I was in the hospital, it was sunny outside, But it sure didn't feel like it. My brother was laying in front of me on the hospital bed, his breathing steady, in fact he looked very healthy and yet was the undeniable reality that he was about to die.
The white floor was so cold I could feel it through the carpet, It wasn't just the floor too, everything felt cold, the place was quite empty, he had been in this hospital for quite a bit but it felt like the room didn't belong to my brother, if he wasn't in this room then there would be nothing linking it to him except the flowers I bought him on my way here.
They were yellow lilies and the only thing that made the coldness of the room bearable to me, They were Raph's favorite ever since we saw them for the first time, the memory was a bit hazy but I think it was when we went to grandma's garden with mom for the first time, she gave us a tour of the place and taught us the names of the flowers there.
"Aren't these the exact color of your hair, Miki?" Raph asked, Shooting me a look.
"We have the same exact hair color".
"I know, But they are right?" He said, his gaze getting sharper.
"Yeah, I guess." when I said that a light laugh escaped me.
he then suddenly got up and seemed to be holding a petal of one of the flowers, and after getting close, he held next to my hair.
"hmm, yea the color is same" he said, narrowing his eyes like he reached that conclusion after having been lost in thought.
"Okay from now on These are my favs, do you like them?"
"They are fine"
While I was zoning out Raph's breathing suddenly go unsteady and labored. I was about to rush to call the doctor but then his eyes twitched, and slowly opened.
"Miki?"
"Raph, how do you feel?"
"It's cold"
"Hold on, I am getting the doctor" as I was about to get up he said something I never would have expected Raph to say.
"Come with me, I don't want to go there alone"
"What are you talking about?"
"Please Mik-cough" he suddenly started coughing up blood.
"RAPH?" after I said that he stopped coughing but before I could feel any relief I heard a sound that made my heart sink even deeper.
my brother's heart flatlined.
I don't remember much after that, I am not even sure how I ended up here, this was the roof of the tallest building in the area, whenever I was feeling down my legs just lead me here, you could call it my spot.
My eyes scanned the scenery but I didn't feel like I was looking at anything, all I could think about were Raph's last words, he didn't want to go alone he wanted me to go with him and that is what I plan on doing, I looked down, usually they say that looking down makes you anxious but it made me feel eerily calm.
What will happen when I jump? as I was about to contemplate that question I heard a familiar voice from behind me, the voice of the person who hates me the most in this world, and I think that the only voice that could surprise me more than this at this moment was Ralph's.
"You always come here when something happens huh?"
"...."
I didn't say anything, there was nothing to say anyways, but when the silence stretched on she spoke again.
"So Why are you so close to the edge, don't you think that's dangerous?"
"Why are you here?"
"Just wanted to check on you"
"Now that you did, could you leave?"
"I can but I won't"
"I guess you of all people would want to see this"
"I don't want to see this so please don't do it"
"You don't want to see me die?"
"I don't so please don't die, Rapheal wouldn't want that"
"He asked me to" this was something I wasn't planning on telling anyone so I don't really know why I said it, maybe because it was her, but it made her mouth open and shut a couple of times, with no words coming out.
"Could you please leave now?"
"please don't do this"
"Why are you trying to stop me?"
"I already lost one friend today and I don't want to lose the other one"
"I am your friend?"
"Yes"
"...."
"After what I did to you?"
"Yes"
"I killed your father"
"I will forgive you if you stop this"
"Then I will never be forgiven." after I said that I turned my back, I heard her run toward me, but I jumped anyways, but then she grabbed me, I couldn't bear the thought of her also dying because of me.
We would have both fell had I not grabbed the edge, she was now clinging, the only thing between us and death was my grip.
"WHY?" I screamed but before I could her her answer my muscles gave out and we fell.