It's my first time that im not late.Just first time.I'm not late for school.Can you even imagine that?Did i just slept early and woke up early?Am i losing my mind?Am i actually?
Bell rings and class starts
Not that im gonna listen,i dont wanna do it,im only here for exams.Im not interested in reading any book,novels,books,i don't like them.How ironic you might think.I dont like fictions.All of them are lies.Who wants to believe lies?Am i being philosophic?f*ck it.Exactly.I lay my head on my desk and trying to sleep.It getting boring,why am i like that,im saying im bored and then doing the same simulation,it reminds me of someone like that.Why even people are considering living?What is so special about,im just doing the same things everyday.Am i getting suicidal out of nothing?Anything is weird about me?Everyone would think im weirdo.Im just sitting in there looking at sky.Do i love sky?Am i that much romantic?of course not.I never liked sky.It looks so boring.People who says they like sky,they are lying.Sky is the only thing that can change second by second which is considered as not boring.People who are bored says they likes sky.What you can do when you are bored?Looking at something that is not boring at all.Its maybe only me,others can be like that too.Sky is boring too nowadays.I sit on there but something was different.Something was tottaly different about me.Something is messing my brain.It can cause bad things.What was this feeling?I felt like im waiting for something to happen.Was that HOPE?.I had a feeling that everything could change.What was that hope.Come to your senses dumb.Im getting obnoxious for no reason.Door of class opened and i saw familiar face on there.He was there.The reason.Was he the actual reason of that?Im looking at you,the smile on your face,the smile on your eyes.They look same.You were the only one who smiled at me in that way.I couldn't take my eyes.Just starring would be enough.The color of your eyes when sun hits,your hair,your perfume,it was all probably 30 seconds,but it was 3 hours for me.360 times more.All i could do was starring,i cant say anything,i cant do anything.Im being weird all of sudden which is your fault.He saw me.Saw me while i was looking at him.He stared at me back.Smiled.It was worse,worse,worse.You shouldn't done it.You did blunder.Which would cause me blunder on end game.It feels strange.I feel like im about to lose my mind.He smiled?He did?He actually did?He smiled at me?What that means?What he wanted to say?Are you in love with me or am i in love with you?One of us are crazy.He is still starring.At that moment I would like to bury myself.I cant understand.I cant understand why is he doing it.Im scared.Im so scared.It can cause worse things.I dont want.Something is on my mind.Its like,It's like anything are piercing my brain.There have something.I don't know but in some period of my life anything happened,i dont remember.He gives me that feeling.That frustration,that annoying fellings.Did you even think that was love?
BELL RINGS
I left class for getting better.I'm walking on hallway then someone stopped me.It was him
Standing on way and looking at Karina"That means stop" all i can do is looking at him "Belive me i won't know if u don't tell.Are u crazy or something?Why stopping me out of blue" Smiles and grinding his eyes "I was not the who stared that "crazy" like dwelling into his soul"He caught me?I think i was starring very secretly,who said i stared at him,i didn't.I was just looking to someone who entered class.He must be talking about somebody else.I looked at him and avoiding eye contact as much as i can."Who did?".He looked at Karina.Like "Are you being serious right now?","Of course that was you",He leans in a bit."Are u putting an act?Doesn't works on me.Tell me why did you stared at me,as a person i have rights to ask".F*ck it you are so close.Yeah exactly i cant stand that much.Come on Karina,u can do it.I'd act cold.No information.I looked at him like im not gonna get heart attack right now."As a person i have free will to not answer questions."He is looking at Karina then hold her arm in soft manner.For him its friendly gesture."Come on,you have to tell this to me,im so curious.You will tell this right?right?".Looking at Karina with like a bit pleading look.GUESS MY STATE.Of course im shocked.I CANT MOVE.WHY IS THIS PERVERT HOLDING MY ARM.I am trying to act normal and not to slutter,it would make me look like someone who can't even speak."I was just trying to remember somebody's face.Your face looks familiar".It was lie but something doesn't feels right.Was that my actual reason?What was my reason for starring at him?I forgot.Yeah,i think i forgot.He looks relaxed after hearing Karina's reason."Is that all?Okay that is understandable.Just try not to stare that much".He smiles then looking at me."Let me introduce myself.I forgot about it.My name is Elliott,nice to meet you".Why is he introducing himself?Is he crazy or something?"I dont care about your name.I didn't ask.Im not planning to introduce myself".Elliott looks disappointed."It's just a name Karina,you just had to tell"."Yeah but i didn-Wait!How did you know my name?As i think you are pervert"He laughing a bit"Did u seriously think that i am pervert?Was that my first impression?".Smiles "I am not perv,i know your name because i can read your student ID on your uniform"Did i get too dramatic?Yeah i would like to bury myself from embarrassment right now.Act normal.You got it."Whatever it is,it is not nice to meet you"Elliott smirks a bit.I left there and go to my class.Yeah i'm nervous.I feel like my face is burning.It's all your mistake.Pervert,playboy,especially dumb.