EVERYTHING feels so surreal.Parang nung una lang ay nakangiti pa ako, ngayon...My tears are running down."Care," tawag ni Kristine na kakapasok lang ng silid. She immediately wrapped her arms around me and softly brushed my hair when she saw my state.It was a minute of silence before she decided to suddenly hit my head. Teka, ang sakit, what the fuck! Sumama ang tingin ko sa kanya kahit na ayaw tumigil ng pag-iyak ko."Gaga! Kung makaiyak ka naman d'yan, parang may death sentence!" Nakakunot pa ang noo niya habang nakatingin sa'kin mula sa salamin. Kris grabbed some tissues before carefully wiping my face."Kanina pa siya ganyan," komento ni Mom habang naka-krus ang mga braso. "Sweetie, you're gonna make your make-up artist mad." Lumapit siya sa amin at tinulungan si Kristine sa pag-aayos sa'kin.Hindi na ako sumagot sa kanila at tumingin nalang sa repleksyon ko. Damn it, maiiyak ulit ako nito. Ang ganda ko! Kris retouched my face while Mom arranges my hair. Bigla ko namang nakita si Dad na pumasok dito.Shet, mukhang paiyak na rin siya."Tumigil ka r'yan, Carlo. Magulo na nga ang itsura ng anak mo oh," pagsusuway ni Mom sa kanya kaya natawa si Kristine. Dad jokingly looked up and tried to fan his face kaya ngumiti na rin ako."Ang baby ko, may iba nang ibe-baby!" pagdadrama pa niya. I got flustered at the thought.I can't believe a wedding would make me cry so bad. Ngayon, alam ko na feeling nung mga kakilala at kamag-anak kong kinasal na. It really brings a burst of emotions you could hardly control.And yes, I am getting married.Tapos dream wedding pa namin. Sinong hindi maiiyak ng bongga, 'di ba?The coordinator called us to proceed. Kristine left to the wedding location first after helping me with retouching, because she's my maid of honor. Ang bilis na ulit ng tibok ng puso ko habang papalapit na kami. I kept on hoping that nothing goes wrong.Ang tagal.Hindi pa raw ako pwedeng pumasok. I think they're a bit panicking inside. Jusko, pati tuloy ako nadamay!Malikot ang mga mata ko at sinusubukang alamin kung anong nangyayari. Then I saw someone with a familiar color of tux leaving the venue. It can't be."Mom, hindi ba suit 'yon ni---""I'm sorry, there will be a delay," Ella, our wedding coordinator, quickly informed us before vanishing in our sight. Anong delay?! Holy mackerel, will someone tell me what's happening?!Napapikit ako at tinanggal agad ang heels na suot. I shouldn't be overthinking this! Baka wala pa 'yong magkakasal samin, o may nasirang decoration!Bago pa ako masiraan ay pumasok na ako. Narinig ko pang tinawag ako ng magulang ko pero tuloy lang. My eyes immediately darted at the front—I sure hope he's standing right there, waiting for me."Miss Caroline, wait lang," the panicking coordinator went to me and held my arm. Ano ba kasing meron at may delay?!"Ella, okay lang." Someone held my hand and just like that, the chaos is gone. "Ako na kakausap."Pag-alis ng coordinator namin ay lumipat na siya sa harapan ko. When I looked at him, he wasn't wearing his tuxedo coat. The one I saw earlier. Anong nangyayari?"Hindi mo sinabing gusto mo pala ng first look," biro niya at saka tumawa. Pabalik-balik lang ang tingin ko sa mukha niya at sa suot niya. When he realized, he smiled at me."Nabutas 'yung coat ko. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nagkaroon pero medyo malaki. Nag-panic si Ella kasi makukuha sa photos 'yon. Si Papa siguro 'yung nakita mong lumabas, babalik sana sa room ko para kunin 'yung extra."Napipikit ako matapos marinig ang kwento. Then I made a deep breath before opening my eyes again. Hiro flicked my forehead, just like he always do."Alam ko na 'yan. Magtigil ka."Tito came back almost running with a coat in his hand. Hiro kissed my hand bago sila bumalik sa pwesto nila sa harap. I was frozen, until I heard my parents behind me."Itong si OA," pabulong na asar ni Mom sa'kin at hindi na ako nakasagot sa kanya. Dad helped me with my heels then Ella handed me the bouquet.It was obviously embarrassing and a bit stupid na magdire-diretso ako rito. Damn, what a great day! But as soon as I heard the piano, I forgot everything that happened."Ganda mo," Hiro mouthed as he took my hand from my parents. Tinapik ni Dad ang balikat ni Hiro at humalik naman si Mom sa pisngi."Family and friends, thank you all for coming today to share in this wonderful occasion. Today we are here together to..."Tumingin ako kay Hiro at nahuli ko siyang tinititigan ako.This is it. We finally crossed out number 43 from our list.