixing my clothes, shoes, makeup and other things for me to wear. Lizzy turned around to look at me then she gave me a look of 'why you still sitting in the bed, get you butt in the bath now'
"Ok ok Lizzy don't need to glare like that jeeez." I said as I stood up to head to the bath room.
"Miss" I stopped and turned as Lizzy called from the other side of the room "I don't know what happened between you and Bex in the time of your accident and now but on thing I do trust is your judgment. The Count and what-… and"
" Lizzy i know."
"No!…Just let me say this Miss…" she chocked on out " I trust you." She said in a strong stern voice holding back her tears "and I'm by your side always" I flinched at her words. Those words she spoke echoed in to me into an old memory of the old me. Then I felt a pulled into a darkness and there in that that place was fulled with blood, lot of blood all over Lizzy and her soft chocking voice on the floor looking up at me more blood dripping from her lips then her trying to chock out word but I can't hear her.
"Sarephina"
Then a faint sound of someone calling my name from afar away place
"Sarephina!" the again my name was called again
"Sarephina!"
Then I snap out of my trans to find Lizzy clutching my shoulder with a worried look on her face.
Blinking fast I regain my mind.
"Sarephina are you…ok?"she said carefully "oh no I knew it. You really haven't recovered no, Im calling the doctor now." She said in a panic voice as she turned to leave the room. I graded her hand to stop her then I soften my face and cleared my throat.
"No, Lizzy I'm fine really." Lizzy turn to face me once again with a wary look on her face.
" Are you sure?"
"Yes I am…Promise." I said as I gave her a smile. "Now, let it go I need to prepare myself now." I finish off then I turned and head to the bath room and closed the door behind me then press my back against the door and slid down to the ground.
'Ok I didn't expect that' I thought to myself as I blow out a deep breath. 'What the bloody hell was that a vision? No no cause it had already happened but in my past before I got here or started here. Eh! You know what I don't know. That past vision. Yes! That it I will call it that a past vision yes ok. Well that thing I saw I know it happened or going to happen with Lizzy and I know I need to act on my plan tonight before anything else. This time I have the upper hand and I must use it to save the people I lost.' I thought as I got up from the floor of the bathroom.
Time when by as Lizzy prepared me for the dinner with the people I share blood with. (Eye roll on the side). Making me wear a full puffy sky blue dinner dress with a corset something I do not miss at all 'but sacrifices pave way for victory' as they say and who in they right mind in this messed up society decided to make bloody 15year old to wear corset. I hate the but it's almost over.
"Miss your food" a maid spoke as she put down my food on the dining table then stepped back.
Looking up I see my two brothers still staring at me with a shocked expression on they faces as to how am I a wake and why did I come to dinner as I just woke up and my father as usual not looking nor caring about my well being but that a fight I don't want to fight any long for I now know the truth on why he couldn't love me and I made my peace with that.
The doors at the end of the dining room open and Bex walks in. At first on seeing me he stiffened and the quickly recovered schooling his face. I smiled inside knowing that Lizzy really didn't tell Bex I was a wake and also didn't tell him that I was in the dining hall with my family. He walk up to the Count side and bend and spoke in his ear then stood straight looking at me but I didn't give him the satisfaction to glance his way. I kept my eyes fixed on the plate of food in front of me not giving a care in the world.
" Miss Sarephina I am glad you are awake and doing well." Bex said in his posh butler accent. What ever that means but I knew those words were empty like his soul.
"Yes, I am too."I said with an fake uncaring smile as I turned up to him.
"Ah yes before I forget." I said as I turned to putting my knife and fork down and lifting the white crisp napkin to my lips and putting back on my lap like the perfect noble daughter I am. Then faced the Count " Well, as the commoners say 'there is no going around the bush' but I leaving dear father." I finally said and everyone stopped what they were doing I even think time may have stopped with the shocked stone expressions that everyone sported. Even father looked up at me for the first time in my life with an equal shocked face. 'And them dropped the balls' I thought as I smile to myself.